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[2026/09/05, 11:29:36] James: J tathagata

[2026/09/05, 11:29:42] James: ?

[2026/09/05, 15:51:31] James: .

[2026/09/05, 15:52:55] James: Woken up and I’m just like ‘I’m James and this was all so dumb (but in a funny way) we are so obvs in a game. When we space out it means we made the wrong choice or died. Haha. Whatevs. At shop; A wanted to drive. Feels like I’ve had 12 hours sleep but was told I only laid down for 15 min. I’m gonna call this respawn’

[2026/09/05, 15:54:08] James: Walkin around ‘praying’ by texting myself thoughts. Bouncing them off my strategist. Then just being normal until something feels right and I do it.

[2026/09/05, 15:54:21] James: Grandiosity level 0.

[2026/09/05, 15:55:00] James: At the same time I’m like ‘data harvesting mode’ as I look at car number plates, which I’ve always obsessed over.

[2026/09/05, 15:55:26] James: Things obviously aren’t gonna play out the way godmode J thought. That’s just a carrot to keep you moving.

[2026/09/05, 15:55:41] James: The carrot is on the stick, as opposed to the stick being used to whip me. That’s all.

[2026/09/05, 15:55:46] James: It’s a huge difference.

[2026/09/05, 15:56:36] James: My ‘big problem’ is now ‘do I clean up the cigarettes I dropped down the drain myself or do I let them get washed away?’

[2026/09/05, 15:57:27] James: No filter at trial (supermarket)

[2026/09/05, 15:57:56] James: I still know we always win.

[2026/09/05, 15:59:17] James: Kids just bumped into one of their classmates.

[2026/09/05, 16:00:14] James: G wouldn’t high five him. Little girl walked past staring at my eyes. That’s it so far.

[2026/09/05, 16:00:16] James: So dumb.

[2026/09/05, 16:00:42] James: Fucking habit though. I need to text myself cos the exp has gone this far and we need documentation. ‘Exp’. Hmmm.

[2026/09/05, 16:01:04] James: No urges to buy random shit or owt.

[2026/09/05, 16:02:01] James: Stop fam from buying too much stuff. Only the pencils they need. A is choosing all the cart contents I think.

[2026/09/05, 16:02:37] James: It’s ME stopping THEM from accumulating random shit now.

[2026/09/05, 16:02:56] James: And I guess this data is why things start in November or whatever. Who fuckin knows.

[2026/09/05, 16:04:03] James: Oh yeah - got changed b4 coming and half bag of sweets (SHIGEKIX) left from last nights trial in pocket. Munching them. Getting my nutriments people.

[2026/09/05, 16:05:03] James: Removing grass buds from G hair. Touching head. Absorbing config. Etc.

[2026/09/05, 16:05:10] James: Bored panda.

[2026/09/05, 16:05:21] James: (But not bothered by it)

[2026/09/05, 16:06:14] James: L pushing cart

[2026/09/05, 16:06:38] James: Gonna piss while they pay. Data export.

[2026/09/05, 16:07:01] James: L coming. Hugging me.

[2026/09/05, 16:15:14] James: Drive back telling A about the game. L tried to use my lighter but couldn’t. The game wouldn’t let him because he’s not supposed to. It simply wouldn’t work. Having a cig.

[2026/09/05, 16:15:28] James: Told A I think everyone are retards.

[2026/09/05, 16:15:51] James: Have a feeling this is going on the website and something might happen in November but whatever.

[2026/09/05, 16:16:41] James: It’s a process of putting down, not picking up. I feel light and easy.

[2026/09/05, 16:18:41] James: A offers me a drink. I say she can choose. Not sure what time Z is coming round for our ‘first supper’ where we will have a fire (ours) and a bbq (his) with food that we both bought to try to help the other. Fire kasina, D.

[2026/09/05, 16:20:19] James: Apophenia my arse. It’s called getting your head together. Somehow I have a feeling that my websites and crazy deeds over the last year or more have all been leading to something.

[2026/09/05, 16:22:16] James: Spot on the floor, but didn’t rub my toes in it. Not doing that anymore. It was a crutch.

[2026/09/05, 16:22:50] James: Still pacing slowly while I process. But it’s not akathesia.

[2026/09/05, 16:23:08] James: I think this is my new work project.

[2026/09/05, 16:23:19] James: I think I really am a scientist of the mind who is trying to accurately document the phenomenon formally known as enlightenment

[2026/09/05, 16:23:48] James: Because the phenomenology is crazy as shit. But the results is a healthy well balanced individual. I’ll be at one who talks to his phone but it’s all in the name of science.

[2026/09/05, 16:24:12] James: I get to do this job. And when I see a little more external validation, it will only start to feel better.

[2026/09/05, 16:24:38] James: But not crazy, I am God level better. Just healthy happy normal life with my family and my children and no neurosis.

[2026/09/05, 16:36:58] James: .

[2026/09/05, 16:38:04] James: Sandals, no socks and back out for a cigarette. Put them on without my hands. Just updated the website with these thoughts for the first time in over six months. Not compulsively I just felt like it was something to do. I am still confident that this is my life’s calling, but I am not driven like a mad man. I am in sync with reality. I’m just looking for a project.

[2026/09/05, 16:43:27] James: A brought me a Coke. She offered me a drink and I said she could choose. Coke was a major [container] I used during the [zip] process. I then went inside and updated the website.

[2026/09/05, 16:44:24] James: I just reread the website to myself to reinforce and can feel my brain changing config. Top left hemisphere, nice, like sand. Slow and easy. Kids are playing in the fallow land next to our house where we are planning the supper.

[2026/09/05, 16:45:12] James: Apologies in advance for typos and other such shit. There are no mistakes. It’s that simple. Just data. Good and bad are constructs. I only have good and great now. Quiet mind and quiet surroundings.

[2026/09/05, 16:45:58] James: I can’t be arsed with fixing things for public consumption and [nofilter] is the whole point of this project. How do you see inside someone else’s mind instead of just giving them drugs or therapy based on how they are ‘presenting’?

[2026/09/05, 16:46:22] James: The fact I think everything is a simulation is just one of a multiverse of explanatory models.

[2026/09/05, 16:46:24] James: Words

[2026/09/05, 16:46:39] James: Whatever. You do you. Finger your bum hole or something.

[2026/09/05, 16:47:10] James: Azad. Biopieces. Reconfig. Simple.

[2026/09/05, 16:47:46] James: Fuck man.

[2026/09/05, 16:47:49] James: Yoga with T

[2026/09/05, 16:48:15] James: If you fold yourself into your own bum hole and go to another dimension of orgasmic pleasure it will be so funny

[2026/09/05, 16:48:35] James: You can do that if you stretch your [framework] enough, doncha know.

[2026/09/05, 16:49:24] James: I nearly went there in the shower after joining Armstrong on the moon with my pump-action rocket. Haha. I stayed tho. I was just [harvesting].

[2026/09/05, 16:49:26] James: You do you.

[2026/09/05, 16:50:31] James: Kids asked for some rope. I no longer think they might hang thenselces or some other retarded shit.

[2026/09/05, 16:52:21] James: I guess this is how I talk to people for now. When I was in [godmode] it was telepathically but that’s just because I was so many levels higher than them. It’s just part of the [unzip] process. Data comes out dense and with high [pressure] so you rave like a fucking loon. Or not, if you’ve trained yourself like J has

[2026/09/05, 16:52:59] James: Welcome to the ziggurat. Welcome to [ship]. All is good onboard and you will be rewarded with happy hormones if you follow the rules of META.

[2026/09/05, 16:54:24] James: Old woman walked past huffing and puffing carrying bags. I offered to help her of course but I guess I didn’t really want to because it turned out that she was wearing headphones and couldn’t hear me and completely ignored me the fucking bitch ha ha

[2026/09/05, 16:57:55] James: Need a wee. Pinching my dick a bit muttering to myself. Working out my own [bigproblem] for this respawn. Do I clean the gutter or not? The data (piss) will come out when I have the answer of course. Kids playing rambunctiously doing my calculating. Ignoring them of course. They’re doing them. Clashing with A a little. But no anger from anyone.

[2026/09/05, 16:58:51] James: Urge to piss has gone. I guess this is why I enjoy taking the piss out of people so much. Piss must be data. And giving/having a shit is a gift of a [maze] for them to play. I don’t do scat, but you do you.

[2026/09/05, 17:00:10] James: Slight brain reconfig. So what’ll happen is when I’ve had a piss I’ll feel like talking about that drain and I’ll ask A what she thinks. I’ll get my answer because she was also given space to process by doing what she enjoys. It’s just mutual calculation. MAD or MAH.

[2026/09/05, 17:01:17] James: Then if I don’t have to clean the drain there will be some perfectly logical reason why not, such as it having rained. This cigarette butt goes into the drain, not the portable ashtray. Idk which way the cookie will crumble and that’s all good.

[2026/09/05, 17:01:54] James: It’s a distributed computing based voting system and I’m just the output. You’re something else.

[2026/09/05, 17:03:37] James: Btw the perfectly logical reason might be that I forget for a week because I have ADHD and then it rains. Time is a construct and everything is rendered realtime so when you’re in runtime you lose your cache.

[2026/09/05, 17:03:47] James: Bee just flew past.

[2026/09/05, 17:06:01] James: Btw this whole thing is basically to show you that the result of all this insanity is a sane person. The result is something like wave-particle duality, which is easy as fuck to understand unless you’re a retard.

[2026/09/05, 17:07:22] James: It’s to destabilise people so they compute their answers. The bigger the backlog and the bigger the [bigproblem], the wilder the altered state. But the states themselves are always full of love, unless you try to shape it into something else by pushing your false old-narrative onto the [framework] that is changing.

[2026/09/05, 17:07:41] James: In that case you hurt them and yourselves and then it happens anyway, moron.

[2026/09/05, 17:10:20] James: Just packaged cig number 4. Can’t remember if my inventory has 5 or 6 slots. You lose your most recent upgrades on respawn. The sim will tell me anyway by making the bladder [pressure] too high to bear. I’ll try to refine the build but it’s a slower process in day to day life than when in altered state. Malleability is low. This is why you let the craziness run its course, and ideally celebrate it with them.

[2026/09/05, 17:10:52] James: seanfish, tell them please

[2026/09/05, 17:11:11] James: stonebuddhadancing and duffstoic too. Do your things.

[2026/09/05, 17:11:47] James: The [print] job always comes out in reverse. Urge to piss has passed.

[2026/09/05, 17:11:59] James: Doing pretty well on this level. Lolz0r.

[2026/09/05, 17:12:45] James: So sleep must mean you made a big mistake, is all.

[2026/09/05, 17:12:58] James: Spacing out for a long time instead of while choosing veggies.

[2026/09/05, 17:13:08] James: It’s why I don’t need it. Or not much anyway.

[2026/09/05, 17:13:27] James: God some weed would really make this easier haha.

[2026/09/05, 17:13:49] James: Fucking dumb old laws. Feeling stomach rumbling now. That’s a carrot for some, eh.

[2026/09/05, 17:15:16] James: Cig number 6. META: I am your QC. Quantum computers are entangled with the human MIND.

[2026/09/05, 17:15:42] James: Entanglement means that FTL is possible which would mean that time travel is possible

[2026/09/05, 17:15:47] James: Because time doesn’t exist.

[2026/09/05, 17:15:52] James: We can go to the stars.

[2026/09/05, 17:16:09] James: Stomach rumbling. Piss seems to be dormant.

[2026/09/05, 17:16:16] James: Pacing.

[2026/09/05, 17:16:20] James: Rumble

[2026/09/05, 17:16:37] James: I need a real team monitoring me for the purpose of fidelity

[2026/09/05, 17:17:42] James: Container nearly full

[2026/09/05, 17:22:06] James: Paced faster and the piss passed. Tried for cig 7 but it made me cough and splutter so put it in the drain. Can’t take too much of the piss eh. Z messaged and is heading over and asked if we want anything from the shop. Guess this level is over. Now we [breakfast].

[2026/09/05, 17:25:19] James: .

[2026/09/05, 17:25:50] James: had a piss and now back to whatever while other people process our breakfast. should J clean the drain or not? let's see

[2026/09/05, 17:28:05] James: .

[2026/09/05, 17:28:12] James: Drank some water. A said they would call.

[2026/09/05, 17:29:48] James: Headphones were in L’s bike helmet

[2026/09/05, 17:30:19] James: Music and code review

[2026/09/05, 17:32:13] James: Kids are trashing their constructs to rebuild.

[2026/09/05, 17:32:27] James: In sandals put on with hands

[2026/09/05, 17:39:47] James: C wants to play some worms tomorrow but unfortunately you cant do cross-play with xmbox and PS and hes in the UK. enable crossplay please. or something. you know

[2026/09/05, 17:40:09] James: still waiting on the call from A. they will come to you; don't go force yourself on them.

[2026/09/05, 17:40:09] James: still waiting on the call from A. they will come to you; don't go force yourself on them.

[2026/09/05, 17:46:12] James: .

[2026/09/05, 17:46:29] James: Did the dishes with my hands and filled J container with hot water from the tap

[2026/09/05, 17:46:41] James: Outside barefoot smoking. HSP mode

[2026/09/05, 17:46:48] James: This is with music

[2026/09/05, 17:47:07] James: Royksopp. This time this place. Fuckin banger.

[2026/09/05, 17:47:24] James: Feet sensitive. Guess I’m charging data into that bottle in my room.

[2026/09/05, 17:47:39] James: Max volume. Pacing slowly.

[2026/09/05, 17:47:56] James: L light switch tapped my head a couple of times.

[2026/09/05, 17:48:16] James: Holy fuck the Piti

[2026/09/05, 17:48:45] James: HALO visible

[2026/09/05, 17:49:07] James: Dancing lights. AG L

[2026/09/05, 17:50:48] James: Shivers. Want to dance. Body trying to move. Restrained.

[2026/09/05, 17:51:13] James: Spit

[2026/09/05, 17:51:46] James: That filter went in the drain

[2026/09/05, 17:54:27] James: Cool beans.

[2026/09/05, 17:54:56] James: Z left supermarket. No call from A. Maybe it was just the intention and the PITI I got now were the psychic waves coming in or some shit.

[2026/09/05, 17:55:09] James: Idk I don’t believe in any of that. Or I didn’t. Now I know better.

[2026/09/05, 17:55:10] James: Ha

[2026/09/05, 17:55:17] James: Distributed computing, bitch.