divine

So more and more I think that autism is god and adhd is the devil. Or autism order and adhd chaos. Good and bad. Yin and yang.

All cultures have this duality in some form or other. Whether they cooperate or compete depends on whether you’re in the east or west, but every religion has some kind of good and bad at its root.

Let's call it the nervous system and the endocrine system. Thought and emotion. Less contentious.

I believe that the eternal struggle in all of us is a large part of what created our religions. Audhd is just an extreme end of the bell curve, is all. I’d have been a monk if there was no science.

Pattern recognition, seeing god, fate, reading the tea leaves, the theory of relativity… it’s all ‘autism’ to some degree. It is easy to imagine a holy man seeing a pattern in the weather and predicting a storm, due to some gut feeling or voice, telling him it’s coming. All because of unconscious pattern matching.

The kingdom of heaven is within, as are all the hells. These are the brain states we have to chart.

But the thing doing the charting is the observer. And I think they're charting the land, not the weather. Buddha used the same analogy; an island unto yourself and observe the clouds come and go.

The more I think about it the harder it is to imagine any other possibility actually. We all have this internal struggle, and we all have some level of rng in our emotions. They’re juices, not voltages. They leak.

There’s a very good possibility that the autistic people saw these patterns and ended up becoming the saints, the divine. The level of evangelism… it all fits. The fact I’m making this fucking website ha. Shout it from the rooftops!

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To do good is to act in line with your own personal values, whatever they may be. And those values are obscured by storms in the adhd brain.

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