9. inhabiting reality

So the work was done and this was my first taste of ‘final’ enlightenment. Before the next one, that is.

I oscillated. You always oscillate. But each time the oscillation becomes less pronounced. I had documented the phenomenology several times in language I understood so even though I had the odd ‘am I crazy’ and ‘am I dead’ and ‘are my family dead and I’m in trauma therapy’, it was a lot easier to deal with.

You have to understand that these thoughts are just the Mind exploring its new configuration and figuring out the new world in which it resides and its new purpose in the network. The [node]s that fired together are still wired together.

Initially I was in my [scaffold], exporting the new understanding of that world. It had become more coherent with this iteration. It always does. Every time you [upgrade], your old insights will seem so banal as to be the writings of a preschooler. This never changes.

After that I looked in the mirror and realised that the [scaffold] was just another formation. It was just one of an infinite variety of different perceptual frameworks, none any more valid than the other. I let it go.

I then came back to [realworld] and exported my new understanding of the mechanisms at play. But at the same time, I let [realworld] go too, seeing that this also is nothing more than one of an infinite variety of different perceptual frameworks.

I proceeded to stop writing for a while. The job was done. I was in total equanimity. I had no sankhara apart from a few residual echoes around the bridge of the nose. I sat there for about a month and was perfectly content. I kept recording things because I had come this far and wanted the phenomenological record to be complete, but I was confident I was at what people called ‘final liberation’. People disagreed, but they will, won’t they? It's all a stress-test because the network never stops growing.

I then… well I realised that I never did this ‘to get enlightened’. I was not just after my own liberation. I was thrown into this, and my entire life has been about helping other people. The whole reason that I dissected this process was so that I could bring it to people *outside of the religious frameworks*.

I had followed the Buddhist path to get to this point, but now it was time to step out on my own.

So after I had finished exporting my understandings of things under the formation of Buddhism, I set about going a step further so that I could create my own new formation which would be more understandable by the modern masses. Or... well... by my hyper-technical sci-fi nerd candidates and friends.

You can look at the aboutme page to see that this was my intention from the very outset.

I was thrown into this by very dangerous DSM- and consensus-reality-dictated pharmacological practices and I had friends who had killed themselves in similar situations. I have spoken with 3 random Japanese people in person about this, and 2 of them had also had similar experiences of the psychiatric industry.

It was time to instigate another change, this time in the [globalsim], not just my own [localsim].