So…
I’m now thinking that sensory gating issues combined with dopamine signalling issues. Sensory gating means overload so I can’t process stuff but ignoring that..
I think 100 chunks of data come in and I only receive 20, where someone else might get 80. So to see the full picture I need to extrapolate like a madman.
So it might not be a case of single thread, but a case of… a trickle of data coming in, an overclocked computer going to town on it, and something coming out. Not always what was expected, but usually interesting.
Also explains blurting shit out because of the poor buffer. But that’s the only way you get the info. Hence this page.
So the data goes in, less. Needs to get the output so extrapolates like wild. Gets something; who knows what.
I suppose this is why I’m able to extrapolate how it might work from just those formless brain farts at the start. Just needed something raw to work with.
And then when it has it, it can’t hold it in RAM. It’s either listening, or holding it, or the steel wool. Oh god the steel wool. I can finally feel it building. Off topic. Self prompt.
Anyway so I function a lot better when I’m in the flow state and this makes sense now. It’s because otherwise the RAM starts to overload. And I feel like probably polishing knives is some extension of this.
Ding
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