So I got a couple extra hours for total 5.5. This might be me - split sleep. But let’s see.
The relief I feel from this med…
it cuts both ways, I guess.
There will be people out there far worse off than I was. Dancing men and women. We can help the dancers find their own time,
How might thought process differ in an adhd brain? If aripiprazole is a one-off, would you still do this? Yes. This is bigger than one drug and would be an entire paradigm shift. Someone will do it.
So.
I think we have two processors; in a way. One is high randomness low speed and the other is high speed low randomness. Your adhd and your autism. Your tiger and your maze. I think your maze is curated while you sleep, and the tiger is released in the morning.
Literally, Because of REM, NREM and synaptic pruning. I think your autism restrains adhd. The brain restrains the hormones.
Each day the tiger roams and the tamer learns. The tamer tailors the maze, and the tiger plays ball, or not, and the tamer learns.
So the tamer is the AI and the tiger is the rng.
We need logic to have near-zero rng because quantum fluctuations are near negligible.
So…
Tiger is waiting. asd has tailored the cage.
The tiger is a program running on a platform? Adhd on top of asd? Or are they equal?
I think asd has a deeper place than adhd in adults. It is inherently less volatile because it is hardware. So the autoencoder loop could be something like:
Asd output -> adhd input
rng = asd input
rules = adhd input
rng = asd input
rules = adhd input
It seems like human learning and adaptation could almost be summarised this way.
So the neurones are mush at the start and the emotions are king. Give me mother. This would mean that the adhd is in charge at the outset. So there is usually a tipping point in most people where the asd becomes more powerful and the emotions calm down, but I think this does not occur in the adhd brain. I think people just learn coping strategies and how to hide things, instead of actually ‘growing up’.
So do we have 2 stages in the processing: one where asd is soft and the other where it’s hard. So we need malleability as a data point and this needs to change as age progresses.
At the outset 1 processor: emotion.
This shapes the process of asd.
Which then takes control of the emotion and gets the PFC to dampen things pre-cognition.
Maybe.
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