That movement of the hands the fingers. the minus one third in the absolutely delicious curvature of the wrist and thumb and fingers. The artist, painting his own hand reaching out to god, ever so gently elevating those fingers, just enough to make them weightless but not enough to move. The divine. Evoking the forms. Eastern dances and tai chi. These things are all the same and you can feel it in your sinew when the channels of your body with their electric muscular currents are open and flowing and prana dwells within and you are full.
There is something to all of these divine states, I think the flip-side of being in withdrawal for all my life is that I can experience the divine. I never think I allowed myself to, though. Was screwing my eyes against the wind. Now; now I allow myself to. Thank you, drugs.
All the constructs; simplest example is straight gay bi. Realised I probably swing both ways but don’t care to the point of bothering with labels. Anyway all of these constructs are there preventing us from experiencing the divine. The eternal now. The kingdom of heaven which dwells within. whatever
They do this by lowering the resolution. The word ‘chair’ is more low-res than an actual chair so it destroys the chair.
1s and 0s are high resolution, so the chair remains a distinct chair. It survives the process. Beam me up Scottie.
Our divine experiences - I would argue - are when we bypass human language and live in our biological 1s and 0s.
This is being in the moment, being in the now, being in heaven, or being in hell. It doesn’t need to be nice; this is just real. The brain-language is sufficient to capture the experience, but the human-language is not sufficient to portray or replicate it.
The divine - I think - is what we feel when we are as engaged in our body as if we were in agony, but we are not in agony. Or maybe agony is divine, thinking about it. Exquisite pain sure sounds divine. Self flagellation and endless meditation are quite common. So is adhd.
This divine, silken movement of the hands. The mudra, the wrists in the geisha dance. These things are all biologically valid.
We have energy channels within our body - fluids and salts and electricities. Gaskets and oils. And when these things are all moving as designed, then we can maybe be said to be dwelling with god, or living in the now, or 無心 or in flow. These are all one and the same I think; the human experience given different labels over the years. You are what you eat.
These experiences span the entirety of human history and civilisation. All cultures in all times.
Nirvana.
That’s the word.
It was invented to mean something like ‘there are no words for this experience’.
Well there are no human words but if you can divide things all the way down to 1s and 0s then we are into the realm of legoblocks and you can rebuild anything. This is how teleporters work and why we could be in a simulation. Are either of these things real? Would we know? Does it matter? Such fun little questions compared to the last month.
I did really enjoy being able to revisit a few core concepts like free will though. I feel like I have answered a few of the more answerable of the unanswerable, at least to my satisfaction. So now I can drive forward and have these rocks to touch whenever things get rough. Brain chemistry and intent.
There is something to all of these experiences. Enlightenment is something anyone can attain, said the buddha, and millions over the world are enlightened right now. Probably everyone is enlightened in a transient manner once or twice in their life.
This is what I want to be able to replicate, reliably, for the individual, on an ongoing basis. And I think with the insights I have into how my brain works, I might be able to. Oh…
That was the god hypothesis - sorry.
We’re going to cure* adhd. That’s the low hanging fruit. Ha!
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*find better diagnostic and treatment options.88h languague