Alright my brain is slotting into place now. The metaphors are starting to click with the science.
It's kinda sad though. Same old. First time my brain works and first time I feel happy in my life, and everyone probably thinks I've lost it. When I was on the verge of killing myself, they'd have said I was fighting the fight, and now I've won, they think I'm at risk.
But then saying you've won is a red flag. How about you say you've found the medication that suits your brain? So you've won? Unless they stop making it. Pretty unlikely. So you've won?
Maybe it'll stop working. All the research suggests not. So you've won? Maybe. Not 100% on that one.
The one remaining question is cyclothymia, but this was so obviously caused by the med and feels so different to anything I've experienced before (the buttered joints and brain) that .. I don't think it is. I think it's the med. And I think that means I won.
But hey. Should probably just shut up and medidate. Enjoy these days.
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