So more and more I think that autism is order and adhd chaos. Good and bad. Yin and yang.
All cultures have this duality in some form or other. Whether they cooperate or compete depends on whether you’re in the east or west, but every religion has some kind of good and bad at its root.
I believe that the eternal struggle in all of us is what created our religions. Audhd is just an extreme end of the bell curve, is all. I’d have been a monk if there was no science.
Pattern recognition, seeing god, fate, reading the tea leaves… it’s all ‘autism’ to some degree. It is easy to imagine a holy man seeing a pattern in the weather and predicting a storm, due to some gut feeling or voice speaking to him, telling him it’s coming. All because of unconscious pattern matching.
The kingdom of heaven is within, as are all the hells. These are the brain states we have to chart.
But the thing doing the charting is the autism. Let’s call it the nervous system, since everyone has one of those. The analogy of land. Buddha used the same; an island unto yourself and observe the clouds come and go.
The more I think about it the harder it is to imagine any other possibility actually. We all have this internal struggle, and we all have some level of rng in our emotions. They’re juices, not voltages. Shit leaks, yo.
There’s a very real possibility that the autistic people saw these patterns and ended up becoming the saints, the divine. The level of evangelism… it all fits. The fact I’m making this fucking website ha.
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