asd thought model

  Funnels of cognition

So the person who I’m talking to about the meds side said this:

[Something interesting that occurs both in schizophrenics and people taking psychedelic drugs is - if you conceptualize brain networks as a topography with peaks and troughs, neuronal activity will tend to stabilize within local minima - in psychosis the activation energy to transition between minima seems to decrease - which explains the flight of ideas, loose associations (also known as apophenia), etc.]

This immediately sucked my attention in but I had no idea why. Then this image of multiple sand clocks just kept playing through my head until I woke up at 1 to write it down.

This is how it feels when I am in flow.

And maybe when I’m on my way to the bottom of a looped thought too.

It feels like sand, almost, like gravity just funnelling the data together. In the weaver analogy this would be like warping the threads; the weave can only ever happen within that warp.

So it’s almost like spacetime; a wormhole. The way it loops in and twists on itself like a ribbon, with the thoughts from one sand funnel somehow blending into another, and another, swirling around and being shaved off like pencil shavings until they’re all in the same place falling down together and then there you are, at the solution.

This is how I view my channelling and my weaving. This is how it feels when I am in flow and my hyperconnected brain is working optimally. It’s a lot easier to achieve now but still pretty surreal to think about.

There must be something here. And ChatGPT says it’s not stolen so… have at it.

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[post-awakening edit: this is where I could feel my thoughts. Yep. I could feel them, Mr Neuroscientist]