anger

I had a low-level anger toward everything. I had no idea why. I wasn’t angry, so why was I angry? It was so strange.

Well the juices were doing their evolutionary randomness, that’s why. And they aren’t any more. And I’m not angry any more. So simple.

The pervading anger at the world and - more importantly at myself - has faded. I wouldn’t say it’s fully gone but it sure feels that way right now.

I think the anger is because of insecurity and fear caused by irregular dopamine signalling and the inability to form solid, nurturing relationships due to rsd, but who knows.

All I know is that with medication and treatment, the ‘meaningless anger’ has gone. I can and do still feel justified anger.

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