focus

I am both the most focused and most distractible man you will ever meet. I have an obscene amount of tenacity but my tolerance for frustration is minimal. I am incapable of doing a minute of accounting until crunch time but will happily spend 6 hours straight cutting a single veneer.

It’s extremes. My dopamine system latches on, hard, and my memory means that I forget where I was.

So think of this like a train that switches track completely. Rusty level; hard to switch, but once it switches, that’s it. Most people would somehow leave one foot on the other track. Bad analogy but this is what happens.

I am either laser-focused on my current task to the point where you can froth spittle in my face and I will not hear you, or I am incapable of even turning on a computer game for a little much-needed r&r.

One of the actual benefits of audhd is that it’s easier to get into a flow state, and I’ve been pretty lucky in how much control I’ve exerted over the tiger’s cage over the years. But task initiation and switching is challenging.

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