[exhausted, but 4 wakings within 80 min of going to bed; it was not like this before aripiprazole]
[2025/07/23, 20:54:22] James: Heading to bed 9-ish. Let’s see how it goes. Down to just 200mg valproate now.
[2025/07/23, 21:12:19] James: Blip
[2025/07/23, 21:50:52] James: Blip awake again
[2025/07/23, 21:51:10] James: Maybe someone is controlling this after all and funnelling me toward this conclusion
[2025/07/23, 22:01:26] James: Ok so it’s 10pm and I think I have the solution to the question; what is the question.
[2025/07/23, 22:01:44] James: I will try to sleep a few more times before taking action.
[2025/07/23, 22:18:46] James: Hmm awake again and considering going downstairs to write.
[2025/07/23, 22:21:43] James: Occam’s razor suggests the simplest solution is true
[2025/07/23, 22:21:46] James: FLE is simple
[2025/07/23, 22:21:52] James: As are a drug overdose
[2025/07/23, 22:22:26] James: But these nighttime wakings push me toward the FLE option, as do lots of quirks of my life to date.
[2025/07/23, 22:22:35] James: The 5 year personality arcs. Projects.
[2025/07/23, 22:22:45] James: I am now in the life-stream
[2025/07/23, 22:23:10] James: I am a stream enterer
[2025/07/23, 22:23:16] James: It will only get better from here
[2025/07/23, 22:23:31] James: It’s ok to get up and write. Don’t force yourself to try to sleep again. That’s enough for now.