So I guess I need to put a bow on things so that I can fully devote my processing power to the task which comes next: modern day vipassana meditation with a focus on neurotransmitter identification.
Yeah that’ll require all your focus. So that’s about 80% of my life’s overarching structure understood right there.
I have to close one chapter before I can read the next one because I lack the working memory to hold it in mind.
I cannot hold my children in mind while i ride my bicycle. But I can be engaged in the moment. That is what I can do. Not many people can do that.
So there may be two modalities of spritiual satisfaction after all.
I know religion is for the masses and faith for the person and that’s great. I’m all for faith and if religion can stay the course, which is rare, then good. We need wholesome spiritual nourishment and a mental hug for a supernatural being.
But the priests probably don’t get that. Probably the priests and the me-s are the tortured ones because we are told ‘there is a god’ and we see no evidence and we are autistic so we spend our entire lives questioning and then we die and get sainted. You know how my brain works by now I’ll put a few more disclaimers in but I’m starting to trust the process.
This website is like in Japan where they learn to drive a car in a converted parking lot type thing. That’s what this website is now. I’m just using the keyboard as a way to stay anchored in some form of modicum of body while the mind goes on consceptual leaps and th awarenes goes dristi.
That’ll do.
This is really pleasauable.
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