So that was interesting. I think I just spotted a way to track human thought through the synapse and body by radioactively marking aripiprazole.
It just fell out of me, thanks to ari. Same as the unvalidated audhd stuff before, which was the foundation. It has all built on itself to this point.
And we are at dopamine.
The most fundamental.
And now we can analyse and begin to monitor and track and build. Because I’m confident in this even if…. dude its 2am they’re asleep.
Anyway this is huge. An actual eureka moment. And I feel really relaxed, like everything is easy, because I’ve reached the end of the 5 days come-up period for ari, I think. Not black and white of course.
And like clockwork, out dropped an idea. I think the ari kind of… pooled in the synapses where my thoughts had gotten stuck over the last few decades. I think it pooled there and then acted like a laxative to flush them out, and once the final synapse was lined up and we had our model for tracking dopamine through the body - whoosh.
An easy orgasmic waterfall of silken smooth beanball beans, infinitesimally small and billions in number, all funnelling down these sand funnels in my mind, to a single conclusion which is: here’s how.
And then I’m up.
So this is part drug and part me.
I think the drug is acting like a brush to scrape the synapses clear of junk. I also think it builds up during the come up phase and releases like this, and I believe that this is what catharsis is. This is why all the trauma processing and wracking sobs, and the synaptic realignment when it releases. The dopamine runs and straight and true course right through that shit.
Where is this shit coming from. I just absorbed audiobooks to deal with my own trauma.
Anyway.
That’s where we are,
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I wonder if this will seem like a big deal to them. I’m honestly surprised at their lack of response to all my enthusiasm these lasyt 2 months. But they didn’t hve a broken OS. Tjhe people with a broken OS. They’ll get it.
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What must be happening is Im diverging on two funnels and then at the verybend they are making a brudghe and all the sand is coming across.
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Alright I can't sleep but this is my theory of relativitiy so that's understadable. Y'alright there Bert? Was it you who said eureka?
I just said it.
It felt fucking great.
Really great.
My own eureka.
James Baird
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PS. Still keeping an eye on the brain chemistry and I might have an inch to go with the ari yet so there's a chance there's another nugget just waiting to pop out, and then hopefully I'll be steady state at a clinical dose or whatever they fucking call it enlightened yeah.