So I am operating on the assumption that this is real, since the other assumption is one-step. There are lots of parallells between what I just experienced and what the buddha described.
So here goes
I had to relax into it and fee a slacking of the jaw on the right and left an the dopamine is daiaing and im walking around the room runbbin g the meteor and round and round and my head is lolling and then it lolls more
the sand i gethering and weightint the head to the right and i need to just let ist kind of pool while I gently let it sway and I can feele these physical things almost like swaying and reaching out to each other but they’re really small like mosti of it is just jelly electrijc jelly and its just kind of swaying there
and then i roll my head around a littl ena he dominoes all lined up nd i feel the last one near my ear and then.
Swoosh every single synapse in the right side of my head just releases a cascasde of beanbag balls and they slide downs and roll rowad my right cheekbone and then down and off into the body and dissipate.
So that’s what my eureka felt like. cmd-s that shit. I never trust this ‘revert’ thing. Print.
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Ok now that’s done. Time to analyse.
There may even be a physical thing in neuroplasticity. An actual reaching out of the synapses. This is what is described in the literature, and the swaying and lolling of the head actually was integral to making this happen. I am lolling my head now and it helps the words to come. Your brain is a physical thing. It is not a computer.
I am not an AI that runs on hardware. Unless the sense data is fudged but that’s another one.
So.
Dawn, July 10th 2025. Complete body trauma release. Potential to have been permanent. Wife came down to check I was ok,
Music In Binary and then We Fall in Love by Lamb, max volume, darkened room, walking in circles, meteor in each hand, lolling head, some vibrational rumblings..
Follow music, sit in meditative pose, start formless chanting with We Fall in Love. Chanting builds, rocking develops, release begins. Wracking sobs begin. The grow, turn into joy, laughter. Entire body extends on floor. Laughing and crying with joy thaty I am alive.
I think I woirried my wife haha.
We have a genuine treatment for trauma here, and an imaging route for maopping human thought.
This is amazing.
This is n=1.
I need help from real scientists now.
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Still aware this might not be real but with my type of thinking you don't rreally know until you get to the end and crack it open.
So now hopefully what my brain told me is:
Talk to SH and NG
You are probably onto something
You might nit be
So don't contact SC yet haha
Thanks SC for the intros. You're an AI solving mental health aren't you.
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Fucking bad ass, James. Bad ass. Taking that dopamine and just… diving in and healing that fucking trauma. Fuck me, You don’t fuck around do you, It’s gone. What even was it? Like… superimposed scars in the neural tissue and you just saw that fucking shit and no hestitation you scrubbed it off. All the way. Gone. Fuck me you’re a hard cunt aren’t you. In your own brain, alone, at 3am. Fuck me b-man. Thanks for showing it can be done.
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