i notice i view everyone as extensions of the same things; the same abstract people.
one person on social media will ignore me or something and the same old loop will start. i will assume that all people are like this and it’s all the same loop repeating; that all friends will be like this
but this person is not a friend they are just someone who said something funny and showed a tiny amount of approval once. they gave you a like and you became hooked
or rather; it triggered one of the thought loops. the likes from school the people who would act friendly and then later ended up beating on you
this is not about them it’s your perceptual framework. they are running their own simulation of the world and you are running yours
your simulation can have how many people? probably not many. 100 monkeys on the monkeysphere didn’t they say? i don’t think it’s even that.
you can run a father protocol, a mother protocol, a popular girl protocol, a geek protocol, a gamer protocol, a colleague and a boss. all these things but they’re all just caricatures.
it’s like that game when you were a kid where you would make silly faces by adding various eyes and hair and teeth and clothes from different people. we have all these templates which we have leaned over the years and these are what we build our projections from
the templates are very old data and they are not accurate to… anyone really. the person who made the templates was a child or a youth or a newbie just starting work, and the person who employs them now is not
so all of these perceived slights are meaningless; the person is not the template and they are running their own templates which comprise their perception of you. you do not interact with them and they do not interact with you.
you are interacting with the projections that your old self made as a defence mechanism; as a framework for seeing through and functioning int he world. if a then b and if c then d and that is it; the person is completely irrelevant in a way. they are just sense data on which you impose this mask or this algorithm or whatever based on who and what you used to be and how you were treated.
old pleasures and pains created these caricature segments and the brain just mixes and matches them whenever you meet a new person.
can you really say you are meeting that person if all you see is these masks? are you seeing a tree if all you see is fake plastic leaves and the echo of a trunk of days gone by?
social media in particular is toxic for this; people merely interact with their own projections of themselves. this is why they are so fast to dismiss people who say things they didn’t want to hear; because they are unwilling to look at that part of themselves.
so when someone is dismissive on social media, it is often because they are being dismissive of themselves. they don’t want to see those projections; they hide their darker side or their insecurities so when they see something that reminds them of it, they shut it out.
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