aboutme

I’ll not write you a CV but you deserve to know who you are working with.

I built Japan’s first AI-focused recruitment company in 2014; one of the first in the world. I helped build several of the top AI companies in Tokyo, culminating in a huge project that I still believe in but which destroyed me on the personal front. I had a reputation as one of the most reliable and honest recruiters around; if you wanted a good egg, you came to me.

I was a recovered alcoholic at ironman world championship level fitness, retired at 40 with a loving family, and gradually dying inside. I had a lifetime of repressed trauma from undiagnosed audhd. Finding a suicide body tipped the scales to where my self-led art therapy was not enough and I went to a doctor.

I was given several drugs, to which I had unusual responses. Aripirazole put me in a unique brain chemistry that I recognised as the divine and would have been clinically classified as mania. Over the course of 2 months (3 subjective years) I built the neuronal strength to drive the car and proceeded to use self-concocted meditation techniques to examine the cause of my suffering. The drug was addiction in-and-of-itself and was also killing me rapidly, so achieving liberation from all craving was a matter of life-or-death.

This reached critical mass on 10th July 2025, when I had the trauma of a life of undiagnosed audhd explosively wiped from my brain. It’s all a bit blurry from there but I recorded everything online in realtime with the hope that this could be replicated for others. I spent 2 days flirting with the unconditioned until I was exploded out of my ego and somehow came back to earth as a new james.

I am a scientist at heart but my neurological makeup made me largely incompatible with the scientific method. I started school with art, then did maths and physics, a gap year in Japan, and then Japanese and Chinese, moving to Japan permanently. Childhood was love from my parents and violence from peers. I have lived in poverty and affluence and six different countries. I have been addicted to everything, positive and negative. I have tried almost every drug out there. Nibbana is incomparable. It is something else.

I am now creating a comprehensive ‘nibbana-protocol’ so we can bring this to the world. It is not what you think. It is a consolidation of all the lessons of your life, and a wiping of all the scars and trauma. It is a new life; a rebirth; a clean slate. It is seeing through the veil of the world and experiencing the sheer unfiltered awe of your senses flow through your brain in realtime. 

It is still not what you think.

But it is replicable.

I'm going to figure out how.

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