audhd

analysis = audhd // preparation = 88 hells // dissolution = alteredstates // decompression = technospirituality 

audhd presentation // system // solution // symptom // strategy  

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conclusions: 1 - autism and adhd are evolution for the meme

2 - adhd caused my autism

3 - I have found a lifetime prosthetic for my audhd in aripiprazole, but getting there is a challenge [this was incorrect due to cyp2d6 flushing speed]

process: 6 weeks of diverge/converge free association using the language of buddhism, technology and neuroscience. total 4 cycles, increasing cohesion

environment: echo chamber, nighttime; not consciously selected

duration: first dose am 23 May 2025 and first full build am 8th July 2025. total 46 days. subjective time appx 18 months

meds: aripiprazole // guanfacine // valproate // recreational cannabinoids [aripiprazole was the big one]

background: diagnosed adhd + asd age 41 after lifetime unaware. company founder, world traveller, ironman, father, retired at 40

reason: this was an unexpected effect of legit asd meds I thought might also help my adhd. I did not expect it

now: i rest and let my mind work on the business plan of how to use AI to map out individual brains and tailor neurotransmitter cocktails to make the world nicer [little did I know the meds had other ideas]

IMPORTANT: You will not experience this like me. I now know that I essentially had such strong adhd and asd clashing that the 'asd side' tended to express itself through gifts... and not much more. It's taking a while to sink in, but the delayed processing, sensory gating, silken thoughts, lowered head noise, hypomania, increased lability due to raised dopamine, time cell regulation, and then the plateau and clinical effect. It all combined to produce something akin to a spritual awakening, a hard reset for my system, and a 'breaking free' of the self. This is not a psychedelic drug and was not done with anything like that in mind. My brain is far stranger than I first thought. Ari might be a valid treatment, but it's unlikely to make you see god, and it's a strong drug. Let the research proceed. <--- this was written before the 88 hells 

this poem fell out fully-formed shortly before my mask-of-masks imploded.

good books: adhd unpacked the autistic brain behave global brain what the buddha taught