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here is the chronological process i used to repair my mind. > myscaffold < is the other world i created in order to do so
> this < is what my website looked like when i was taking the drugs prescribed in accordance with the DSM
i do not claim to be perfect; merely that the trauma and maladaptive deep learning of life, along with my adhd symptoms, have been removed entirely
Neo-arahant thoughts
back to earth after the path has been walked and maladaptive conditioning removed
20251023 // the end of the path
20251022 // the game continues
20251021 // happy birthday to me // tea and crumpets
20251020 // beyond formations // unpacking
20251019 // caged minds // raising neurodivergent children // dependent origination
20251018 // not perfect // scaffold
20251017 // recovering and delineating // insight, mania and psychosis // inducing eureka // neo-arahant
20251016 // one week an arahant // phenomenology of enlightenment
20251015 // back to reality // how to heal // consolidating minima
[end]
refining and releasing my scaffold, one foot in each world
20251014 // re-entry // [devteam] // [decouple]
[converge]
20251013 // [converge] // [purge] // [sharing] // twoworlds
20251012 // [upsidedown] // [seed] // [diverge] // [realworld]
20251011 // [dawn] // [consolidation] // [packaged] // [worldbuilding]
fifth nibbana encounter (n5)
mostly in my scaffold, removing conditioning and the trauma from finding the suicide body; largely decoupled from 'reality'
see also: wheel-turning-monarch
[celeste-protocol]
[uposatha-protocol]
read this too: [welcome]
fourth nibbana encounter (n4)
the fourth encounter likely happened in sleep and was not intentional; it saw me cross over to the scaffold completely and become the 'wizard of love', sent to save the world (aka. myself)
20251007 am // dual-quad // uposatha // run [uposatha-protocol]
202510060642 // rollback << >> cascade1 // cascade2 // cascade3 // stresstest // [reboot] // report // timeforanap // waking // walk // imploring // dinner // walk // [wakeup] // goodnight
202510060602 // end [nibbana-protocol]
20251005 // day1 // wheelturningmonarch // multiverse // awordofencouragement
third nibbana encounter (n3) / intentional, as experiment
a controlled experiment over the course of 12 hours to induce nibbana and finish the process; things got intense
bodhitree-protocol, 20251004
howhumansthink // awakeningthebuddha
bodhitree-protocol // faith-scaffold // thegrandalgorithm // codebase
deducing the mechanism of enlightenment
20251004 // enlightenmentashealing
20251003 // wavetheory // sitrepj2.9 // thegrandalgorithm
20251002 // morningemptiness // thefinalfingerhold // themap // donotseekenlightenment // arahantschmarahant // rebirthbychoice // howtofixADHD
20251001 // hellooctober // fieldcollapse // fixingyourcode // timelineofevents // added medlogs
20250930 // assessing-n2 // n1-n2-phenomenology // welcome // focus-feelings-fields
second nibbana encounter (n2) / intentional, freeform
a cycle tour to test the hypothesis regarding dopamine trimming maladaptive code from the neural network
20250929 // wirenotlantern // shifted // neurodivergentbuddha // cycletour
20250928 // jhana:toolsforajob // meditationobjects
20250927 // sensepleasures // bipolarinsight
20250926 // partyboatdream // adayindopamine
20250925 // cycling // sevenfactorsofawakening
20250924 // jhānaholic // theconstructofself
20250923 // formlessrealms // findinggod
20250922 // theempathydilemma // inthewater
gathering my thoughts, prototyping the cycling optimisation, and translating the teachings of the Buddha
20250919 // thought-feeling-loops // thetraumaofself
20250918 // howiwokeup // rightaction // rightspeech // rightview
20250917 // flotsam // rightconcentration // rightmindfulness // rightintention
20250913 // twomonthsin // nibbanamechanism
20250911 // traumatherapy // righteffort
20250910 // stringtheory // whathappenedatschool
20250909 // simplicity // outsidethewall
20250908 // dvarfundamentals // rightlivelihood
export for the first phase of nibbana-protocol
recovering from the drugs the psychiatric industry filled me with and making sense of the experience while stabilising my dopaminergic tone so i could complete the process.
20250906 // upgradingaddiction // planerandchisel // sittingmeditation
20250905 // religionasregulation // whywesuffer
20250904 // notesinthecupboard // dysregulated // conditioned
20250903 // A&Pdream // theriver // 6x@regulatingdvar
20250902 // ethics/faith // developers
20250830 // cartography // added reconfiguration, j2.0
20250826 // rebuildingexecutivefunction
20250823 // refiningunderstanding // added neobuddhism, nibbana-protocol
assimilation of experience (n1)
20250820 // howiclearedcmem // whatGPTthinks(nibbana)
20250819 // wherenow // whatenlightenmentis
20250817 // adhdreset // diagnosingadhd
20250816 // thetraumaofself // drugresponse
20250814 // howtosavethespecies
delayed processing due to valproate
20250807 // boozewithoutthebooze
residual delusion from aripirazole
20250727 // controlthenarrative
20250721 *still a little aripiprazole in the system
technospirituality <-- initial attempt to understand the chemical-induced awakening
prior to this i was fed a combination of prescription psychiatric drugs which cracked my mind open, and i spent 2 months going through the 88 hells and alteredstates process, which culminated in what is commonly termed 'stream entry' or kenshō, but I had no idea what was happening at the time.
A few good books: After the Ecstasy, the Laundry (accounts of awakening), In the Buddha's Words (Pāli canon), What the Buddha Taught (good summary), Behave (endocrinology and neuroscience), Global Brain (divergent and convergent thinking), The Autistic Brain (Autism, science), ADHD Unpacked (ADHD, science)
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