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[2025/09/24, 7:48:48] James: So I seem to be more within my container of self in the mornings

[2025/09/24, 7:49:01] James: Things consolidate I guess and I return to a semblance of solidity

[2025/09/24, 7:49:17] James: Then as the day goes on I seem to become more free flowing and equanimous

[2025/09/24, 7:49:24] James: With the occasional down phase

[2025/09/24, 7:49:33] James: Nothing seems to last very long though

[2025/09/24, 7:49:52] James: It would be nice to be in permanent ecstasy, but that’s not how it goes is it?

[2025/09/24, 7:50:03] James: It’s all about seeing and understanding the impermanence

[2025/09/24, 7:51:06] James: No wonder the priest must pray and the monk must meditates

[2025/09/24, 7:51:12] James: It’s a cultivated state

[2025/09/24, 7:51:16] James: The jhana is anyway

[2025/09/24, 7:51:20] James: And you can lose it

[2025/09/24, 7:51:26] James: But the realisations of truth

[2025/09/24, 7:51:31] James: They are permanent

[2025/09/24, 7:51:35] James: They are a rewiring

[2025/09/24, 7:51:46] James: You have to collect data for a long time before it’s ready

[2025/09/24, 7:51:51] James: And here we are in round 2

[2025/09/24, 7:55:15] James: Even whether you awaken is not up to you

[2025/09/24, 7:55:20] James: It’s all a chain of dominoes

[2025/09/24, 7:55:27] James: And how far you awaken

[2025/09/24, 7:55:31] James: Not your choice

[2025/09/24, 7:55:38] James: The fact you feel like you can choose

[2025/09/24, 7:55:49] James: Even the desire to awaken was implanted by circumstance

[2025/09/24, 7:55:55] James: Is it all fated

[2025/09/24, 7:56:09] James: Or do quantum forces come into play

[2025/09/24, 7:56:21] James: Or are they fated too, based on the other dimensions we cannot see?

[2025/09/24, 8:09:11] James: .

[2025/09/24, 8:09:19] James: I doubt I’ll get stuck chasing the jhanas

[2025/09/24, 8:09:27] James: I’ve had enough artificial bliss in my life

[2025/09/24, 8:09:33] James: I just don’t get into them

[2025/09/24, 8:09:38] James: Is this because I killed greed?

[2025/09/24, 8:09:46] James: Aripiprazole was the ultimate in bliss

[2025/09/24, 8:09:51] James: And I killed that

[2025/09/24, 8:09:55] James: Before it killed me

[2025/09/24, 12:07:29] James: .

[2025/09/24, 12:07:35] James: The jhanas are great but so are drugs

[2025/09/24, 12:07:49] James: It’s just training yourself to gland endogenous chemicals instead of having to take a pill

[2025/09/24, 12:08:02] James: The pill I took which helped me sever the self was great at the time

[2025/09/24, 12:08:12] James: But it was a tool. An accidental tool but a tool nonetheless.

[2025/09/24, 12:08:25] James: And I had to put that down in order to really break the chain

[2025/09/24, 12:08:32] James: The insight is where you line up the algo

[2025/09/24, 12:08:51] James: And the dopamine and serotonin from the jhanas are how you tip the neuroplastic scales

[2025/09/24, 12:08:58] James: It’s just a knife

[2025/09/24, 12:09:10] James: You sharpen it and then you use it and then you put it down

[2025/09/24, 12:09:21] James: The key is deciding where to cut

[2025/09/24, 12:09:38] James: You could become a jhanaholic just as easily (or easier) than an alcoholic