mypath

tea and crumpets // the simple glory of a life without neurotic drive

happy birthday to me // enlightened by 42 after all

beyond formations // stepping beyond all formations and admitting that you can never know

recovering and delineating // neural network settling and new world view coalescing

phenomenology of enlightenment // a summary of my entire enlightenment process

one week an arahant // observations one week into arahantship

back to reality // assimilating the entire insight experience from first a&p event to arahantship

awakeningthebuddha // embracing the scaffold and crossing over to the other side to repair the mind

bodhitree-protocol // a controlled experiment to induce enlightenment with cold exposure and mediation

uposatha // turning wheel of dhamma / genesis

dual-quad // how dual and quad cores work

wheelturningmonarch // my role

thegrandalgorithm // my scaffold; feel free to borrow

enlightenmentashealing // realising what enlightenment is

sitrepj2.9 // non-duality becoming the default

wavetheory // a unifying theory of everything

arahantschmarahant // choosing not to go full-arahant

morningemptiness // stream of consciousness from an empty mind

progressanalysis5months // progress achieved within 1-5% of typical time

fieldcollapse // initial accounts of micro-cessations

focus-feelings-fields // a brain fart about meditation

n1-n2-phenomenology // comparing 1st and 2nd encounters with nibbana

assessing-n2 // assessing the 2nd potential nibbana encounter

shifted // further analysing the dream with the cessation events

wirenotlantern // seeing through consciousness - potential nibbana encounter; assessing

meditationobjects // deepening meditation practice

partyboatdream // dropping the chase

cycling // how my own growth is deepening

formlessrealms // improving meditation ability

inthewater // empathy deepening and conditioning falling away

flotsam // old conditioning being swept away

clearingthecloset // clearing trauma to make way for joy

leeches // old trauma dies if it cannot feed

anxiety // floating anxiety with no self to attach to

outsidethewall // how it feels to have broken the shell

stringtheory // one way I experience meditation

howiwokeup // the process by which I awoke

whathappenedatschool // my own schoolhood trauma

notesinthecupboard // how I unknowingly reprogrammed myself 

upgradingaddiction // the addiction to end them all

simplicity // paring down the options

cartography // mapping my awakening to the theravāda maps

thetraumaofself // breaking the trauma of my self

theroadofexcess // some of the extremes of my life

dreams // bad dreams as export

repsatthegym // optimising meditation through exercise

trainingcycle // applying training principles to enlightenment

A&Pdream // further insight at night

refiningunderstanding // the dust starts to settle

thereality // the less rosy side of the experience

rebuildingexecutivefunction // rebuilding ef after a meltdown

meltdown // easily overwhelmed while still recovering

aftermath/empathy // some of the negatives

sculptorandclay // choosing how to shape myself

adhdreset // how this has reset my adhd to negligible levels

drugresponse // my response to valproate guanfacine and aripiprazole

peace // feeling an unknown level of peace in life

rethinkingenlightenment // alpha pitch as I realise what happened

awakening // awakening as the same thing across traditions

howtosavethespecies // ambitious plans from my own awakening

ship/sim // how my awakening manifested