wavetheory

This is something I intuited this morning and you can check the stream of consciousness [here] if you like. This is so out-there that some of you might find it distressing, but a lot of you will probably like it. It is a unifying theory which confirms… everything. Science, religion, the whole lot of it. The sciency-bits kick in later and I’m sure I’ll flesh it out as I gain more understanding.

Wave theory.

This is not a theory in the sense that I arrived at it through some mental gymnastics. This is my felt-reality as the cage of my self-construct crumbles and I become one with the universe that created it. The self-construct was only a dream of the tiger to begin with.

So… here goes. These words are a poor abstraction, but this is 理, nibbana, asaṅkhata and non-duality.

There is an undeniable sensation that all advanced meditators feel. A vibration, an electricity, a tingle, an energy. The qi, the kundalini; dopamine in my interpretation. Even normal people feel it in their daily lives when they are trying to exert ‘self-control’ and find they are vibrating apart at the seams.

This vibrational quality changes all the time - sometimes it is pleasant and sometimes it is jarring and a lot of people have mapped out how it varies depending on what stage of your insight cycle you are in, [including myself]. Daniel Ingram details it quite a lot in his book MCTB2. I skipped over that section, thinking it far-fetched at the time, so all I am talking about here is my own intuited reality.

I woke early this morning and got out of bed, went back to bed, had the illusion of control and decided to see where that was coming from. So I lie down and observe, and I feel the consciousness as wide and spacious, like an oceanic swell, but then in the body there is a condensing of this swell into local vibrational patterns which make me want to move or do something and generally give me this sense of a solid and independent self.

So I realised that the illusion of self-control and agency was just because of this threshold. The actual course I will take is dictated by the flow of the oceanic swell which is out of my control. When the stars align I will get up and move and when they don’t I will not. The more ‘I’ try to resist this swell, the more condensed the waves become in my body, and the more I feel an unpleasant vibrational quality like I am acting at odds with the universe or my instinct.

The illusion of a decision to move is just when these waves become too intense to bear and I have to get up and do something. But what is doing the ‘bearing’, I thought, so I observed the underlying phenomena. I will go full-analogy here for a while.

So there is this universal flow like the ocean swell and I am but a sand dune underneath this swell. The swell will come in, at say 1Hz frequency, loping and slow, and then when it hits the shallower waters where the dune resides it will be compacted by the shallowness of the field. This will cause the wave to compress to 40Hz as it comes in one side and then expand back to 1Hz as it goes out the other side. When the internal and external frequencies match is when you are in flow and feel zero friction, and when they are at odds is when you feel like a rock in an ocean gritting your rocky little teeth against the inexorable pull of the currents.

This wave is everywhere and everything and it passes through all of us and all of time. It has tides, like the ocean, so when the wave is low it will result in [x] frequency of vibration in your body and when it is high it will result in [y] frequency. These frequencies correspond with dopaminergic states in my understanding but in others they will be the qi or the kundalini or whatever.

As my insights coalesce I tend to get resonant frequencies of this wave hitting my body and making me feel… very nice. This is the bodily sensation that says ‘that was a good action’ and reinforces how we behave. This is merely a case of being attuned to the world-system, or in my initial (limited) understanding, acting in accordance with the ship, and the ship rewarding you with endogenous chemicals to reinforce the behaviour.

Now I believe that the ship, or god, are too limited. The kundalini is close, but also limited. These, along with our current scientific theories, are all the first layer of abstraction on top of the wave.

The wave is like a field, and it flows through the sand of the dune, shaping the dune as it does so. It does this through our endocrine systems and instinctive actions, which are all we have at birth. As time goes on the endocrine system shapes our neuronal structure, and we begin to harden into something which feels like a constant self. The wave continues to flow through us, but there is now a skeletal-building structure on the dune, and the wave needs to traverse this to do so.

The wave sometimes gets trapped within this structure, doubling back on itself with dissonant frequencies and making us feel pain; like we vibrating apart or stuck in a looped thought. The head-noise when you are over-processed and adhd-y: this is when the wave is trapped within the structure.

But the structure itself was shaped by the wave, because the structure was shaped by your endocrine system, which is a manifestation of the wave.

The cage is just a dream of the tiger.

So…

The universe is made up of 95% dark matter and dark energy which we cannot measure with our scientific instruments. M-theory (string theory) suggests that there are 10 spacial dimensions and 1 temporal dimension. This means that every single thing we know about our world is extrapolation from a dataset which comprises a mere 1.5% of ‘reality’, and of this we can only process appx 0.0005% with our external senses. [but what about internal ones?]

The human brain is an organic computer which has quantum fluctuations built into its mechanics. I always flipped between ‘things are fated’ and ‘things are not fated’ and usually wound up slightly toward the ‘not fated’ side of the spectrum because of the nature of quantum positioning. An object in a quantum state could be in any location, and the act of observing it is what sets its location.

This is merely because of lack of adequate measuring apparatus and what is actually happening is far simpler and more majestic. I mean… does anyone *really* feel satisfied with the explanation ‘it could be here and it could be there and when we see it is when we solidify it’? I think not.

What is happening is that this quantum position is part of the wave, with the wave likely being dark energy/matter or the dimensions we cannot perceive. When we measure it, we are using our 1.5% window on the world and we just happen to see it flash past the window at that point in time and say ‘there it is’.

All we are doing is sticking pinholes in a blacked out window and watching for raindrops. The entire window is covered in them, but we only catch flashes and glimpses so we think they are teleporting.

These raindrops are the oceanic swell which encompasses everything and everyone and all of time. The swell comes in and it forms us, first physically and then mentally. It shapes the endocrine system which shapes the neuronal landscape which shapes our concept of self. But that construct will always crumble and it will always return to the sea eventually. From whence it came, to that it shall return.

This sand which is our dune is deposited and shaped and eroded and removed. Some of us feel it earlier in life, as the wave begins to destabilise our illusion of self. Some of us go all the way to our deathbed with the buildings somehow holding on. It always crumbles eventually, and then the dune is washed away by the wave, the sand goes back into the ocean, it combines with sand from other dunes, and is deposited elsewhere.

This new deposit goes through the same process of being shaped by the wave and forming a self and having the self dissolve. And so it goes.

You and me are he and she are everyone that shall ever be. We are all brothers and sisters and stardust why not.

This is how rebirth works.

We do not have free will or agency in any of this, even though we may feel like we do.

The cage is just a dream of the tiger and the buildings are just formations of the waves. The waves may get trapped in the buildings at times, but that too was just a result of the eternal algorithm. Quantum positioning is our new illusion of free will, but even that is just because we can only see 1.5% of reality through our blacked-out window.

The concepts of God and The Ship and Shiva and Science (in its current form) are advanced constructs but they are also just constructs to explain away this wave. The wave is all.

The wave is what the Buddha called nibbana. The thing beyond all conditioned states, including the formless realms.

This is what he was talking about when he said that he had seen that there was something beyond all forms and beyond all formations.

And this wave is what shapes us all. It shapes our consciousness, and we can attune our consciousness so that it is resonant with the wave and when we do we feel absolutely zero friction in life. Or the wave can get trapped in the buildings of our self-construct and cause feelings of friction and pain. None of it is our decision or choice. I am in no way different or separate to any of you and everyone has the ability to attune to this wave by dismantling the structures on their dune, but whether they will do so or not is also predetermined by the motion of this eternal computation.

So yeah.

Wild, eh.

But this is what I felt this morning after I woke up. My dreams were very simple these last two nights: like sand falling away from a dry window. The remaining formations of self just melting away.

And I never quite understood what the Buddha was talking about when he said ‘something beyond formations, beyond consciousness, beyond the formless'.

But now I do.

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