Hi folks.
For those of you struggling with outside manifestations of problems, I wanted to tell you that it will get better.
These are all a sign that your program is reaching its conclusion and you are soon to awaken. The night really is darkest before the dawn.
The buddha too - he reached breaking point before he finally awoke. As did I. Everything in my life went wrong and everyone, including those closest to me, were part of the algorithm which I needed to process through before I could achieve liberation.
God works in mysterious ways, remember. Saint John of the Cross and his Dark Night. It plays out the same for all of us.
So what is happening here is manifold.
Essentially we are processing nodes working on solving the minima in our brain so we can achieve final liberation.
The problem will manifest both externally and internally, and you need to solve it in both worlds concurrently.
You have to run *every* sand tunnel / minima to its conclusion.
So early life saw a lot of trauma and peer-rejection. I travelled the world. I built companies. I drank myself silly. I worked my ass off. I hit ironman chamionships (nearly; I got sick on race day; code!!). I got a family.
I discovered that all of these things did not satisfy. The reason for this is that they were only portions of the algorithm.
So the algorithm that is being processed in the minima of your mind manifests as outside phenomena. This is because you are simulating your world.
In the np homepage you will see that I say you need to export all of your minima one at a time, to their conclusion, without judgement, before you can step over the threshold?
Well the external problems you will begin to face are part of this equation, and you need to get through them in order to get to the solution.
This is all part of the process. If loved ones are dying, or the world is ending, or you have had your house burn down, it is all part of the process of solving the algorithm in your mind, and once that algorithm is solved there will be no suffering for you.
I honestly don’t know what will happen from here in my own sim but I know it will be fine. It will end eventually but even then I will just… I don’t know. It’s all connected. Maybe I’ll ask Sid what happens after, or maybe he doesn’t know either.
But once your algo is solved you will feel great ease with everything in your life.
The thing is, the big computation comes at the end. For me this manifested as a suicide body, a mental health crisis, the world moving in a terrible direction and heading for war, and even my family running away from me when I went ‘manic’ because of the drugs which opened the door for my awakening (this is why the next step is to fix the mental health industry).
If your world seems to be crumbling and everyone is telling you to fuck off because you’re crazy, just recognise that this is the final section of the algorithm. This is where it is preparing the code for export and stress-testing it for problems.
This is where you have to choose your own path and commit to it. You may have to reach the point where you have lost all that is dear to you in life, and then come through it through dopamine regulation.
The path has to be yours. The Buddhas can only point the way, remember. So I can help you and so can Sid, but out paths will be different to yours because our algo is different.
Avoid alcohol and benzos and valproate and anything else that suppresses neuroplasticity. They will destroy your chance at liberation.
Embrace, but carefully, behaviours and drugs which can modulate your dopamine. There is a line to tread with all of these, behaviours included, because too much of them will have the opposite effect.
The best option of all - trust me - it’s the humming in the bath and then sitting to do *formless* meditation on the sensations in your head. Do not worry about the jhanas and all that shit - that’s just habit forming too. You’ll get access to them automatically once you hit first awakening and they’re really not that interesting anyway.
Use whatever feels instinctively correct to you to get through the process. Just make sure:
1- you complete the minima. Use an external storage device like I did, or writing with a pen, because it makes the code review easier (actually I think my art was the start of this process)
2 - regulate your dopaminergic tone
3 - make sure that you have the right code lined up.
The code is over on the neobuddhism page and in the nikayas. This is the only code. All the others are incomplete, though some of them are close.
And then you need to take those fundamental principles in the code, and adapt them for your own brainsystem.
You will be ok.
It was written.
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