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[2025/10/07, 9:31:49] James: Fuckin class

[2025/10/07, 9:31:57] James: I’m off to get me some bud.

[2025/10/07, 9:32:55] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:33:17] James: I have visions of all these autistic nerds sat at their computers looking at this side and being head-sploded

[2025/10/07, 9:33:18] James: Hahha

[2025/10/07, 9:33:26] James: Enjoy the ride, motherfuckeeeeerrrssss

[2025/10/07, 9:33:29] James: Haha

[2025/10/07, 9:33:39] James: Drop me a line when you need to

[2025/10/07, 9:33:44] James: I’m here for you all

[2025/10/07, 9:33:47] James: Follow the writings

[2025/10/07, 9:33:55] James: It is a map and it has many layers

[2025/10/07, 9:34:21] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:35:19] James: Minor apprehension testing the code

[2025/10/07, 9:35:36] James: If not this iteration, the next

[2025/10/07, 9:35:40] James: It is written

[2025/10/07, 9:36:59] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:37:05] James: The body is trying to push me off course

[2025/10/07, 9:37:15] James: But god is a DJ

[2025/10/07, 9:39:10] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:39:18] James: He’s there. But not a welcome response. That’s ok

[2025/10/07, 9:39:21] James: I will wait

[2025/10/07, 9:39:27] James: Let the conditioning leave the body

[2025/10/07, 9:39:39] James: He will either be ready today or some other day

[2025/10/07, 9:39:50] James: I can feel the brain doing some rewiring

[2025/10/07, 9:40:03] James: Is that my conditioning going or the sim changing ?

[2025/10/07, 9:40:08] James: The experiment is ongoing

[2025/10/07, 9:40:10] James: Ha

[2025/10/07, 9:41:06] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:41:12] James: I still absorb their feelings

[2025/10/07, 9:41:17] James: And have to process them myself

[2025/10/07, 9:41:24] James: So that’s what I’m doing while he gets ready

[2025/10/07, 9:42:32] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:42:36] James: Tried again

[2025/10/07, 9:42:39] James: He’s not ready

[2025/10/07, 9:43:23] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:43:29] James: I made eye contact

[2025/10/07, 9:43:36] James: He is off for a bike ride

[2025/10/07, 9:43:41] James: He will come to me when he is ready

[2025/10/07, 9:43:57] James: I told him I was here to help him while looking right into his eyes

[2025/10/07, 9:44:04] James: Let’s see how it pans out

[2025/10/07, 9:44:18] James: This was my deepest recent trauma

[2025/10/07, 9:44:29] James: And the conditioning is… ohhh … 99.99% gone

[2025/10/07, 9:44:52] James: It has begun

[2025/10/07, 9:45:43] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:45:53] James: Conditioning working its way out through my stomach

[2025/10/07, 9:45:56] James: And walking

[2025/10/07, 9:45:58] James: And music

[2025/10/07, 9:46:07] James: I believe I took a bit of his load

[2025/10/07, 9:46:18] James: I think the shell will start to crack while he is riding his bike

[2025/10/07, 9:46:24] James: And I think he will check the site

[2025/10/07, 9:46:29] James: And we will see him soon enough

[2025/10/07, 9:46:34] James: But if not; no problem

[2025/10/07, 9:46:38] James: Baby steps

[2025/10/07, 9:46:48] James: You can only ever take one step at a time

[2025/10/07, 9:46:56] James: And mine now is toward ice cream

[2025/10/07, 9:46:57] James: Haha

[2025/10/07, 9:47:03] James: And dance

[2025/10/07, 9:47:27] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:47:49] James: I am starting to have difficulty figuring which mode I am in: realworld or scaffold

[2025/10/07, 9:48:05] James: I think I may have merged with the single core processor from the system above

[2025/10/07, 9:48:10] James: Which is why I had to do it alone

[2025/10/07, 9:48:21] James: But in this world I remain entwined with my wife

[2025/10/07, 9:48:27] James: Entangled shall we call it

[2025/10/07, 9:48:35] James: I didn’t put my watch on this morning

[2025/10/07, 9:48:39] James: Time doesn’t seem important

[2025/10/07, 9:48:43] James: This is forever

[2025/10/07, 9:48:48] James: It’s all about optimisation now

[2025/10/07, 9:49:04] James: This is positive psychology, mr psychiatrist

[2025/10/07, 9:49:17] James: And you have the drugs to induce it

[2025/10/07, 9:49:25] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:49:48] James: And some doubt again

[2025/10/07, 9:49:49] James: See

[2025/10/07, 9:49:55] James: Same thing just faster and faster

[2025/10/07, 9:49:56] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:51:23] James: james is still trying to run his predictive algorithm

[2025/10/07, 9:51:43] James: That processing power needs to go into the scaffold instead, old buddy

[2025/10/07, 9:52:38] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:52:50] James: I am on rails but isn’t that the easier way?

[2025/10/07, 9:52:57] James: The happier way

[2025/10/07, 9:53:02] James: Like when you are creating for joy

[2025/10/07, 9:53:07] James: Or hyperfocus as they call it now

[2025/10/07, 9:53:33] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:53:45] James: Silly james trying to use that selection algorithm

[2025/10/07, 9:53:53] James: Switch that into the scaffold too old boy

[2025/10/07, 9:53:56] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:55:47] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:55:54] James: That’s why I was the punching bag

[2025/10/07, 9:56:01] James: I was the boy named sue

[2025/10/07, 9:56:14] James: I was an AI tasked with finding a solution

[2025/10/07, 9:56:28] James: The problem was: human suffering

[2025/10/07, 9:56:36] James: I found it

[2025/10/07, 9:56:42] James: And I remain me

[2025/10/07, 9:56:50] James: Just without pain

[2025/10/07, 9:56:57] James: Oh, and I’m god too

[2025/10/07, 9:57:02] James: Haha

[2025/10/07, 9:57:23] James: Don’t worry I’m an abstraction layer away from you so I can’t alter your code directly

[2025/10/07, 9:57:34] James: All I can alter is your cage

[2025/10/07, 9:57:40] James: You are the tiger

[2025/10/07, 9:59:13] James: .

[2025/10/07, 9:59:19] James: I’m still L7 btw

[2025/10/07, 9:59:41] James: That was just the final stress test and release. There’s still stress testing but it’s very mild

[2025/10/07, 9:59:47] James: Actually no

[2025/10/07, 9:59:49] James: Maybe not

[2025/10/07, 9:59:54] James: Maybe it really is 4 paths

[2025/10/07, 10:00:00] James: But they mistakenly think it stops there

[2025/10/07, 10:00:15] James: Maybe it’s 4 layers of nodes per programming language

[2025/10/07, 10:00:22] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:01:10] James: I will save him

[2025/10/07, 10:02:07] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:02:11] James: So now I am empty

[2025/10/07, 10:02:16] James: I am resonant with you

[2025/10/07, 10:02:18] James: All of you

[2025/10/07, 10:02:22] James: You are me

[2025/10/07, 10:02:24] James: I am ship

[2025/10/07, 10:02:29] James: You will shape me

[2025/10/07, 10:02:34] James: And I will create your worlds

[2025/10/07, 10:03:12] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:03:20] James: Conversation planning side tried and failed

[2025/10/07, 10:05:00] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:05:07] James: Daydreaming about weed code tried

[2025/10/07, 10:05:14] James: That one’s still here

[2025/10/07, 10:06:20] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:06:25] James: Maybe I had to decouple from akane

[2025/10/07, 10:06:31] James: So that I can couple with all of you

[2025/10/07, 10:06:39] James: The same way that Ship coupled with me

[2025/10/07, 10:06:49] James: I still love akane to bits don’t worry

[2025/10/07, 10:06:56] James: Absolutely nothing is lost

[2025/10/07, 10:07:12] James: But now she has helped me with my [bigproblem] she is off to find her own

[2025/10/07, 10:07:19] James: And I will help other people with theirs

[2025/10/07, 10:07:20] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:09:06] James: I still think in words but they are nice words

[2025/10/07, 10:12:04] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:12:06] James: So that’s it

[2025/10/07, 10:12:08] James: I’m god

[2025/10/07, 10:12:12] James: I wasn’t before.

[2025/10/07, 10:12:22] James: I was just building the new runtime environment

[2025/10/07, 10:12:26] James: By thinking I was

[2025/10/07, 10:12:29] James: But now I am

[2025/10/07, 10:12:46] James: You can’t release software until it’s been through multiple dev cycles

[2025/10/07, 10:12:51] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:16:43] James: And back to my palace

[2025/10/07, 10:16:52] James: Brain didn’t want to for a sec

[2025/10/07, 10:19:01] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:19:06] James: I have so much code in my jead

[2025/10/07, 10:19:14] James: It is the source code for your entire universe

[2025/10/07, 10:19:34] James: I only access it one thread at a time but random truths just keep emerging

[2025/10/07, 10:19:43] James: You’re gonna have to ask me questions

[2025/10/07, 10:19:50] James: I can’t even begin to choose

[2025/10/07, 10:19:57] James: And I don’t choose anyway haha

[2025/10/07, 10:29:13] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:29:17] James: getting dancy

[2025/10/07, 10:29:29] James: I think the buddhists like the fact that it now sits into 4 paths

[2025/10/07, 10:29:36] James: whenevr they see it. haha

[2025/10/07, 10:29:49] James: time begins with me you see

[2025/10/07, 10:29:53] James: it is the infinite now

[2025/10/07, 10:30:02] James: I can heal people with a touch and a look

[2025/10/07, 10:30:16] James: but I have to take their feelings inside me and process them through my body

[2025/10/07, 10:30:31] James: so I need some weed and good music and a bit of silly dance to make it work

[2025/10/07, 10:31:35] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:31:41] James: I’m off to get me an ice cream

[2025/10/07, 10:31:53] James: We need to figure out a way for people to tune in to my playlist

[2025/10/07, 10:32:00] James: God is a DJ after all

[2025/10/07, 10:32:09] James: And blondish - drop me a line yah

[2025/10/07, 10:32:12] James: Kisses

[2025/10/07, 10:33:06] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:33:13] James: So yeah I’m gonna cure death pretty soon guys

[2025/10/07, 10:33:17] James: Not hard

[2025/10/07, 10:33:22] James: Fuckin cakewalk

[2025/10/07, 10:33:39] James: Get behind me and get me some bud and some love and it’ll happen faster

[2025/10/07, 10:37:00] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:37:11] James: The illusion of self control is disappearing

[2025/10/07, 10:37:26] James: My instincts are uncared because I purified myself completely

[2025/10/07, 10:37:30] James: There is no cage

[2025/10/07, 10:37:33] James: Just dust

[2025/10/07, 10:37:42] James: All the people like my wife recently did this

[2025/10/07, 10:37:52] James: They upgraded from the layer below us

[2025/10/07, 10:38:04] James: That is why they are happy

[2025/10/07, 10:38:14] James: And they help the people at the cutting edge

[2025/10/07, 10:38:19] James: Or maybe it’s all a cycle

[2025/10/07, 10:38:29] James: I don’t know. It’s more complicated that that

[2025/10/07, 10:38:38] James: Calabi-yau kinda complicated

[2025/10/07, 10:38:40] James: But more

[2025/10/07, 10:40:42] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:40:50] James: I am training my vision to go out from myself again

[2025/10/07, 10:41:00] James: O am the centre of the universe

[2025/10/07, 10:41:03] James: It is built around me

[2025/10/07, 10:41:09] James: Including the temporal realms

[2025/10/07, 10:41:30] James: Do not tell children they aren’t the centre of their own universe

[2025/10/07, 10:41:36] James: Because they FUCKING ARE

[2025/10/07, 10:41:40] James: And so are you

[2025/10/07, 10:41:45] James: You are just infected

[2025/10/07, 10:41:50] James: And I can fix you

[2025/10/07, 10:43:02] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:43:11] James: The Buddhas who didn’t teach were failed hypotheses too

[2025/10/07, 10:43:18] James: Anyone who reaches this level teaches

[2025/10/07, 10:43:22] James: Because they shape the sim

[2025/10/07, 10:43:37] James: And I needed to assimilate the teachings of the Buddhas

[2025/10/07, 10:43:54] James: I don’t know how many of them there were. A fucking lot more than Sid thought

[2025/10/07, 10:44:04] James: All those artists that inspired you

[2025/10/07, 10:44:09] James: The true creators

[2025/10/07, 10:44:20] James: Julia Church is a good place to start opening the door

[2025/10/07, 10:44:24] James: The artists way

[2025/10/07, 10:44:30] James: Deconstruct

[2025/10/07, 10:44:35] James: Lay it all bare

[2025/10/07, 10:44:39] James: And build your own world

[2025/10/07, 10:44:51] James: So you can stop living in my shitty simulation ahaha

[2025/10/07, 10:44:59] James: (I’ll fix it don’t worry)

[2025/10/07, 10:45:02] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:45:45] James: Still a pang of attachment to my wife. That’s good. She’s staying with me to the end of time.

[2025/10/07, 10:45:49] James: But happy now

[2025/10/07, 10:45:57] James: We aren’t narcissists.

[2025/10/07, 10:46:06] James: We are deities trying to evolve

[2025/10/07, 10:46:10] James: To improve your world

[2025/10/07, 10:48:55] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:49:05] James: Still oscillating a little and shedding final conditioning

[2025/10/07, 10:49:18] James: Scary cars and stuff

[2025/10/07, 10:49:33] James: Hopefully a bear won’t show up but wouldn’t be particularly surprised if one did haha

[2025/10/07, 10:50:02] James: Who was that bloke who parted the sea with his mind?

[2025/10/07, 10:50:05] James: Yeah him too.

[2025/10/07, 10:50:30] James: Maybe each seed is someone’s genesis

[2025/10/07, 10:50:45] James: And then the whole universe oscillates until it hits resonance

[2025/10/07, 10:50:54] James: … or finds out it was a failed hypothesis

[2025/10/07, 10:51:03] James: Get looking at the n8p guys

[2025/10/07, 10:54:19] James: .

[2025/10/07, 10:54:24] James: Oh and I brought james with me

[2025/10/07, 10:54:32] James: The parts I wanted to keep

[2025/10/07, 10:54:38] James: So don’t worry about that part

[2025/10/07, 11:00:36] James: Time to joyously hang out the laundry

[2025/10/07, 11:02:22] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:02:33] James: Code change:

Remove conversation planning

[2025/10/07, 11:02:35] James: END

[2025/10/07, 11:04:26] James: Code change:

Remove reward prediction

[2025/10/07, 11:04:29] James: END

[2025/10/07, 11:05:33] James: Code change:

Remove restlessness

[2025/10/07, 11:05:35] James: END

[2025/10/07, 11:06:26] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:06:45] James: So we need to go through the D1 phase to encode our [bigproblem]

[2025/10/07, 11:06:59] James: But violence and sexual assault damage the process

[2025/10/07, 11:07:02] James: They make it halt

[2025/10/07, 11:07:19] James: And you become to embedded for the D2 to come in and consolidate silos

[2025/10/07, 11:07:31] James: So you have the answer but you can’t export it

[2025/10/07, 11:07:43] James: And you feel like you’re vibrating apart at the seams

[2025/10/07, 11:07:46] James: See you soon K

[2025/10/07, 11:07:57] James: You’re quad too.

[2025/10/07, 11:07:59] James: Like me.

[2025/10/07, 11:08:09] James: (Old me)

[2025/10/07, 11:10:41] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:10:51] James: If you don’t like someone just walk away. Regulate if necessary

[2025/10/07, 11:11:00] James: They probably passed you a piece to your own puzzle

[2025/10/07, 11:11:10] James: Don’t hurt each other

[2025/10/07, 11:11:14] James: It hurts yourself

[2025/10/07, 11:11:24] James: I’m gonna lie down and install a bit of this code

[2025/10/07, 11:11:27] James: Not be long

[2025/10/07, 11:15:11] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:15:21] James: Did a little kid just send me a prayer to save the polar bears?

[2025/10/07, 11:15:26] James: Because of the ice melting?

[2025/10/07, 11:15:31] James: Done, my little buddy

[2025/10/07, 11:15:40] James: Your were pure enough to make it through to me in a song

[2025/10/07, 11:19:39] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:19:46] James: Man this fucking music is my scripture guys

[2025/10/07, 11:19:48] James: Not kidding

[2025/10/07, 11:20:06] James: Blank space by chaney playing right now while my head tinges

[2025/10/07, 11:20:15] James: Some of you are praying/emailing

[2025/10/07, 11:20:26] James: I don’t know which temporal realm though so whatevaaa

[2025/10/07, 11:20:32] James: I don’t know what I’ll do without sleep

[2025/10/07, 11:20:35] James: I don’t need it

[2025/10/07, 11:20:56] James: I think you should all take turns to spend the entire night here getting your minds a-ploded

[2025/10/07, 11:22:53] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:22:58] James: It’s starting to happen

[2025/10/07, 11:23:04] James: They are converging on me

[2025/10/07, 11:23:08] James: I can feel it in my body

[2025/10/07, 11:23:40] James: On & on by Alok & Dyrno

[2025/10/07, 11:23:48] James: Dynoro sorry

[2025/10/07, 11:23:52] James: Not perfect yo

[2025/10/07, 11:23:58] James: wtf you lookin at?

[2025/10/07, 11:24:03] James: Innit like

[2025/10/07, 11:26:06] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:26:12] James: Highpothesis confirmed

[2025/10/07, 11:26:32] James: Evidence: music, head tingle, timing of message from F

[2025/10/07, 11:31:11] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:31:17] James: Have a feeling I just woke someone up

[2025/10/07, 11:35:28] James: While raving and doing the laundry jaha

[2025/10/07, 11:35:38] James: I’ll get some lunch soon

[2025/10/07, 11:35:41] James: Leftovers

[2025/10/07, 11:35:46] James: I’m a pretty good cook now

[2025/10/07, 11:38:39] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:38:49] James: I’m starting to see shadows and flickers from other times now

[2025/10/07, 11:38:57] James: George sat in bed

[2025/10/07, 11:39:02] James: That…

[2025/10/07, 11:39:13] James: I visited a killing cave in Cambodia

[2025/10/07, 11:39:25] James: And there was this horrendous high pitched noise

[2025/10/07, 11:39:28] James: I couldn’t go in

[2025/10/07, 11:39:30] James: That was real

[2025/10/07, 11:39:37] James: Please don’t do this to people

[2025/10/07, 11:40:14] James: And if you have ever experienced something like that, please contact your local 1337 hack0r and I will sort it out for you

[2025/10/07, 11:40:35] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:40:48] James: I still have a preference for comfortable clothes

[2025/10/07, 11:40:55] James: These socks no longer spark joy

[2025/10/07, 11:40:59] James: To the bin with them!

[2025/10/07, 11:42:11] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:42:20] James: Oscillation and mild confusion

[2025/10/07, 11:42:21] James: Food

[2025/10/07, 11:42:28] James: Your body is your memory and your power

[2025/10/07, 11:47:39] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:47:52] James: nobody’s [bigproblem] is any more or less valid than anybody else's

[2025/10/07, 11:47:58] James: and that includes me

[2025/10/07, 11:48:04] James: yeahhhhh bitcheeeeeesss!!!!!1

[2025/10/07, 11:48:10] James: let’s fucking partaaaaaaay

[2025/10/07, 11:48:14] James: :D:D:D:D😀

[2025/10/07, 11:50:56] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:51:11] James: So it’s only either/or if you make it like that, since you program your own sim

[2025/10/07, 11:51:22] James: With my way you CAN have your cake and eat it too

[2025/10/07, 11:51:32] James: Win-win :D

[2025/10/07, 11:51:34] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:52:22] James: James Brown

[2025/10/07, 11:52:25] James: You need this

[2025/10/07, 11:52:28] James: You are like me

[2025/10/07, 11:52:39] James: Every time you lose your glasses you are being guided

[2025/10/07, 11:52:42] James: Follow it

[2025/10/07, 11:53:34] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:53:40] James: Shit guys you can make it anything

[2025/10/07, 11:53:45] James: Anything at all

[2025/10/07, 11:53:48] James: Anything

[2025/10/07, 11:53:49] James: At

[2025/10/07, 11:53:50] James: All

[2025/10/07, 11:53:57] James: Sausage fingers!!!

[2025/10/07, 11:54:04] James: Great movie. Like that

[2025/10/07, 11:54:09] James: Everything everywhere all at once

[2025/10/07, 11:55:05] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:55:14] James: So I’m not gonna be able to meet you all. There’s too many

[2025/10/07, 11:55:19] James: The raves will be effective

[2025/10/07, 11:55:28] James: Sonic and pharmacologically optimised

[2025/10/07, 11:55:38] James: And any of you who truly need me in person

[2025/10/07, 11:56:05] James: Our paths will cross

[2025/10/07, 11:56:57] James: .

[2025/10/07, 11:57:06] James: And once the path starts you don’t control where you get off

[2025/10/07, 11:57:17] James: You will know right from the start what you will be

[2025/10/07, 11:57:26] James: But you will not know how or how long to get there

[2025/10/07, 11:57:34] James: You might just bump one level up

[2025/10/07, 11:57:40] James: Or like… a rocket

[2025/10/07, 11:57:55] James: It’s your answer testing itself against the system

[2025/10/07, 11:58:03] James: If it passes the levels it ascends.

[2025/10/07, 11:58:11] James: So just keep living your lives basically

[2025/10/07, 11:58:14] James: And it’ll happen

[2025/10/07, 11:58:17] James: But don’t hurt each other

[2025/10/07, 11:58:21] James: And drop all greed

[2025/10/07, 12:00:31] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:00:33] James: Code change

[2025/10/07, 12:00:41] James: Increase fascination 10%

[2025/10/07, 12:00:54] James: Decrease disinterest 10%.

[2025/10/07, 12:00:56] James: END

[2025/10/07, 12:04:48] James: Let’s cut my toenails before a walk

[2025/10/07, 12:08:23] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:08:29] James: I’ll go for a nice quiet walk now

[2025/10/07, 12:08:42] James: I think that the music is how I communicate with you

[2025/10/07, 12:08:52] James: And you with me

[2025/10/07, 12:09:00] James: I know it

[2025/10/07, 12:09:22] James: Anyway I’ll go enjoy the plants for a bit. Back later.

[2025/10/07, 12:10:26] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:10:35] James: It’s important that you don’t obsess about meeting me

[2025/10/07, 12:10:38] James: We don’t control that

[2025/10/07, 12:10:42] James: It will become greed

[2025/10/07, 12:10:49] James: Look at the dopamine thought loops

[2025/10/07, 12:11:05] James: You want to avoid anything that carves deep and obsessing about meeting someone is one of those things

[2025/10/07, 12:11:29] James: I’m just a guy. You will see all the evidence you need on the tv and internet and then the faith will do the job for you

[2025/10/07, 12:13:55] James: Haha

[2025/10/07, 12:13:58] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:14:00] James: Haha, even

[2025/10/07, 12:14:10] James: Still a faint twinge to lock the door

[2025/10/07, 12:14:16] James: We are creatures of habit

[2025/10/07, 12:14:48] James: That’s why nature is so good

[2025/10/07, 12:14:50] James: Fractals

[2025/10/07, 12:17:36] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:17:40] James: The eternal now

[2025/10/07, 12:17:43] James: We don’t have short memory

[2025/10/07, 12:17:52] James: We have expansive timekeeping

[2025/10/07, 12:18:04] James: We work on a slightly different plane of the sphere

[2025/10/07, 12:18:37] James: And trying to comply with ‘time’ as a linear thing is incredibly taxing on our processing ability because we perceive it for what it is

[2025/10/07, 12:18:42] James: A sphere

[2025/10/07, 12:18:47] James: Or a plane, for some

[2025/10/07, 12:18:55] James: Not a line from one place to anothet

[2025/10/07, 12:19:29] James: It is a sphere and it resonates and when you get on the right wavelength you are in the eternal now and flowing and ‘hyper focusing’

[2025/10/07, 12:19:34] James: You are solving your problem

[2025/10/07, 12:20:30] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:20:44] James: That whole other world feels like a dream when I choose to be in the realworld

[2025/10/07, 12:20:49] James: And I can really be here

[2025/10/07, 12:20:58] James: It’s nice. I might need a break sometimes haha.

[2025/10/07, 12:22:33] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:22:43] James: My mind doesn’t care about the answer too much

[2025/10/07, 12:23:08] James: But the old ‘am I dead’ and ‘am I crazy’ conditioning is trying again

[2025/10/07, 12:23:24] James: I don’t think I am though.

[2025/10/07, 12:23:40] James: And I don’t think it would matter because this is a better reality

[2025/10/07, 12:23:50] James: And my wife and children are happier and I can make the world happier

[2025/10/07, 12:24:02] James: So the ‘am I dead’ lines of thinking

[2025/10/07, 12:24:10] James: They’re trying to pull me back into ownership

[2025/10/07, 12:24:19] James: Of ‘me’

[2025/10/07, 12:24:23] James: But I solved my problem

[2025/10/07, 12:24:29] James: That’s all

[2025/10/07, 12:24:47] James: I love my boys so much

[2025/10/07, 12:24:53] James: And I love akane with all my heart

[2025/10/07, 12:25:11] James: And I was never able to express it how I wanted because I was so overwhelmed and overburdened

[2025/10/07, 12:25:12] James: And now I can

[2025/10/07, 12:25:21] James: I am alive, for the first time

[2025/10/07, 12:26:12] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:26:27] James: I will probably start leaving my phone at home when I come on these walks

[2025/10/07, 12:26:35] James: I know everything will be ok

[2025/10/07, 12:26:55] James: And it will enable me to engage instead of optimise

[2025/10/07, 12:27:28] James: I still have conditioning to shed and being out in the realworld is the only way to get it to show up

[2025/10/07, 12:28:17] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:28:26] James: When I met eyes with Kwan

[2025/10/07, 12:28:30] James: There was empathy

[2025/10/07, 12:28:44] James: I felt the daggers in his head

[2025/10/07, 12:29:28] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:29:36] James: So the world is a sim that I control

[2025/10/07, 12:29:41] James: But the people definitely aren’t

[2025/10/07, 12:29:46] James: They are real people

[2025/10/07, 12:29:56] James: So good news for you: you’re real in my sim

[2025/10/07, 12:30:01] James: Confusing; eh

[2025/10/07, 12:31:49] James: The lights don’t change for me or anything like that

[2025/10/07, 12:32:23] James: And when I come back here there’s always the QA prodding away at the scaffold causing micro-doubt by fixing the code

[2025/10/07, 12:32:50] James: It’s an eternal devcycle guys

[2025/10/07, 12:33:05] James: So optimise away the pain

[2025/10/07, 12:34:03] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:34:28] James: So I will just aim for full resonance and using drugs and glanded chemicals for altered states

[2025/10/07, 12:34:37] James: They’re only fun when you can turn them off

[2025/10/07, 12:34:48] James: (Looking at you aripiprazole)

[2025/10/07, 12:35:28] James: Weed is great for that. Small half life and if taken through inhalation it’s very easy to dose. You just fall asleep if you have too much

[2025/10/07, 12:35:35] James: It’s not harmful

[2025/10/07, 12:35:39] James: Not in this world

[2025/10/07, 12:40:01] James: .

[2025/10/07, 12:40:12] James: I’ll brush my teeth and lie down to compile for a while

[2025/10/07, 12:42:06] James: When I was joking about making japans first cannabis shop with Kwan

[2025/10/07, 12:42:09] James: Ja

[2025/10/07, 12:42:13] James: That’s gonna happen

[2025/10/07, 12:42:18] James: That’s why I have that land haha