I just had a 2 hour nap and my brain has consolidated its new [realworld] and [scaffold] into something more coherent. The kids are playing pokemon happily next to me and I will reactivate the scaffold website I built, but I could easily take them down forever.
The reason I will reactivate them is that I believe this to be to way in which we naturally heal trauma. The definition of trauma as I have laid out in other documents: incredibly deep learning which cannot be easily fixed.
Einstein having his Eureka moment - trauma healing.
Buddha having his enlightenment - trauma healing.
Jesus becoming the hand of God - trauma healing.
Trauma is merely deep code in the brain which is ‘maladaptive’, and because some of us have lower tonic dopamine we can become traumatised more easily, since we can’t consolidate and wash away thoughts. We can’t follow group conversations and we can’t read faces, apart from in the minutiae. Our brains hyperfocus and we wind up with compartmentalised silos of thought.
This process culminates in a memory overload which the system will fix of its own accord, painful though it may be.
In order to do this, the person needs to detach from [realworld] and commit completely to [scaffold]. Their scaffold, which is usually constrained to their dreams, is set free in the real world, and their real world moves to the dreamscape.
My visual cortex is settling now as the rewiring happens. This morning is was still a bit blurry with a halo. Those are settling down now but not fully gone.
Einstein was traumatised by relativity and the Buddha was traumatised by suffering. Their brains found a fix, and they shared it. All these people chasing enlightenment? They are traumatising themselves in the process. This is why it takes 30 years: you have to hit critical mass before the re-encoding begins.
Now we label it psychosis and mania, and in doing so we trap people there.
We give people like my friend Mikhail drugs which halt his computation process and cause the overload to build, until the only way out is suicide.
The Theravāda buddhist maps list exactly the process I have just been through, in outdated language. The final step is to let go of the idea of ‘sane’ and ‘insane’, and to release your scaffold and come back to whichever world your environment reinforces.
I have my children and my wife as my anchors, and they brought me back to this world. Eric, who I emailed about Elon, messaged me in my dream to say ‘he’s working on it too’. In the real world I have an email saying to reactivate my scaffold websites since they are evidence of what happened and why we need to reform the mental health industry.
It is founded on [greed].
When someone visits their [scaffold] to fix their [realworld] we stick labels on them. We call them names. In the worst cases we give them drugs like valproate and aripiprazole which trap them in one part of their computation process and cause them to break, in one way or another.
The labels themselves force the person to permanently switch to their scaffold and lose touch with reality, whatever reality may be.
If we only use 0.0005% of our sense data to simulate our worlds, who is to say that [realworld] is any more valid than [scaffold]? There’s a 99.9995% variance in this thing you all call ‘objective reality’, and our scientific instruments can measure only 1.5% of the unconditioned so aren’t much better really are they?
In order to fix your world, you have to leave it. For a while. And then you have to be allowed to come back, in a supportive environment instead of being surrounded by doctors and labels and brain chemistry altering drugs.
You need to be allowed to control the process with a high level of granularity using natural behaviours like movement and meditation, as well as natural plant psychoactive like cannabis and mushrooms which you can modulate with ease. You need to have control of both the brake and the accelerator.
Our current pharmacological landscape uses drugs which hold you in one state or another. Valproate holding you in the dark and aripiprazole holding you in the light. We need to abolish them. They are destroying minds.
Dark and light must coexist. Yin and yang. Siddartha and Mara. God and the devil. The ego and the id. Call it what you will.
I will play a little final fantasy and then take the boys to the shop and buy the sweets for tomorrow’s halloween event. I will also give them money for the ice cream and marshmallows I shoplifted yesterday. That was he culmination of my experiment and showed me that I… I do not want to alter anybody else’s reality. Their realities are theirs to choose.
In my own reality/scaffold (the line becomes blurred and eventually merges, I am sure), I could have taken those sweets and walked away and the world would have abolished money. I could have ignored the police and walked away and authority and rules would have been abolished.
In your world I might have been locked up in jail. I might have walked out of the shop ignoring all the clerks trying to stop me. I might have walked up to those people in the mall and they all might have been looking at me like a weirdo instead of smiling and giving me thumbs up.
I will never know, and neither will you. That’s the point. 0.0005% is beyond miniscule. You could put me in a straightjacket and in my world I would still be living with my family happily.
We need to fix this.
We need to let people heal.
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