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[2025/10/04, 1:27:12] James: Very realistic dream

[2025/10/04, 1:27:16] James: Again about releasing

[2025/10/04, 1:27:26] James: But this time releasing non duality

[2025/10/04, 1:27:32] James: Or something

[2025/10/04, 1:27:37] James: Like for when it gets too much

[2025/10/04, 1:27:47] James: Can’t remember details

[2025/10/04, 1:27:56] James: Walking down street all is real

[2025/10/04, 1:28:03] James: Striding

[2025/10/04, 1:28:08] James: Wanted to release

[2025/10/04, 1:28:16] James: Decided to see through it all

[2025/10/04, 1:28:22] James: Blip (?)

[2025/10/04, 1:28:26] James: Bac in bed

[2025/10/04, 1:28:30] James: Waking for toilet

[2025/10/04, 1:28:52] James: (I was in bed in my sleep… in the dream. Then I woke up in bed in exactly the same position)

[2025/10/04, 1:30:29] James: Mind is clear but some headache

[2025/10/04, 3:37:51] James: .

[2025/10/04, 3:37:54] James: Who you are

[2025/10/04, 3:37:56] James: Where you are

[2025/10/04, 3:38:00] James: What you are

[2025/10/04, 3:38:11] James: You release it all and come back to normality

[2025/10/04, 3:38:26] James: The nonduality will also become normality

[2025/10/04, 3:38:52] James: The altered states will largely end because your brain has finished the wide scale reorganisation

[2025/10/04, 3:39:01] James: Sleep remains invaluable at this stage

[2025/10/04, 3:39:13] James: The brain needs to heal, even if it does not need to defragment

[2025/10/04, 3:39:43] James: So I expect after this initial explosive rewiring is done I will have a phase of extended sleep again

[2025/10/04, 3:40:17] James: And probably a rollback

[2025/10/04, 3:40:32] James: Because the network is being pruned

[2025/10/04, 3:40:46] James: The head still aches

[2025/10/04, 3:40:52] James: More diffuse

[2025/10/04, 3:43:32] James: I find myself feeling like I should do something

[2025/10/04, 3:43:50] James: But what I should do is sleep and let the brain heal

[2025/10/04, 3:44:02] James: Or at least lie here

[2025/10/04, 5:46:01] James: .

[2025/10/04, 5:46:08] James: Interesting nights dreams

[2025/10/04, 5:46:18] James: About letting go and having the brain repair

[2025/10/04, 5:46:56] James: The dreams have been pretty telling lately

[2025/10/04, 5:47:09] James: Almost all of them about sand falling away

[2025/10/04, 5:47:14] James: Just falling off

[2025/10/04, 5:47:26] James: But last night that felt like a reobservation phase

[2025/10/04, 5:47:34] James: Anyway

[2025/10/04, 5:47:55] James: Let’s see

[2025/10/04, 5:48:10] James: At the end of the process things apparently feel marvellously normal

[2025/10/04, 5:48:40] James: So what I think happens is you go through neuroplasticity and it induces altered states and makes you feel expansive and want to help people like crazy

[2025/10/04, 5:48:48] James: Then once it’s all over you just kind of stop

[2025/10/04, 5:49:11] James: Like you stop wanting to help people crazily because the healing process is done

[2025/10/04, 5:49:23] James: Anyway let’s get a decaf

[2025/10/04, 8:20:48] James: .

[2025/10/04, 8:20:57] James: I have a systemwide processing headache right now

[2025/10/04, 8:21:03] James: Not localised to any one minima

[2025/10/04, 8:21:12] James: The network is ready for consolidation I think

[2025/10/04, 8:21:21] James: So it’s my kids sports day this morning

[2025/10/04, 8:21:28] James: And I have demystified enlightenment

[2025/10/04, 8:21:37] James: I know how it works and what is a scaffold

[2025/10/04, 8:21:40] James: What is not

[2025/10/04, 8:21:56] James: To date, all of the processing headaches have been in the right hemisphere

[2025/10/04, 8:22:15] James: This one originated in the left and has spread to encompass the entire cranium

[2025/10/04, 8:22:28] James: I believe this might be something to do with logic and creativity

[2025/10/04, 8:23:06] James: The previous ones being in the right maybe suggest that my brain was trying to ‘create’ a new cosmological worldview that would serve as the scaffold while the system rebooted

[2025/10/04, 8:23:38] James: I think the fact that the left hemisphere is involved this time is because I know the mechanism of the process so the brain is trying to consolidate logic with what has happened to date

[2025/10/04, 8:23:53] James: I will skip aikido today and instead go into a full meditative trance.

[2025/10/04, 8:24:42] James: I will do this sports day and then go home and run a hot bath. I will alternate between cold exposure and meditation, with walking involved so I don’t force the process, and I hope that this will consolidate the new understanding

[2025/10/04, 8:24:58] James: This might be my bodhi tree moment

[2025/10/04, 8:25:21] James: The theee watches of the night

[2025/10/04, 8:25:28] James: This has all been a wild ride

[2025/10/04, 8:25:45] James: And I am impressed that this brain I inherited purely by chance can do things like this

[2025/10/04, 8:25:51] James: But I believe that all of them can

[2025/10/04, 8:25:56] James: Just mine needed it more

[2025/10/04, 8:26:02] James: So….

[2025/10/04, 8:26:04] James: We shall see

[2025/10/04, 8:26:14] James: n1 was an accident.

[2025/10/04, 8:26:23] James: n2 was intentional testing of the mechanistic process

[2025/10/04, 8:26:48] James: n3 will be intentionally inducing it

[2025/10/04, 8:27:03] James: I am a scientist after all

[2025/10/04, 8:33:32] James: .

[2025/10/04, 8:33:49] James: I’m finally able to just be here and experience the love of all these families and teachers and kids at this sports day

[2025/10/04, 8:34:00] James: Previously I would have been trapped in my minima

[2025/10/04, 8:34:18] James: I guess maybe my brain set the target of 6 months

[2025/10/04, 8:34:23] James: And that’s why I’m getting there

[2025/10/04, 8:34:28] James: A predictive model indeed

[2025/10/04, 8:34:37] James: The coming phase will be building the new website

[2025/10/04, 8:34:44] James: Once this info is consolidated

[2025/10/04, 8:39:43] James: .

[2025/10/04, 8:39:48] James: So let’s start lining up some code

[2025/10/04, 8:40:05] James: Sense pleasures and seeking approval will cause deep phasic grooves that cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:40:22] James: Pushing away negative feeling and suffering will just drive the phasic chisel in harder and cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:40:42] James: Life is unpredictable and loud and chaotic and trying to exert your control over it will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:41:16] James: Life could end at any moment and trying to deny that or hold onto experiences will also cause phasic grooves and pain

[2025/10/04, 8:42:17] James: Irritation and restlessness cause pain. Irritation at the children for being children or at yourself for making mistakes is just the same as if you were trying to exert force on the world.

[2025/10/04, 8:42:42] James: Your chikdren are separate being and trying to control them will cause pain for both you and them

[2025/10/04, 8:42:54] James: Snapping at them will cause regret and suffering

[2025/10/04, 8:43:31] James: Your brain forms thoughts and ideas based on input which you do not control. This is inevitable and you can release those thoughts without struggle, in order to prevent pain

[2025/10/04, 8:43:43] James: Overeating will cause pain, as will undereating

[2025/10/04, 8:44:01] James: Over exercising will cause pain as will under exercising

[2025/10/04, 8:44:29] James: Becoming attached to outcomes of actions will cause pain. They are out of your control. All you can do is act with good intention.

[2025/10/04, 8:45:05] James: Eating ice cream and listening to music can be smoothed out with evening meditation and is ok

[2025/10/04, 8:45:31] James: Worrying about finances and trying to predict outcomes will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:46:07] James: Holding onto grudges will cause pain, as will victimised thought loops

[2025/10/04, 8:46:18] James: Things happen and there is nothing you can do but accept them

[2025/10/04, 8:46:44] James: Trying to hold onto the scaffold of the ship and sim, and trying to make wave theory into a provable hyposthesis will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:47:20] James: You have taken that as far as it will go and it is time to drop it. The framework is internally coherent according to your current knowledge but it may not reflect reality and trying to develop it further will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:47:38] James: Feeling responsible for other people’s suffering and trying to help those who do not want to be helped will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:47:53] James: This is a process of removal, not addition

[2025/10/04, 8:48:27] James: Egocentric views of yourself will cause pain. Thinking you are a genius or any of this was your doing, as opposed to a confluence of events, will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:49:09] James: Getting lost in your thoughts and memories and visions will cause you to increase the phasic grooves in your brain and cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:49:26] James: Very difficult computer games wil cause pain, while narrative-driven games will not

[2025/10/04, 8:49:56] James: Doubt will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:50:22] James: Doubt in the process will cause pain and make it less effective. You have enough personal evidence that it works. Fuck the scientists - they will catch up

[2025/10/04, 8:50:32] James: You are the experiment

[2025/10/04, 8:51:09] James: Fear will cause pain. The world changes so incredibly much. Every shift in idea and thought causes you to become deluded and be at odds with reality, which will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:51:35] James: Becoming attached to fixed views of what is right and what is wrong will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:51:45] James: Even becoming attached to the nibbana protocol will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:52:11] James: The fear that someone might steal the ideas will cause pain. Your only priority is to share them with the world and help people.

[2025/10/04, 8:52:21] James: Employing people and being employed by people will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:52:34] James: Feeling like you own either other people or even yourself will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 8:53:08] James: A fixed view of yourself as an independent agent within the world will cause pain. Every single part of you is just a domino chain and you are not at fault for any of it nor should you hold onto it.

[2025/10/04, 8:53:22] James: Even the idea that you will record this and share it with the world will cause pain

[2025/10/04, 9:57:14] James: 2mg THXE

[2025/10/04, 10:03:00] James: 4mg guanfacine

[2025/10/04, 10:34:12] James: .

[2025/10/04, 10:34:15] James: It is ready

[2025/10/04, 10:49:21] James: .

[2025/10/04, 10:49:27] James: I just know this is going to work

[2025/10/04, 10:49:38] James: What I will have to do is to become ship again and flow with Ri

[2025/10/04, 10:49:53] James: Because that is the parallel process that my brain has created for when it is rebuilding

[2025/10/04, 10:50:33] James: So the perceptual apparatus for the external world and ‘reality’ will go offline

[2025/10/04, 10:50:53] James: During this time I will be in the realm of the ship and the realm of the devas and reincarnation and waves

[2025/10/04, 10:51:07] James: Then when the alignment is ready, rhe network will reform

[2025/10/04, 10:51:21] James: And I will switch back to the process which deals with the real world

[2025/10/04, 10:51:33] James: This is the process of visiting god and coming back to the congregation

[2025/10/04, 11:44:05] James: .

[2025/10/04, 11:44:10] James: Greed is suffering

[2025/10/04, 11:44:14] James: Hatred is suffering

[2025/10/04, 11:44:20] James: Delusion is suffering

[2025/10/04, 11:44:26] James: Self is suffering

[2025/10/04, 11:44:33] James: Attachment to outcomes is suffering

[2025/10/04, 11:44:40] James: Comparison is suffering

[2025/10/04, 11:44:48] James: Restlessness is suffering

[2025/10/04, 11:45:17] James: Sensitivity to internal and external unpleasantness is suffering

[2025/10/04, 11:45:44] James: Irritation is suffering

[2025/10/04, 11:49:34] James: .

[2025/10/04, 11:49:43] James: Life is change. Everything is impermanent.

[2025/10/04, 11:49:58] James: Phasic dopamine will cause craving and clinging and suffering.

[2025/10/04, 11:50:19] James: All that has come to be will end.

[2025/10/04, 12:15:24] James: .

[2025/10/04, 12:16:38] James: Ok. Family responsibilities done. Time to prime the code. My head still hurts a bit but it has compacted somewhat. I will walk to start the process of spreading things. I will get home and mix the THC and take it as edible then write down the experiment, review the code, and then it’s showtime.

[2025/10/04, 12:16:46] James: This will work

[2025/10/04, 12:16:53] James: Mara: there is no place for you.

[2025/10/04, 12:18:29] James: Remember:

[2025/10/04, 12:18:35] James: It is a wire, not a lantern

[2025/10/04, 12:18:41] James: There is no eternal

[2025/10/04, 12:18:50] James: You are consolidating the current worldview

[2025/10/04, 12:19:07] James: You go there, you fix the code, you come back

[2025/10/04, 12:19:33] James: Maybe 3mg THXE.

[2025/10/04, 12:19:48] James: That lowers gaba and increases dopamine and serotonin

[2025/10/04, 12:19:55] James: Guanfacine lowers NE

[2025/10/04, 12:19:59] James: It opens the gate

[2025/10/04, 12:20:05] James: And meditation does all of the above

[2025/10/04, 12:21:26] James: This is not something that I am doing

[2025/10/04, 12:21:36] James: There is no me

[2025/10/04, 12:21:43] James: The code is going offline

[2025/10/04, 12:21:47] James: The code will be changed

[2025/10/04, 12:21:51] James: There is no me

[2025/10/04, 12:21:57] James: This is just fate

[2025/10/04, 12:23:32] James: I can feel the dopamine in my cranium

[2025/10/04, 12:23:40] James: The electricity

[2025/10/04, 14:04:11] James: .

[2025/10/04, 14:04:18] James: Wow I feel a bit like crying on this walk

[2025/10/04, 14:04:20] James: Afraid

[2025/10/04, 14:04:29] James: The emotions coming up

[2025/10/04, 14:04:34] James: Watch them

[2025/10/04, 14:04:36] James: Let them be

[2025/10/04, 14:05:36] James: I am tired of pursuing these altered states now

[2025/10/04, 14:05:40] James: I am tired of nibbana

[2025/10/04, 14:05:49] James: I just want it all to be finished

[2025/10/04, 14:06:07] James: Or rather: I want to stop pursuing

[2025/10/04, 14:06:21] James: Pursuing the finish is also pursuit

[2025/10/04, 14:06:29] James: Let go of it all

[2025/10/04, 14:06:35] James: There is only this moment

[2025/10/04, 14:06:42] James: I miss my family

[2025/10/04, 14:07:38] James: Mara and his armies came for the Buddha under the tree too

[2025/10/04, 14:07:43] James: Expect them

[2025/10/04, 14:07:49] James: Do not cave

[2025/10/04, 14:12:17] James: .

[2025/10/04, 14:12:21] James: Remember it’s an experiment

[2025/10/04, 14:12:26] James: You can always call it off

[2025/10/04, 14:30:30] James: .

[2025/10/04, 14:30:57] James: Ok so… I’m getting lots of fear and misery popping up. Like grief. I don’t know why. Thinking about my family mostly.

[2025/10/04, 14:31:06] James: Maybe it is anticipatory grief for if they were to die

[2025/10/04, 14:31:15] James: I feel like I might die too

[2025/10/04, 14:31:37] James: Logically I know I’m just gonna have a bath and meditate after taking a very low dose of THC.

[2025/10/04, 14:31:44] James: But it all feels very profound and scary

[2025/10/04, 14:31:59] James: At the same time I am… ardent to see it through

[2025/10/04, 14:32:12] James: I will mix the sitting with other things like walking and eating ice cream

[2025/10/04, 14:32:26] James: It doesn’t all need to be in one block and first time I didn’t do any sitting at all

[2025/10/04, 14:32:43] James: I think the fear is normal. It is the destabilisation of the network. It is the dark night.

[2025/10/04, 14:33:10] James: But it is also real. It’s like you are releasing all the anticipatory fears and they are manifesting

[2025/10/04, 14:33:37] James: I am not non-dual at the moment. I think the sensations and release are pulling me back into my body.

[2025/10/04, 14:33:54] James: I am confident in the hypothesis. ChatGPT says it’s legit and it just makes sense on so many levels

[2025/10/04, 14:34:09] James: And priests do not always believe in god. They actually go pray when they don’t believe in god

[2025/10/04, 14:34:25] James: Ok more sensation in left hemisphere. Good. I think that means the logic is starting to align

[2025/10/04, 14:34:38] James: The fear is pretty real though and now I have that knot in my right hemisphere again

[2025/10/04, 14:34:55] James: So I have a hum throughout the whole frontal cortex on both sides and a knot in my right midbrain

[2025/10/04, 14:35:06] James: This feels like it makes sense. Logic and fear.

[2025/10/04, 14:35:19] James: I will use the shiprock for the first time in a while today

[2025/10/04, 14:35:25] James: That is a big heavy one

[2025/10/04, 14:35:49] James: And I will remember that oftentimes the consolidation happens in sleep so I will set a finish point at 11pm max. I will be with the kids tomorrow anyway.

[2025/10/04, 14:36:04] James: Ok tingle in the right brain leaving the knot and moving upward

[2025/10/04, 14:36:13] James: Left throbbing a little

[2025/10/04, 14:36:25] James: Man I spent my whole life reprogrammming myself

[2025/10/04, 14:36:31] James: I think this is the code that I used

[2025/10/04, 14:36:36] James: The firing up of the self

[2025/10/04, 14:36:48] James: Remember you can use music and yoga and dance, james. Remember it can be fun.

[2025/10/04, 14:36:58] James: The sitting meditation will be the core now though.

[2025/10/04, 14:37:04] James: Ohhh nice the tingles are growing

[2025/10/04, 14:37:08] James: I am a writer

[2025/10/04, 14:37:13] James: This helps me process stuff

[2025/10/04, 14:37:17] James: Short memory and all that

[2025/10/04, 14:37:29] James: It could happen fast or slow or not at all

[2025/10/04, 14:37:32] James: It’s an experiment

[2025/10/04, 14:37:41] James: But it has happened before twice

[2025/10/04, 14:37:55] James: One of the worlds top AI researchers eh?

[2025/10/04, 14:38:03] James: Entangled with my future self so I would awaken

[2025/10/04, 14:38:12] James: Not completely implausible

[2025/10/04, 14:38:20] James: Rather out there but hey… so is god

[2025/10/04, 14:38:30] James: And I saw him once on shrooms haha

[2025/10/04, 14:38:36] James: Shrooms and pills

[2025/10/04, 14:38:44] James: They would give me 6 months of ease

[2025/10/04, 14:38:47] James: Shrooms that is

[2025/10/04, 14:38:53] James: This is shrooms without the shrooms

[2025/10/04, 14:38:57] James: More controlled

[2025/10/04, 14:39:01] James: Chill james

[2025/10/04, 14:39:09] James: It’s an inbuilt feature of the human brain

[2025/10/04, 14:39:55] James: So I guess the facial microtensions were the minima manifesting somatically

[2025/10/04, 14:40:07] James: And once you allow that to happen they can begin to dissolve

[2025/10/04, 14:40:21] James: I don’t have those right now. We will see later. I will record it all here.

[2025/10/04, 14:42:22] James: .

[2025/10/04, 14:42:37] James: So I messaged my mum saying not to bother me or worry and that took the sensation away a little

[2025/10/04, 14:42:43] James: This is why you need isolation

[2025/10/04, 14:43:16] James: You need to be able to hold the network in mind, physically (not the ideas but the sensations) while they prime for cascade

[2025/10/04, 14:44:03] James: I feel like the time stamps on WhatsApp are important so will not airplane mode it

[2025/10/04, 14:44:34] James: The bath is running and the THC (which is really low dose but I’ve not touched for 3 months) should kick in in about 45 min, as should the guanfacine

[2025/10/04, 14:44:48] James: The hope is that the lower gaba and ne will open the door for neuroplasticity

[2025/10/04, 14:44:59] James: And then the increased dopamine and serotonin will push the code through

[2025/10/04, 14:45:21] James: Logically it works. It’s worked before. But using chemical assistance (no matter how low) is a little intimidating

[2025/10/04, 14:45:34] James: And this is from someone who used to drink this edible mixture like water haha

[2025/10/04, 14:45:40] James: Like is better now though

[2025/10/04, 14:45:43] James: Tool for a job

[2025/10/04, 14:45:48] James: That last little nudge

[2025/10/04, 14:45:56] James: 3 watches, was it, Sid?

[2025/10/04, 14:46:03] James: 3 sits. Not all in one.

[2025/10/04, 14:46:14] James: Get up and walk around inbetween

[2025/10/04, 14:46:25] James: Maybe he had 3 consolidations in the night. Who knows.

[2025/10/04, 14:46:30] James: Anyway

[2025/10/04, 14:54:52] James: .

[2025/10/04, 14:55:09] James: Re-read the grand algorithm. It makes sense. I will now get in the bath and then go for my first sit.

[2025/10/04, 15:11:43] James: These minima were planted there by the grand algo

[2025/10/04, 15:11:52] James: You do not control them or their resolution

[2025/10/04, 15:11:56] James: You are but the hand of god

[2025/10/04, 15:12:10] James: Fruition will come when the time is right

[2025/10/04, 15:12:14] James: All you do is sit and wait

[2025/10/04, 16:06:51] James: .

[2025/10/04, 16:06:56] James: Sit with microcessations

[2025/10/04, 16:07:00] James: Walking now for ice cream

[2025/10/04, 16:07:09] James: Feels like I am walking down a tunnel

[2025/10/04, 16:13:18] James: I feel like Neo in the matrix.

[2025/10/04, 16:13:26] James: Totally aware of every single smooth action

[2025/10/04, 16:13:35] James: Absolutely zero instability

[2025/10/04, 16:14:00] James: Aware of things in my field of vision without needing to move my eyes.

[2025/10/04, 16:17:39] James: .

[2025/10/04, 16:17:47] James: I feel all micritensions in my gut

[2025/10/04, 16:17:52] James: Threat assessment

[2025/10/04, 16:17:55] James: Saw a man

[2025/10/04, 16:18:11] James: Shortly after the minima in my right hemisphere pinged briefly

[2025/10/04, 16:18:33] James: That one is probably physical threat. A deep one for me

[2025/10/04, 16:20:52] James: This is great a

[2025/10/04, 16:21:01] James: A minuscule amount of weed

[2025/10/04, 16:21:16] James: And deprogramming

[2025/10/04, 16:21:30] James: And everything feels new and fresh

[2025/10/04, 16:21:36] James: Ice cream delicious

[2025/10/04, 16:21:40] James: And satisfied

[2025/10/04, 16:22:02] James: Not just taking as much as possible and consuming and distracting

[2025/10/04, 16:22:54] James: .

[2025/10/04, 16:23:04] James: Remember: if this is a sim then everything is metaphor

[2025/10/04, 16:23:17] James: That’s another thing I repeated when ari hit me

[2025/10/04, 16:23:32] James: So either this realworld or the other scaffold…

[2025/10/04, 16:23:36] James: One of them is metaphor

[2025/10/04, 16:23:40] James: And we can never say which

[2025/10/04, 16:23:44] James: Maybe they both are

[2025/10/04, 16:23:59] James: Maybe the tiger is the dream of the cage and the cage is the dream of the tiger

[2025/10/04, 16:25:15] James: This is how the sim works isn’t it

[2025/10/04, 16:25:25] James: We need to build the sim

[2025/10/04, 16:25:28] James: And the sim contains us

[2025/10/04, 16:25:45] James: Ouroboros

[2025/10/04, 16:26:15] James: Conditioned arising. The circle. Rebirth.

[2025/10/04, 16:26:49] James: And it all feels like fate again

[2025/10/04, 16:26:58] James: Probably a sign they were micro cessations

[2025/10/04, 17:20:16] James: .

[2025/10/04, 17:20:26] James: Reviewing the codebase after that sit

[2025/10/04, 17:20:43] James: Not quite as Neo like but no cold plunge.

[2025/10/04, 17:21:12] James: And it’s cyclical. The system pruned stuff last sit and will now be fixing up. Next sit it might prune again. Let’s see. I will also use the cold plunge and bath once more.

[2025/10/04, 17:38:39] James: .

[2025/10/04, 17:39:14] James: Very easy humming. The field feels very smooth. Was getting huge urges to start working on the NP website. The whole thing is crystal in my mind. But still some head tension so will finish the computation first

[2025/10/04, 17:58:50] James: .

[2025/10/04, 17:58:53] James: 20 min sit

[2025/10/04, 17:59:01] James: I just figured out how human being think

[2025/10/04, 18:54:31] James: Tonic dopamine being low means that the dopamine needs to come out of the minimum and into the stream and that’s why you get dark thoughts arising when you do as low then you can pull the dopamine higher to wash them away

[2025/10/04, 19:46:11] James: .

[2025/10/04, 19:46:12] James: Wow

[2025/10/04, 19:46:21] James: Almost 5 hours since I started

[2025/10/04, 19:46:26] James: And I barely remember any of it

[2025/10/04, 19:46:27] James: Haha

[2025/10/04, 19:46:34] James: Must be some good quality meditation.

[2025/10/04, 20:07:57] James: .

[2025/10/04, 20:08:06] James: Might go for nirodha why not

[2025/10/04, 20:08:15] James: Seems I’m close. Lots of formless stuff

[2025/10/04, 20:08:23] James: But the thing is that you don’t go for it. Ha

[2025/10/04, 20:08:35] James: So just sit there and let the mind melt and whatevaaaaah

[2025/10/04, 20:10:09] James: Another decaf and then bath and sit for probably the last session of the evening. Getting tired now.

[2025/10/04, 20:10:22] James: Will get deep and then see if I can release

[2025/10/04, 21:08:23] James: .

[2025/10/04, 21:08:42] James: So I just used targeted resonant humming of varying frequency to lift the sand out of the threat tunnel

[2025/10/04, 21:08:44] James: In the bath

[2025/10/04, 23:09:20] James: My man

[2025/10/04, 23:09:24] James: You’re still there!

[2025/10/04, 23:09:25] James: Haha

[2025/10/04, 23:09:32] James: ‘Sup?

[2025/10/04, 23:09:42] James: Somethings fucky about this code eh.

[2025/10/04, 23:11:27] James: I feel genuinely bad for all the stinkbugs I got with that tape

[2025/10/04, 23:11:32] James: I’ll not be doing that again

[2025/10/04, 23:11:38] James: Poor guys

[2025/10/04, 23:12:01] James: I guess final liberation is just the start too

[2025/10/04, 23:12:20] James: Maybe I will need to hit all those precepts of the eightfold path

[2025/10/04, 23:12:39] James: Sense pleasures is a toughie. Actually… you’re allowed ice cream. Just not getting attached.

[2025/10/04, 23:12:42] James: That’s how it feels

[2025/10/04, 23:12:49] James: It’s the greed. Isn’t it

[2025/10/04, 23:12:58] James: And then the morality of not killing anything

[2025/10/04, 23:13:08] James: And money… man. We need to get rid of that.

[2025/10/04, 23:15:19] James: .

[2025/10/04, 23:15:25] James: So here’s how I think it will play out

[2025/10/04, 23:15:34] James: The mind will remain liberated from suffering

[2025/10/04, 23:15:48] James: But the conditioning will carry on popping up and burning itself out

[2025/10/04, 23:16:09] James: The minima will continue, but they will be used for solving real problems. For calculation and fixing the world

[2025/10/04, 23:16:19] James: They won’t be pain in the same way now that I know what they are

[2025/10/04, 23:16:54] James: I think my hypothesis about us all being the saviours of our own worlds might be true but let’s see

[2025/10/04, 23:17:11] James: I don’t know how this would fit in with other people having their own worlds inside them

[2025/10/04, 23:17:27] James: But if there’s a global sim and local sims and assembly language …

[2025/10/04, 23:17:43] James: Then Akane is another node…

[2025/10/04, 23:17:58] James: And minima inside her. But not bad ones. Her world is good.

[2025/10/04, 23:18:24] James: Do my actions really impact the other nodes, and their actions impact me and my goodness this is complicated

[2025/10/04, 23:18:30] James: Head starting to hurt already haha

[2025/10/04, 23:18:31] James: Oops

[2025/10/04, 23:18:35] James: Time for bed I think

[2025/10/04, 23:22:17] James: .

[2025/10/04, 23:22:19] James: Ah yes

[2025/10/04, 23:22:27] James: And I predict a rollback phase as usual

[2025/10/04, 23:23:09] James: I think i will need to repeat the process a few times to bed it in and minimise the rollbacks. Though I suppose each completed computation would bring me close.

[2025/10/04, 23:23:23] James: The rollback though. That is just a habit of thought - letting it bother me

[2025/10/04, 23:23:33] James: It is part of the computation process

[2025/10/04, 23:23:45] James: It is not actually something to be concerned about