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[2025/10/12, 1:27:37] James: Hmm

[2025/10/12, 1:27:51] James: I think my brain just folded the next steps while I’m lying here in bed

[2025/10/12, 1:28:08] James: Mental chain of thoughts that was neither waking nor sleeping

[2025/10/12, 1:28:15] James: And I’ll get up and write I guess

[2025/10/12, 1:28:42] James: But I think it gets a little more relaxed soon

[2025/10/12, 1:28:45] James: For a bit

[2025/10/12, 1:28:52] James: It wasn’t stressful this time though

[2025/10/12, 1:28:58] James: More like an inflection point t

[2025/10/12, 1:38:21] James: .

[2025/10/12, 1:38:29] James: Wow I should have written that down properly

[2025/10/12, 1:38:40] James: Basically it seems like things now play out in reverse

[2025/10/12, 1:38:55] James: So all of the really deep layer stuff that I wrote at the end will start to happen

[2025/10/12, 1:39:10] James: And the giving out of the candy today will be the giving out of this knowledge

[2025/10/12, 1:39:28] James: The people who are involved in the L9 work will get this message somehow.

[2025/10/12, 1:39:41] James: I don’t know - seems my mind has gone blank somewhat

[2025/10/12, 1:39:49] James: But it was very active while I was in bed

[2025/10/12, 1:40:00] James: I don’t know how much I will need to write going forward.

[2025/10/12, 1:40:09] James: Maybe the messages will just reach them.

[2025/10/12, 1:40:29] James: It’s pretty cold at night so I’d rather stay wrapped up haha

[2025/10/12, 1:41:52] James: Three anchors at all times

[2025/10/12, 1:41:57] James: And now they are my family

[2025/10/12, 2:24:23] James: .

[2025/10/12, 2:24:40] James: I’ve got a fairly high amount of bodily anxiety right now

[2025/10/12, 2:24:44] James: Will head back to bed

[2025/10/12, 2:25:06] James: Looking forward to it falling away. Maybe it never will.

[2025/10/12, 2:25:27] James: I think things slow down now though

[2025/10/12, 2:25:30] James: Which will be nice

[2025/10/12, 2:25:44] James: What a crazy few months / years / whatever’s

[2025/10/12, 5:14:08] James: .

[2025/10/12, 5:14:11] James: Upside down

[2025/10/12, 5:14:17] James: I am in the upsidedown

[2025/10/12, 5:14:21] James: The rock is warm again

[2025/10/12, 5:14:32] James: My world has inverted

[2025/10/12, 5:14:51] James: What used to be the real world is now in my dreams and what used to be my dreams is now my real world

[2025/10/12, 5:15:18] James: I am interacting with the people in my old real world while I sleep and the ones in my new real world while I am awake

[2025/10/12, 5:15:28] James: My family came with me because they are my anchors

[2025/10/12, 5:15:46] James: So when you go into worldbuilding you create your upside down

[2025/10/12, 5:16:20] James: And in the old [realworld] you become an arahant and just do good to try to help everybody else become one too

[2025/10/12, 5:16:35] James: Many people won’t listen but you carry on trying, within your dreams

[2025/10/12, 5:16:46] James: I’ve had dreams that are super realistic since the day I was born

[2025/10/12, 5:16:57] James: Ones where I fell from buildings and felt the landing

[2025/10/12, 5:17:08] James: Ones where I was just in the office doing boring shit

[2025/10/12, 5:17:21] James: Ones where I am talking to a neighbour just now and unable to communicate

[2025/10/12, 5:17:29] James: I’m being nice in my dreams don’t worry

[2025/10/12, 5:17:44] James: But if you’ve seen stranger things you know what the upside down can look like

[2025/10/12, 5:17:50] James: You choose that though

[2025/10/12, 5:17:57] James: You choose your own upside down.

[2025/10/12, 5:18:04] James: And once you are arahant you live there

[2025/10/12, 5:18:34] James: Or.. you kind of straddle them. I think you still operate in realworld but the dreamscape becomes your own world

[2025/10/12, 5:18:41] James: It’s like Neo in the matrix

[2025/10/12, 5:18:55] James: You can shape it

[2025/10/12, 5:19:03] James: And you can choose which one to reside in

[2025/10/12, 5:19:14] James: But in this reality you can shape them BOTH

[2025/10/12, 5:19:20] James: But only from the opposite end

[2025/10/12, 5:19:29] James: So my other writings will be in the other reality

[2025/10/12, 5:19:36] James: While these ones are in this reality

[2025/10/12, 5:19:49] James: And I walked away from the neighbour and a few others I knew

[2025/10/12, 5:19:52] James: They can do them

[2025/10/12, 5:20:03] James: But it’s up to you what world you create

[2025/10/12, 5:20:07] James: And…

[2025/10/12, 5:20:09] James: Err

[2025/10/12, 5:20:15] James: I think it might last forever

[2025/10/12, 5:20:19] James: So…

[2025/10/12, 5:20:23] James: Be careful yeah

[2025/10/12, 5:20:29] James: You get what you give

[2025/10/12, 5:20:36] James: This is where the world delineates

[2025/10/12, 5:20:46] James: It’s the [fork] in the multiverse

[2025/10/12, 5:20:52] James: Remember to bring your anchors with you

[2025/10/12, 5:30:43] James: The worldrock feels warm when I am in one and cold when in the other

[2025/10/12, 5:30:48] James: The dhamma rock

[2025/10/12, 5:40:30] James: Cannabis for one world and coffee for the other

[2025/10/12, 7:02:08] James: .

[2025/10/12, 7:02:16] James: Dhamma rock is neither hot nor cold

[2025/10/12, 7:05:43] James: After the ecstasy the laundry indeed eh Jack haha

[2025/10/12, 7:05:47] James: Thanks for the tip

[2025/10/12, 7:08:09] James: .

[2025/10/12, 7:08:13] James: hmmm those chats I left

[2025/10/12, 7:08:21] James: family+ and siblings

[2025/10/12, 7:08:29] James: I can’t rejoin them but they were sat as unread this whole time

[2025/10/12, 7:08:36] James: now they are no longer flagged as unread

[2025/10/12, 7:08:47] James: guys if you’re able to come over then send a message of some sort

[2025/10/12, 7:19:11] James: .

[2025/10/12, 7:19:18] James: Don’t forget to clean the toilet too eh Jack haha

[2025/10/12, 7:19:23] James: Ours are spotless now

[2025/10/12, 7:23:10] James: .

[2025/10/12, 7:23:22] James: I think we find and make things for each other in order to pass this knowledge on

[2025/10/12, 7:23:34] James: The meteorites

[2025/10/12, 7:23:38] James: The knives I’ve been making

[2025/10/12, 8:01:00] James: .

[2025/10/12, 8:01:08] James: Dog poo in the empty park

[2025/10/12, 8:01:16] James: No murder of crows

[2025/10/12, 8:01:21] James: Very quiet

[2025/10/12, 8:01:33] James: I cleaned the toilets and the bath

[2025/10/12, 8:01:44] James: I think I’m starting to see how this works

[2025/10/12, 8:01:53] James: Time to walk and get cornflakes for George

[2025/10/12, 8:02:03] James: Akane will catch up. Her bonsai hasn’t shed all its leaves yet

[2025/10/12, 8:02:04] James: .

[2025/10/12, 8:04:19] James: I guess akane will lead Luca’s iteration

[2025/10/12, 8:04:24] James: Or something like that.

[2025/10/12, 8:04:25] James: .

[2025/10/12, 8:04:55] James: A few crows but they are all flying away

[2025/10/12, 8:05:08] James: The birds look like they flow with 理

[2025/10/12, 8:13:10] James: .

[2025/10/12, 8:13:20] James: So akane said I am the narrative director

[2025/10/12, 8:13:33] James: I don’t think I need to worry about the details of the tech

[2025/10/12, 8:13:43] James: That is handled by my peeps.

[2025/10/12, 8:21:14] James: .

[2025/10/12, 9:25:43] James: Oh wow.

[2025/10/12, 9:25:47] James: George’s Pokémon

[2025/10/12, 9:25:56] James: They no longer have a gender

[2025/10/12, 9:26:00] James: (Most of them)

[2025/10/12, 9:26:03] James: Including me.

[2025/10/12, 9:26:05] James: Oh

[2025/10/12, 9:26:12] James: Only some of them don’t have gender

[2025/10/12, 9:26:20] James: Anyway they can make babies on their own now I guess

[2025/10/12, 9:26:43] James: The dying insects are manifestations of my doubt

[2025/10/12, 9:30:05] James: All of the plastic in my reality is starting to crumble

[2025/10/12, 9:30:13] James: I think things will be natural going forward

[2025/10/12, 11:36:03] James: .

[2025/10/12, 11:36:09] James: The bath just tried to run itself

[2025/10/12, 11:36:50] James: The clock which is on the boiler (for the outside world) is flashing 032 which is not even a time. Not 00:32 but just 032.

[2025/10/12, 11:36:55] James: I guess I have a bath then haha

[2025/10/12, 11:37:28] James: Consolidate some code eh guys.

[2025/10/12, 11:37:36] James: I’ll just chill now all the crazy shit is done

[2025/10/12, 11:59:29] James: .

[2025/10/12, 11:59:36] James: Old communications wire removed

[2025/10/12, 11:59:47] James: Somehow the wall mount would only go back on upside down

[2025/10/12, 11:59:57] James: How strange 🤔

[2025/10/12, 12:01:03] James: Oh and luca is out playing with his friend at the mo. Akane is back and George is still loving pokemon.

[2025/10/12, 12:05:16] James: .

[2025/10/12, 12:05:26] James: Luca vanished for a while but was at a friends house

[2025/10/12, 12:05:40] James: Very quiet

[2025/10/12, 12:05:50] James: Very few people around and no insects or crows

[2025/10/12, 12:18:10] James: .

[2025/10/12, 12:18:12] James: Folding done

[2025/10/12, 12:18:19] James: I think this is a kind of global voting system

[2025/10/12, 12:18:23] James: Change implemented

[2025/10/12, 12:19:56] James: I guess I will converge with the world on my 42nd birthday after all

[2025/10/12, 12:19:58] James: Maybe haha

[2025/10/12, 12:21:59] James: Time for lunch

[2025/10/12, 12:51:07] James: .

[2025/10/12, 12:51:11] James: I am on my own again

[2025/10/12, 12:51:15] James: Family out for trick or treat

[2025/10/12, 12:51:19] James: I walked with them

[2025/10/12, 12:51:25] James: Now it’s scaffold mode

[2025/10/12, 12:51:39] James: So I’m going to be super nice to these kids and get the sim reprogrammed

[2025/10/12, 12:51:45] James: I’m walking across roads without looking

[2025/10/12, 12:51:49] James: I’m tired of cars

[2025/10/12, 12:52:33] James: I think these messages to self work because the self [token] is in both realworld and scaffold

[2025/10/12, 12:52:37] James: So it’s a way to keep track

[2025/10/12, 12:52:47] James: Like the note keeping when you do it traditional Buddhist style

[2025/10/12, 12:53:22] James: There’s a few more snowbugs on this side but not many

[2025/10/12, 12:56:35] James: Snowbugs are dying as they land on me

[2025/10/12, 12:56:40] James: I’m brushing them off

[2025/10/12, 12:57:39] James: Dhamma rock cold though

[2025/10/12, 12:57:49] James: Maybe I’ve flipped for a while and the rules are reversed

[2025/10/12, 12:58:41] James: I’ll do the pots instead of writing that article

[2025/10/12, 13:05:44] James: And a poo / data export :p

[2025/10/12, 13:35:26] James: .

[2025/10/12, 13:35:41] James: stinkbug just flicked into existence right in front of my eyes as I let doubt creep in.

[2025/10/12, 13:37:26] James: Messages to andrew and simon say a day far earlier than the recent messages. I think they are queued. for delivery?

[2025/10/12, 13:39:45] James: Can feel echoes of anxiety in the body

[2025/10/12, 13:59:25] James: .

[2025/10/12, 13:59:29] James: Yeah I keep flickering

[2025/10/12, 13:59:55] James: I think the cycling is getting faster and smaller but I still have conditioning to shed and anxiety is still anxiety. Social awkwardness I guess.

[2025/10/12, 14:00:07] James: Reading my own writings about the seed back to myself

[2025/10/12, 14:01:10] James: Yeah I was trying to control it again

[2025/10/12, 14:01:15] James: That’s not how this works

[2025/10/12, 14:01:22] James: I am the combined will of the entire species

[2025/10/12, 14:01:38] James: It’s still rather strange

[2025/10/12, 14:32:51] James: .

[2025/10/12, 14:33:00] James: Yeah I’m feeling pretty disoriented this afternoon.

[2025/10/12, 15:22:59] James: .

[2025/10/12, 15:23:02] James: Well that was nice

[2025/10/12, 15:23:35] James: Halloween event with the kids. Maybe 100 people total. I ended up standing up in front of the lot of them and had none of the usual anxiety from the eyes.

[2025/10/12, 15:23:59] James: All felt very smooth and easy. Still some residual conditioning trying to bite but it doesn’t seem to. Feels very peculiar indeed.

[2025/10/12, 15:24:41] James: I have no idea whether this sim interpretation is literal but it feels airtight and I will believe it for the rest of my life

[2025/10/12, 15:24:57] James: Everything feels fated. But I kind of have agency within it, if that makes sense.

[2025/10/12, 15:25:06] James: Randomosity with constraints.

[2025/10/12, 15:25:10] James: A tiger in a cage.

[2025/10/12, 15:25:18] James: Plus a nice sanity check haha

[2025/10/12, 15:25:21] James: Nice one devteam.

[2025/10/12, 15:25:33] James: Yakiniku with the family tonight I think.

[2025/10/12, 16:09:38] James: .

[2025/10/12, 16:09:48] James: Yeah so the rubbish I put out on the wrong day is still there

[2025/10/12, 16:09:57] James: I guess I can’t control the globalsim directly

[2025/10/12, 17:01:48] James: .

[2025/10/12, 17:02:04] James: So we are at yakiniku

[2025/10/12, 17:02:12] James: Kapital by soul jazz orchestra in the car

[2025/10/12, 17:02:15] James: We forgot money

[2025/10/12, 17:02:30] James: One table available for 1 hour and they have said that we can pay later

[2025/10/12, 17:02:43] James: If they ask us to pay then I will run down to the shop and get some cash

[2025/10/12, 17:02:46] James: But let’s see

[2025/10/12, 17:05:37] James: Akane really can’t let go of the money thing

[2025/10/12, 17:05:48] James: She is insisting on going to 7/11 now to get cash

[2025/10/12, 17:05:55] James: Ho hum

[2025/10/12, 17:06:08] James: Well… not my choice, is it?

[2025/10/12, 17:06:16] James: You all need to let go of it for us to be able to.

[2025/10/12, 17:07:47] James: … I wonder what happened to me in all of your worlds

[2025/10/12, 17:08:38] James: Oh

[2025/10/12, 17:08:40] James: That’s ok!

[2025/10/12, 17:08:47] James: I was pushing for a universal basic income anyway

[2025/10/12, 17:08:53] James: We don’t need to do away with it altogether

[2025/10/12, 17:08:59] James: But also you don’t need to work to eat

[2025/10/12, 17:09:11] James: That’s all I really care about

[2025/10/12, 17:09:23] James: Stopping people having to sell their time just to be able toneat

[2025/10/12, 17:09:30] James: Time is the only thing we have, after all

[2025/10/12, 17:09:33] James: .

[2025/10/12, 17:20:20] James: I wonder what will happen when I beat chapter 1. Maybe nothing haha.

[2025/10/12, 17:22:27] James: This is all strange as fuck guys

[2025/10/12, 17:22:28] James: Hah

[2025/10/12, 17:22:29] James: .

[2025/10/12, 17:37:57] James: Fucking Truman show shit this

[2025/10/12, 17:37:58] James: Haha

[2025/10/12, 17:38:02] James: .

[2025/10/12, 18:00:03] James: This is still weird as shit but all the insects seems to be stopped/dead or gone.

[2025/10/12, 18:00:18] James: The kids are with me tonight and akane is off to have her space then go to a mountain tomorrow.

[2025/10/12, 18:00:21] James: That’s her thing

[2025/10/12, 18:00:33] James: Surreal times y’all.

[2025/10/12, 19:19:10] James: .

[2025/10/12, 19:19:18] James: Alright the house is as tidy as it’s going to get

[2025/10/12, 19:19:30] James: The insects and their corpses are all gone

[2025/10/12, 19:19:36] James: The kids are playing in the living room

[2025/10/12, 19:19:54] James: I’m getting tired of not knowing whether I will be able to remain with my loved ones