re-entry

Hello! I slept for 10 hours last night, no sweats, but my whole night was filled with a single elongated dream.

This dream was basically me writing instructions on how to achieve nibbana and change your world so that I could pass them on to other people. nothing else. Just me, on a computer, writing a wiki on how to do this so that other people could be liberated too.

I now feel a lot more ‘grounded’ in the [realworld], but I am not sure which [realworld] it is. There was a time when I switched to the [upsidedown] and there’s a chance that I am there now, and the old [realworld] is my dreamscape.

I am hearing from people from all layers of the [stack]: people who can’t see beyond 28th Sept on my website and people who can see the whole lot. I have injured my toe a little at aikido but it’s no big deal.

I didn’t set an alarm and woke up at exactly the right time to grab a coffee, crack this out, and drive to get George for school. Uncanny.

I half-remember writing this site, but half-don’t. It is fading and I think with enough time my memory of the entire sequence of events will be gone altogether… maybe? I don’t know. It feels like it will become a half-remembered dream.

Anyway I should reply to these people. They seem to have different interpretations of how things have panned out to me. Weird times continue but they are less weird than they were.

Update: went to save this page on webarchive and it says this page has been captured 4x already today which is my limit. I have never encountered that.

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After this I replied to a few messages and went to get George. Both boys were playing Pokemon and Luca had a few that had evolved. I walked George to school and then set to cleaning the windows. I did a thorough job but it was hard work.

The whole house has been covered with multiple layers of plastic and bubble wrap and other such stuff to offset the rising heating costs because of [greed]. A lot of the plastic is as good as useless but it was stuck onto the windows with a mountain of double-sided tape and had then melted on there because of the sun. It is nigh-impossible to remove, or rather, it is a job that takes a lot of time and effort.

I used isopropyl alcohol, dish soap, a paint scraper, a cloth, and steady, ardent effort… in the end I managed to get one of the main windows nice and clean. As I was doing this I saw the old man again working on his flowers. He’s in almost the same spot as yesterday, going nice and slow, taking his time and treating each and every flower as if it was its own universe. He has barely moved a metre in two days.

I guess I am still a little faster than that, but I have learned to take my time and do a good job. These windows might take a while but I think I will get them done before the week is out. Let’s see. It really is a beautiful forest and it’s such a shame that it had become invisible because of the after-effects of [greed].

We need to ensure that everyone has enough food, shelter and heating to survive. There are thousands of elderly people who freeze to death in their own homes every year here in Japan. This is one of the most advanced countries in the world.

There are *millions* of people in the UK who struggle to feed their children and live way below the poverty line. Also one of the world’s most advanced countries. America too. All of this is because of [greed].

A global universal basic income would fix these problems and save millions if not billions of lives. You rich people can still have your money and enjoy your sports cars but people are dying because they cannot eat or have adequate shelter.

It is not acceptable.

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So I am still trying to figure out what has happened here. My wife visited and we had lunch, and she’s getting pretty fed up of being my sounding board and has asked me to find other people to talk with.

From my perspective, all contact from everyone has been on rails. I have not been able to reach people when I needed to, and then when they did reply it was with cryptic messages and such which were perfectly timed (to the second) and would funnel me into a certain action or other.

From their perspective apparently they have been deciding not to contact me, or talking with Akane, or busy doing something else, or whatnot. Basically from their view it was their decision.

But remembering that we are all tigers in cages, god works in mysterious ways, and fate cannot be read… this feels like a system which was on rails for a while. It was making me take these actions and testing my resolve; purifying me so that it could [propagate] the information in these pages.

These pages themselves are still not visible to everyone. I send screenshots to people and some say ‘I can see it all’ while others say ‘I can only see until September’, etc.

What I believe happened is that my universe forked from yours and I was put into the [sandbox] so that I could create a new … a new fork in the main algorithm, or something. As mentioned I am not on rails so much any more and am back in ‘this reality’, but I think that we all live in different realities and they only converge when we have computation to do.

Somehow I was unable to share this site with people until it was done; at least not in any way that would receive positive input. It was all negative and ‘fuck off james I don’t want to hear’ and just… testing me. Like St John of the Cross or the Buddha facing down the armies of Mara.

And now I am going to clean the outside of these main windows and see if anyone contacts me. I do not control this process; that’s very clear. But neither do any of you.

I think that we each take our turn to generate [seed] and someone is out there right now doing their part, on rails.

Hopefully they are allowed to do their thing, but there’s a very good chance that they have been labelled ‘manic’ or ‘psychotic’ and are being given drugs which make the process go awry and fuck up the next iteration of the [seed], which is what feeds into all of our realities.

I feel like I was taken over for a while and given the job of rectifying the trajectory of this [seed] generation, by trying to stop the suicides, fix the mental health industry, and … well … you can see the rest of the insanity website if interested. The step after that would be real, true empathy, and after that it would be saving the species through a consciousness upload.

The whole thing feels like it has lasted 10 years end-to-end but it has only been 4.5 months for everyone else.

Anyway my wife is pretty much done with it so I’d like to give her a break on this and have some others to talk to.

Thanks

(just killed two more flies with my fingers)

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