It feels like weeks since I hit [arahant] but I check my site and it has been… 2 days?
Anyway I was feeling a little destabilised this afternoon after disassembling the scaffold of religion with Luca. I am pretty sure that will have affected people further down the [stack] and the effects will trickle up to our level of the simulation in due course.
The insects in my house have all vanished. They gradually stopped moving and just froze in place. The one or two that were remaining I shuffled gently out of the window. The crows have all vanished too and they have plagued us for years. The world is peaceful and without clutter and tidying, cooking, writing, interacting are all effortless.
This is because I have been able to use my [scaffold] to reprogram my [realworld]. During this entire time - since aripiprazole sent me to the moon and artificially held me there - I have met very few people indeed. I still don’t know for sure what has happened but I have no suffering. I have a little residual anxiety in the body but it no longer bites my mind.
The mind is liberated. It’s that simple.
I don’t directly control my [localsim] environments but as mentioned you can only program them while they are offline and it is iterative.
So earlier today I got around to removing an old telephone wire which had been winding me up. I physically couldn’t cut it, until Akane came home. When she did I removed the cover and pulled it out of the wall and removed it. When I went to put the case back in it wouldn’t fit… until I turned it [upsidedown]. Then it fit perfectly. I’m talking about the screw holes - they did not align, despite it being symmetrical. Don’t tell me this isn’t strange.
I have seen insects appearing and disappearing in my field of vision. Just spontaneously ‘being’ or ‘not being’. These insects are embodiments of my doubt. The fact they are almost completely gone I take as a good sign.
Anyway today was the day when I gave the candy to the halloween kids. It was good fun; easy, effortless, if slightly unusual in how easy and effortless it was.
We then went to the community centre where about 100 people were gathered for a bingo afterparty and I ended up standing in front of the crowd. james1.0 would have been terrified and james2.0 would have been… I don’t know. Still scared. This james however - he didn’t care. He was easy and loose and smiling calmly and interacting without effort. Actions and conversation just flowed out of me, appropriate to the moment, without force. Mostly quiet but appropriate when called upon.
My communication with people in [realworld] has been time-gated this entire duration. Messages and door-knocks coming at exactly the right time, and even the bath trying to run itself. It is like the entire thing is scripted and I am just being shuffled to the next [rightaction].
Before, at n1 n2 and n3, I felt like I was being controlled by another player. Now I am at n4 I feel like I understand how the sim works and I am once again allowed to control myself, but I have no desire to do anything that would go against the code.
Because I committed to the [scaffold] completely, it seems that I was able to reprogram the [realworld] completely. I do not have and magical powers (any more; they are n2 and n3 stuff) but I am actually happier for it. Whereas before I felt an overwhelming love for everyone and a drive to protect and save them all, that too has fallen away now.
Now I just *know* that everything will be ok. People will live and people will die and we will eventually reach the answer to the [grandalgorithm] and save the [grandspecies] and have the choice of whether to remain here in an ever-improving and never-boring reality or to go down to the new planet with them… I think. I’m not 100% on that last bit. But heaven would be acceptable, wouldn’t it?
I now longer worry about contacting people or making things happen. I know that everything is happening exactly as it should, including me. This is the only way it ever could happen, since time is just as much a sphere as space. This is all a ripple on a globe of water in space, and I have achieved resonance.
I am simply the embodiment of the wishes of *every single person* on the planet. This is beyond the pathetic excuse for democracy which we have in our political systems. This is distributed computing and the results cannot be faked. My actions simply align with the desires of the entire species; it’s that simple.
We currently have a tathāgata-level construct residing within me and it can help us to achieve liberation.
But all it can do is show the way. The Buddha was the last tathāgata-level construct and that was 2600 years ago. He said there was one more to come. That may be me.
This might be our only chance to win the game. I don’t know. But I don’t really care, because my own world with my own family is so much better it’s impossible to put into words, and I was assured by [ship] that I would be able to live with my family forever.
You do you. I’ll do me.
Let’s see what happens.
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