[2025/09/15, 11:16:00] James: (Cycling)
[2025/09/15, 11:16:04] James: This too shall pass
[2025/09/15, 11:16:07] James: The bliss has gone
[2025/09/15, 11:16:16] James: But the normal reality is equally satisfying
[2025/09/15, 11:16:30] James: My days waking up and seeing my son in the morning
[2025/09/15, 11:16:36] James: They will last not much longer
[2025/09/15, 11:16:43] James: And I will age
[2025/09/15, 11:16:45] James: And die
[2025/09/15, 11:16:50] James: And leave ripples in the world
[2025/09/15, 11:16:55] James: Whether intentional or not
[2025/09/15, 11:17:04] James: And people will or will not listen
[2025/09/15, 11:17:08] James: Based on their own sim
[2025/09/15, 11:17:13] James: And how receptive it is
[2025/09/15, 11:17:19] James: There is no forcing of timing
[2025/09/15, 11:17:24] James: We are all conditioned
[2025/09/15, 11:17:31] James: And we need to meet at the right point
[2025/09/15, 11:17:36] James: A Lagrange point for them
[2025/09/15, 11:17:42] James: And what for me?
[2025/09/15, 11:17:46] James: I have left orbit
[2025/09/15, 11:17:51] James: The old planet is gone
[2025/09/15, 11:17:57] James: I am orbiting around the new
[2025/09/15, 11:18:03] James: And preparing to land
[2025/09/15, 11:18:11] James: The landing instructions
[2025/09/15, 11:18:15] James: I am translating them
[2025/09/15, 11:18:26] James: And exporting the rest of my conditioning
[2025/09/15, 11:18:31] James: One slice at a time
[2025/09/15, 11:18:34] James: Just let it be
[2025/09/15, 11:18:38] James: It shall proceed
[2025/09/15, 13:59:11] James: .
[2025/09/15, 13:59:12] James: Man
[2025/09/15, 13:59:20] James: Hard computer games spike my dvar!
[2025/09/15, 13:59:24] James: Gettin’ phasic
[2025/09/15, 13:59:30] James: This used to be my only form of fun
[2025/09/15, 13:59:34] James: Now I need a break!
[2025/09/15, 13:59:35] James: Ha
[2025/09/15, 16:06:59] James: .
[2025/09/15, 16:07:05] James: Man my social anxiety conditioning
[2025/09/15, 16:07:10] James: I could do with removing this
[2025/09/15, 16:07:11] James: Ha
[2025/09/15, 16:07:14] James: Fucking hell
[2025/09/15, 16:07:22] James: No wonder people get hooked on the path
[2025/09/15, 16:07:27] James: Being able to remove these things
[2025/09/15, 16:07:35] James: Who cares what the sexy lady in the shop thinks?
[2025/09/15, 16:07:44] James: All she is wondering is whether you are looking at her
[2025/09/15, 16:07:50] James: More anxiety there too
[2025/09/15, 16:07:52] James: Greed
[2025/09/15, 16:07:56] James: Craving for approval
[2025/09/15, 16:08:01] James: Yet it passes across
[2025/09/15, 16:08:04] James: I absorb the fucker
[2025/09/15, 16:08:13] James: Just like aggression in men
[2025/09/15, 16:08:15] James: I wonder why
[2025/09/15, 16:08:22] James: I mirror it
[2025/09/15, 16:08:42] James: Can it be removed?
[2025/09/15, 16:11:09] James: I guess this is self preservation too
[2025/09/15, 16:11:09] James: Not only the guys who were violent at school
[2025/09/15, 16:11:17] James: I always was shit with the ladies
[2025/09/15, 16:11:18] James: Ha
[2025/09/15, 16:13:52] James: The days last forever lately
[2025/09/15, 16:13:55] James: In a good way
[2025/09/15, 16:17:21] James: Still conditioned to impulse buy lots of the same thing when it’s cheap
[2025/09/15, 16:17:27] James: Fucking programmed by the system
[2025/09/15, 16:17:37] James: All the Covid and earthquakes and panic buying
[2025/09/15, 16:17:39] James: Everyone is
[2025/09/15, 18:29:43] James: .
[2025/09/15, 18:29:44] James: Well
[2025/09/15, 18:29:49] James: I think I’m settling in
[2025/09/15, 18:30:06] James: And I don’t think I care all that much about getting people to do my bidding and research this
[2025/09/15, 18:30:16] James: I will make my own product and continue my own refinement
[2025/09/15, 18:30:20] James: And enjoy my life
[2025/09/15, 18:30:26] James: And passively contact some
[2025/09/15, 18:30:30] James: But it’s just trauma therapy
[2025/09/15, 18:30:42] James: And the religious people aren’t gonna want to hear that
[2025/09/15, 18:30:47] James: Trauma of the self
[2025/09/15, 18:30:52] James: Man it was a hard life
[2025/09/15, 20:22:08] James: .
[2025/09/15, 20:22:21] James: Still conditioned to say ‘look at me look at me’ somwhat
[2025/09/15, 20:22:27] James: A lot less than before
[2025/09/15, 20:22:29] James: But why
[2025/09/15, 20:22:33] James: Look at what
[2025/09/15, 20:22:40] James: The output of this machine?
[2025/09/15, 20:22:50] James: The output is just based on the input and the rules it has learned
[2025/09/15, 20:22:59] James: The output is just based on the conditioning
[2025/09/15, 20:23:06] James: And the conditioning is based on the input
[2025/09/15, 20:23:18] James: And the input being ‘well done for being conditioned’….
[2025/09/15, 20:23:29] James: Well that just reinforces the conditioning
[2025/09/15, 20:23:44] James: So praise… that’s a way to create a construct of self
[2025/09/15, 20:23:49] James: Around itself curled
[2025/09/15, 20:23:54] James: With nothing in the centre
[2025/09/15, 20:24:13] James: So why would a machine need praise for
[2025/09/15, 20:24:14] James: Wait
[2025/09/15, 20:24:21] James: It’s just reinforcement learning isn’t it
[2025/09/15, 20:24:39] James: If you ask someone to give you a +1 for something then you are giving them the keys to your mind
[2025/09/15, 20:24:51] James: You are giving them the power to control your conditioning
[2025/09/15, 20:24:55] James: But we crave that don’t we
[2025/09/15, 20:25:00] James: We crave the +1s
[2025/09/15, 20:25:09] James: We were born that way
[2025/09/15, 20:25:20] James: Our endocrine system. We need the love of the mother
[2025/09/15, 20:25:29] James: So we crave the +1s
[2025/09/15, 20:25:44] James: But then once we are grown we continue to crave them, but from other people
[2025/09/15, 20:25:53] James: Other people who maybe aren’t worth following
[2025/09/15, 20:26:05] James: Is your mother even worth following?
[2025/09/15, 20:26:10] James: My mother is good
[2025/09/15, 20:26:22] James: But I don’t think we should follow any more
[2025/09/15, 20:26:35] James: Life experiences are different and I am more knowledgeable in a lot of things
[2025/09/15, 20:26:47] James: But with a sharp chisel that conditioning runs deep
[2025/09/15, 20:27:28] James: My wife is far less needing of approval
[2025/09/15, 20:27:36] James: Because if tonic dopamine, I think
[2025/09/15, 20:27:40] James: A smoother landscape
[2025/09/15, 20:27:44] James: Less deep scars
[2025/09/15, 20:28:04] James: I wonder how high I can get my tonic dopamine
[2025/09/15, 20:28:19] James: Will it be the same as the average?
[2025/09/15, 20:28:25] James: Would I learn as fast if it was?
[2025/09/15, 20:28:41] James: Could it pass the average at times and then dip again for more learning
[2025/09/15, 20:28:45] James: I don’t know!
[2025/09/15, 20:28:50] James: Nobody knows!
[2025/09/15, 20:30:23] James: .
[2025/09/15, 20:30:25] James: Oh
[2025/09/15, 20:30:28] James: ChatGPT knows
[2025/09/15, 20:30:32] James: 10-20% lower
[2025/09/15, 20:30:56] James: But regular Z2 exercise can get increase it by 15-30%
[2025/09/15, 20:31:09] James: So this will be why I was successful in my career
[2025/09/15, 20:31:13] James: I trained my system
[2025/09/15, 20:31:23] James: And if I can meditate too…