rsd

Rsd was probably the most painful part of adhd, especially when combined with high levels of motivation and monotropic thinking. Given the impact of aripirprazole I have come to believe that rsd is a purely biological thing which extends beyond people and to belongings, ideas, anything.

Rsd is what the buddha referred to when he talked about craving and suffering.

In a nutshell, it’s that stomach lurch certainty that you’re going to lose everything; that snake in the bushes. But it’s unprompted and near-constant.

So imagine you’re dealing with a loved one and you get lurches of certainty they’re going to leave you. You’re looking at your bank account and are certain it’s almost empty even though it’s not. The life you’ve built is crumbling, but it’s a glorious day.

That’s rsd, for me. All the downstream impacts of this - the questioning of your personage, your morality, the cognitive dissonance.

And I think it’s caused by spikes or dropouts in dopamine. I think what’s happening is your endocrine system is redlining in the micro, your amygdala is registering it and putting you into fight or flight, but your conscious mind never knows.

Over time, the pain of maintaining relationships often proves too much and people with adhd cut themselves off. But if it is a purely chemical thing that can be medicated with a cheap generic drug, are we not obliged to do so?

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