[2025/06/04, 2:18:01] James: /////

[2025/06/04, 2:18:04] James: Fuuuuuuuuuck

[2025/06/04, 2:18:08] James: Faaaaaaaaaaaack

[2025/06/04, 2:18:14] James: Deep breaths man.

[2025/06/04, 2:18:16] James: Ok.

[2025/06/04, 2:18:20] James: Email sent

[2025/06/04, 2:18:23] James: Whew

[2025/06/04, 2:18:26] James: Dragon.

[2025/06/04, 2:18:33] James: Slayed.

[2025/06/04, 2:18:34] James: Wow

[2025/06/04, 2:18:38] James: Fuck me.

[2025/06/04, 2:19:22] James: Ok

[2025/06/04, 2:19:24] James: Wow.

[2025/06/04, 2:19:25] James: That was

[2025/06/04, 2:19:30] James: Exasperation

[2025/06/04, 2:19:41] James: Dialled to 300

[2025/06/04, 2:19:47] James: Because of the processing

[2025/06/04, 2:19:51] James: From this drug

[2025/06/04, 2:19:53] James: I think

[2025/06/04, 2:19:54] James: Wow

[2025/06/04, 2:20:07] James: Calming down but HR hit 180.

[2025/06/04, 2:20:44] James: Doesn’t sound good I know but I think what is happening is this fucking processing and I think something was in the way and I needed to get it out of the way and now that I am verbalising this it’s all kind of coming out

[2025/06/04, 2:20:59] James: Wow this is weird and FUCK I need to talk to them

[2025/06/04, 2:21:06] James: Anyway

[2025/06/04, 2:21:11] James: Whew

[2025/06/04, 2:21:14] James: Use the adrenaline

[2025/06/04, 2:21:17] James: Use the fear

[2025/06/04, 2:21:23] James: This is what I did my entire life

[2025/06/04, 2:21:34] James: But it is cranked up right now.

[2025/06/04, 2:21:36] James: Fuck me.

[2025/06/04, 2:21:39] James: 2am on the dot.

[2025/06/04, 2:21:44] James: Sweaty palms.

[2025/06/04, 2:21:48] James: There’s the tiger.

[2025/06/04, 2:22:12] James: And I have the solution. The email address I saw yesterday. And I can’t go back to sleep until it’s done

[2025/06/04, 2:32:01] James: So here I am

[2025/06/04, 2:32:11] James: Messaging myself from phone to limit output speed

[2025/06/04, 2:32:22] James: And then updating to site

[2025/06/04, 2:32:28] James: If this doesn’t work I will find another way

[2025/06/04, 2:32:52] James: If you guys don’t listen (and I really think you want to) then I will find others

[2025/06/04, 2:32:58] James: I don’t particularly WANT

[2025/06/04, 2:33:01] James: To talk to you

.... bouncing off the walls here. Playing the 'brain chemistry' card for all these actions

[2025/06/04, 4:12:27] James: Seems like through having these documents open I have a receptacle growing for various topics which enables me to multi thread

[2025/06/04, 4:12:35] James: This is how I recruited

[2025/06/04, 4:13:08] James: Just email threads. That’s all. Conversation view. No wonder I hated it. My brain is one thread, not conversation.

[2025/06/04, 4:13:35] James: Never sure where to put these pieces though so will just stick them at the top of whatever big dump curls its way out.

[2025/06/04, 4:14:41] James: Haha

[2025/06/04, 4:15:05] James: After that little spat where I was told how many people I’d offend if I even jokingly said I’d solved ADHD

[2025/06/04, 4:15:10] James: Well…

[2025/06/04, 4:15:23] James: It’s been 2 weeks now…

[2025/06/04, 4:15:39] James: Don’t get ahead of yourself James. But fuck if you haven’t solved yours.

[2025/06/04, 7:40:29] James: Still unzipping and will compile later I think. Just get shit out.

[2025/06/04, 7:41:02] James: Maybe talk bothers me and conversation bothers normal people.

[2025/06/04, 7:53:01] James: So if you’re told other people are all unique.

[2025/06/04, 7:53:06] James: And there’s nothing special about you.

[2025/06/04, 7:53:09] James: And you’re autistic

[2025/06/04, 7:53:15] James: And take it literally…..

[2025/06/04, 7:53:27] James: So many realisations.