emotions

I have come to think of us as having two emotional landscapes: the neuronal one and the hormonal one. 

The neurones are where asd is at play and the hormones are where adhd lives. Neuronal emotion is intent and hormonal emotion is impulse. Neuronal is order and hormonal is chaos.

Because of intermittent dopamine signalling I think there is an unconscious hormonal dropout or ‘blip’ which keeps me in fight or flight.

Because of the skipped beat, the endocrine system stops juicing for a second but the brain carries on, resulting in pre-conscious lurches of the stomach. Like a sock on a bicycle wheel. Science.

It can also mean that emotions carry over in a strange way; sometimes resonating and amplifying and sometimes dampening and quieting. For example if your electric-emotion is + and juice emotion is + then you can end up with a +2, or if your electric emotion is + and juice emotion is - then you can end up with a 0 despite living your dream life.

This is part of evolution; it’s what keeps us dancing unpredictably instead of just rubbing sticks together in caves. 

It can be very unpleasant for the individual, but we all have random emotions. It's not a personal failing.

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