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[2025/08/06, 10:15:59] James: This increase valproate seems to have made me quite severely depressed

[2025/08/06, 10:16:06] James: I don’t feel joy

[2025/08/06, 10:16:15] James: I’m looking at my kids and feel nothing

[2025/08/06, 10:16:24] James: Just a week ago I felt like life was new and worth living

[2025/08/06, 10:16:50] James: I see no point in continuing

[2025/08/06, 10:17:02] James: I hate this so much

[2025/08/06, 10:17:13] James: The doctor will probably only allow one change in medication at a time

[2025/08/06, 10:17:19] James: And I need to get this valproate lower

[2025/08/06, 10:17:26] James: I thought it would be ok but it is not

[2025/08/06, 11:50:57] James: .

[2025/08/06, 11:51:27] James: So spoke with my wife and she agrees

[2025/08/06, 11:51:38] James: Valproate is reminiscent of when I was drinking

[2025/08/06, 11:51:48] James: It is making me depressed and have explosive anger

[2025/08/06, 11:51:59] James: Removing my self control and ability to regulate

[2025/08/06, 11:52:18] James: I am going to stop and try guanfacine again because that worked for me and is more regulatory

[2025/08/06, 11:53:16] James: I am tired of these doctors and their titration

[2025/08/06, 11:53:26] James: The problem with aripiprazole was partly because the titration was too slow

[2025/08/06, 11:53:39] James: And I don’t see much point in taking my time stopping valproate

[2025/08/06, 11:53:56] James: 600mg which is where my serum levels probably sit would be equivalent of like 3 drinks a day

[2025/08/06, 11:53:59] James: I …

[2025/08/06, 11:54:03] James: 3 drinks was nothing

[2025/08/06, 11:54:43] James: And I stopped aripiprazole cold turkey

[2025/08/06, 11:54:56] James: Which should be impossible by all accounts

[2025/08/06, 11:55:07] James: So I can stop this

[2025/08/06, 11:55:22] James: I guess the only concern is seizures

[2025/08/06, 11:55:31] James: But we will see on that front

[2025/08/06, 11:55:39] James: I have no idea what my brain is

[2025/08/06, 11:55:48] James: But it obviously doesn’t fit into any of the boxes

[2025/08/06, 12:35:01] James: .

[2025/08/06, 12:35:18] James: Yeah so as the days go on I settle down. In the mornings I am prone to outbursts or suicidality.

[2025/08/06, 12:35:28] James: I am taking valproate at night. The cycle is pretty obvious.

[2025/08/06, 12:35:39] James: It’s very similar to alcohol but without the intoxication

[2025/08/06, 12:35:49] James: I had always assumed it was the intoxication making me aggressive

[2025/08/06, 12:36:05] James: But it might have been the increased gaba making me less restrained

[2025/08/06, 12:36:20] James: And maybe autistic aggression whatever the fuck that is.

[2025/08/06, 12:36:29] James: Time to ask dr gpt