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[2025/08/27, 7:13:39] James: Well I’m glad I went back to sleep then

[2025/08/27, 7:13:56] James: I had… 7.5 hours maybe and the crows were crowing

[2025/08/27, 7:14:06] James: I love waking up early but my dvar felt a bit high

[2025/08/27, 7:14:23] James: Stayed in bed and drifted off for another 2.5 hours and feel far more mentally recovered

[2025/08/27, 7:14:27] James: But physically tired

[2025/08/27, 7:14:36] James: I really do need to view my brain like a muscle

[2025/08/27, 7:14:44] James: Figure out what makes it recover and what is training

[2025/08/27, 7:14:49] James: And not overdo the training

[2025/08/27, 7:15:03] James: So yesterday was quite intense because I went into meditation with a high tda

[2025/08/27, 7:15:13] James: Even if it was only short, it was optimised

[2025/08/27, 7:15:34] James: And I guess I am quite physically tired from the training

[2025/08/27, 7:15:42] James: Anyway all good - this is learning how to recover

[2025/08/27, 7:15:49] James: And respecting my brain for the first time ever

[2025/08/27, 7:16:03] James: So I avoid the ‘dark night’ that all the Buddhist literature talks about

[2025/08/27, 7:16:10] James: Or avoid it getting bad

[2025/08/27, 9:34:28] James: .

[2025/08/27, 9:34:34] James: Wow I’m pretty tired still

[2025/08/27, 9:34:46] James: 10 hours sleep and I need a nap 2.5 hours after waking up

[2025/08/27, 9:34:58] James: Still recovering but yesterday must have been a pretty hard training day

[2025/08/27, 9:35:05] James: Starting at the beginning

[2025/08/27, 9:35:14] James: Like physical rehabilitation

[2025/08/27, 9:35:17] James: For the brain

[2025/08/27, 9:38:57] James: Previously I would have just pushed through all this

[2025/08/27, 9:39:01] James: Ignored the need

[2025/08/27, 9:59:56] James: .

[2025/08/27, 10:00:12] James: Maybe not at full nap mode but today is definitely a day for taking it easy

[2025/08/27, 10:00:45] James: Maybe play some computer games

[2025/08/27, 10:01:18] James: Relatively low stimulation. Just started Metaphor Refantazio so I will try it on the handheld; the big screen tires me out

[2025/08/27, 10:16:30] James: Yeah much nicer on handheld but I don’t think I can handle more than 30 min in a session yet

[2025/08/27, 10:16:54] James: Or rather: I could, but it would spike dvar. I’ll follow up with knives.

[2025/08/27, 16:11:38] James: .

[2025/08/27, 16:11:42] James: Lovely rainy day

[2025/08/27, 16:11:46] James: Coffee on the balcony

[2025/08/27, 16:11:52] James: Not trying to distract

[2025/08/27, 16:11:56] James: Just be in the moment

[2025/08/27, 16:12:00] James: Tiredness and all

[2025/08/27, 17:12:49] James: .

[2025/08/27, 17:12:56] James: Man… I’m lucky to still be alive