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[2025/09/12, 3:45:56] James: Dreams where I had these fake NFC teeth all falling out

[2025/09/12, 3:46:01] James: 3 of them

[2025/09/12, 3:46:26] James: The dentists put them in and they were activating when I went near things without me knowing

[2025/09/12, 3:46:31] James: Some kind of spy program

[2025/09/12, 3:46:48] James: Wife was asking if I was ok

[2025/09/12, 3:46:51] James: And I was fine

[2025/09/12, 3:46:57] James: My teeth were fine underneath

[2025/09/12, 3:47:10] James: But these fake teeth that were activating near doors were falling out

[2025/09/12, 3:47:24] James: And I nearly went back to the same dentist

[2025/09/12, 3:47:35] James: But realised I didn’t need them and it would just happen again

[2025/09/12, 3:47:56] James: Part of some clandestine spy program and lots of other people had them in too, but nobody knew

[2025/09/12, 3:48:04] James: Obviously conditioning from school

[2025/09/12, 3:48:14] James: What I’ve been working on these last couple of days

[2025/09/12, 3:48:38] James: The programmed behaviour that activates in certain circumstances without my approval

[2025/09/12, 3:48:50] James: So cool how this just lines up and comes out in the dreams

[2025/09/12, 8:04:05] James: .

[2025/09/12, 8:54:28] James: (Cycling)

[2025/09/12, 8:54:31] James: Excited today

[2025/09/12, 8:54:33] James: Super positive

[2025/09/12, 8:54:36] James: Want to share

[2025/09/12, 8:54:50] James: I need to brush up the working hypothesis with new knowledge

[2025/09/12, 12:46:26] James: .

[2025/09/12, 12:46:30] James: Man it’s like clockwork

[2025/09/12, 12:46:33] James: Ever faster

[2025/09/12, 12:46:35] James: The cycle

[2025/09/12, 12:46:43] James: Was buzzing after the ride and used the energy

[2025/09/12, 12:46:58] James: Then it slipped and normality while driving to town with my wife for a little shopping

[2025/09/12, 12:47:10] James: Over lunch I could feel the dvar ramping up a little bit

[2025/09/12, 12:47:23] James: And then a bit of anxiety and mini dark night on the drive back

[2025/09/12, 12:47:27] James: But not reactive to it

[2025/09/12, 12:47:35] James: It is there but it is not me

[2025/09/12, 12:47:57] James: And here I am waiting in the car, hoping I can get back in time to grab this dark night and pull whatever it is to the surface for export

[2025/09/12, 12:48:02] James: This process is only getting faster

[2025/09/12, 12:48:09] James: After the awakening it was a blur

[2025/09/12, 12:48:18] James: But these last 2-3 weeks it’s been once every day or 2

[2025/09/12, 12:48:24] James: And now it’s speeding up

[2025/09/12, 12:48:29] James: Less conditioning

[2025/09/12, 12:48:32] James: Losing the fetters

[2025/09/12, 12:48:35] James: The bonds

[2025/09/12, 12:56:32] James: .

[2025/09/12, 12:56:39] James: I was just talking to my wife about arahants

[2025/09/12, 12:56:52] James: How they are incredibly brave and active because of the lack of fear brought about by a self

[2025/09/12, 12:57:06] James: How they brought about the end of the war in Vietnam

[2025/09/12, 12:57:13] James: I found myself crying with compassion and empathy

[2025/09/12, 12:57:17] James: Because this energy

[2025/09/12, 12:57:19] James: It is free

[2025/09/12, 12:57:22] James: And it is in me

[2025/09/12, 12:57:34] James: And it no longer needs to be bound to such small things as anger or greed

[2025/09/12, 12:57:37] James: It can just live

[2025/09/12, 12:57:42] James: And it can bring about change

[2025/09/12, 12:57:46] James: Without self interest

[2025/09/12, 12:57:51] James: It’s fucking insane

[2025/09/12, 12:57:56] James: Crying with compassion

[2025/09/12, 12:57:57] James: Man

[2025/09/12, 12:58:04] James: This is such a change

[2025/09/12, 12:58:09] James: I can’t describe

[2025/09/12, 12:58:14] James: Yet I am still the same man

[2025/09/12, 12:58:18] James: Just different

[2025/09/12, 12:58:22] James: Unleashed

[2025/09/12, 12:58:35] James: One can only wonder what it’s like to remove the remaining fetters

[2025/09/12, 13:40:45] James: .

[2025/09/12, 13:40:47] James: I wonder…

[2025/09/12, 13:41:00] James: Does all the meditation traumatise people to the point where they experience explosive nibbana?