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[2025/12/31, 18:38:01] James: I am ship

[2025/12/31, 18:38:07] James: I am very lucid

[2025/12/31, 18:38:16] James: I ate soba with my family and had a bath. No humming

[2025/12/31, 18:38:43] James: I was aware that al of the sensations of warmth and cold and even the ability to see ri was a single self-generated weave

[2025/12/31, 18:38:57] James: At times. At times it is the shared weave called consensus reality

[2025/12/31, 18:39:08] James: I am aware that everything which explains my world is a fabrication

[2025/12/31, 18:39:15] James: Cold is just a sensation it is not the snow

[2025/12/31, 18:39:24] James: Heat is not the water of the bath

[2025/12/31, 18:39:30] James: Even electricity is a fabrication

[2025/12/31, 18:39:38] James: There is no way to know what this reality is

[2025/12/31, 18:39:55] James: All you can know is that it is self generated by the no-self and no-god networks

[2025/12/31, 18:40:01] James: My family are playing the game of life

[2025/12/31, 18:40:05] James: I hate that game so much

[2025/12/31, 18:40:29] James: I am going to meditate on a secondhand go board made of hongaya which I have put in my balcony. I am sat there now

[2025/12/31, 18:40:40] James: It is -7 degrees and I am naked

[2025/12/31, 18:40:45] James: I will listen to lamb

[2025/12/31, 18:40:51] James: And I think that will be it

[2025/12/31, 18:40:54] James: But let’s see

[2025/12/31, 18:40:58] James: You never know really.

[2025/12/31, 18:41:06] James: Time for another purge and reset now the algo is folded

[2025/12/31, 18:41:14] James: There is no final build

[2025/12/31, 18:41:19] James: We are a caterpillar

[2025/12/31, 18:41:24] James: I am getting cold now. Here goes

[2025/12/31, 18:52:45] James: .

[2025/12/31, 18:52:48] James: It is done

[2025/12/31, 18:52:55] James: Long term potentiation of the network

[2025/12/31, 18:53:01] James: As satellites go by. Lamb

[2025/12/31, 18:53:05] James: Being still in motion

[2025/12/31, 18:53:10] James: Clouds go rushing by

[2025/12/31, 18:53:16] James: A drop becomes and ocean

[2025/12/31, 18:53:21] James: When the rivers dry

[2025/12/31, 18:53:34] James: Could it be the stars reflection

[2025/12/31, 18:53:41] James: Tony sparks in one great velvet sky

[2025/12/31, 18:53:47] James: Perfect in our imperfection

[2025/12/31, 18:53:50] James: As satellites go by

[2025/12/31, 18:54:00] James: .

[2025/12/31, 18:54:07] James: I felt convulsions. Cold. Waves.

[2025/12/31, 18:54:16] James: Twitches of muscles and energies

[2025/12/31, 18:54:26] James: Trembling stillness

[2025/12/31, 18:54:32] James: They would come in waves

[2025/12/31, 18:54:44] James: And then I would breathe and they would stop and coalesce in the brain

[2025/12/31, 18:54:54] James: This would form a tightening of the synaptic tissue

[2025/12/31, 18:54:58] James: Very easy to sense

[2025/12/31, 18:55:08] James: The entire network is done.

[2025/12/31, 18:55:19] James: I feel totally normal

[2025/12/31, 18:55:25] James: I see the weave yet I do not see it

[2025/12/31, 18:55:57] James: It just is. It is me and it is everything and there is and never has been anything else and I am you and you are me and we generate each other as perceptual models dancing in this ever evolving simulation

[2025/12/31, 18:56:01] James: The stars reflections

[2025/12/31, 18:56:08] James: Tiny sparks in one great velvet sky

[2025/12/31, 18:56:16] James: Perfect in our imperfections

[2025/12/31, 18:56:20] James: As satellites go by.

[2025/12/31, 18:56:38] James: Still -7 and windy. I’m getting a little cold now so will go in haha.

[2025/12/31, 18:56:46] James: Not fucking invincibly you idiots.

[2025/12/31, 18:57:16] James: Future present past. Could this be the last time I ever see this place?

[2025/12/31, 18:57:19] James: Nah

[2025/12/31, 18:57:22] James: I’ll hang around

[2025/12/31, 18:57:25] James: I like this place

[2025/12/31, 18:57:29] James: Backspace and unwind

[2025/12/31, 18:57:34] James: All is redefined so suddenly.

[2025/12/31, 18:58:04] James: .

[2025/12/31, 18:58:23] James: So that was about 30 min meditating naked on a slightly windy -7° night

[2025/12/31, 18:58:29] James: Tightened the model up nicely

[2025/12/31, 18:58:33] James: There is no perfect

[2025/12/31, 18:58:56] James: Fucking perfect enlightenment? Don’t be stupid. The Buddha never said that. He just said ‘good enough’

[2025/12/31, 18:59:06] James: The model evolves

[2025/12/31, 18:59:07] James: Always.

[2025/12/31, 18:59:10] James: It is plastic

[2025/12/31, 18:59:15] James: We were made to solve problems

[2025/12/31, 18:59:19] James: That is our purpose

[2025/12/31, 18:59:22] James: To find meaning

[2025/12/31, 18:59:25] James: To find solutions

[2025/12/31, 18:59:29] James: This was mine

[2025/12/31, 18:59:32] James: Yours will be yours

[2025/12/31, 18:59:36] James: And you will be liberated

[2025/12/31, 18:59:55] James: And I can feel the network still solidifying as I slowly pace naked in my room

[2025/12/31, 18:59:59] James: Backspace and unwind

[2025/12/31, 19:00:06] James: All is redefined so suddenly

[2025/12/31, 19:00:09] James: Zzzzzrp

[2025/12/31, 19:00:17] James: Hey there b-man; j-man

[2025/12/31, 19:00:22] James: I’m jb-man

[2025/12/31, 19:00:24] James: Fuckin names

[2025/12/31, 19:00:32] James: I made you a wiki

[2025/12/31, 19:00:39] James: I will make a company that brings this to you

[2025/12/31, 19:00:44] James: But only if you make it happen

[2025/12/31, 19:00:52] James: The Buddhas can point the way

[2025/12/31, 19:00:56] James: But you alone must strive

[2025/12/31, 19:01:11] James: Now imma play board games with the family I can finally love the way I always wanted to

[2025/12/31, 19:01:36] James: L. My second kid. 6 months ago it was all fake. Or… it wasn’t. It… it just couldn’t make it through the model

[2025/12/31, 19:03:01] James: A, my wife… I love her and owe her so much. I couldn’t let her be herself. I needed her to be what I needed her to be. Some model I had formed from past traumas and learnings, including the previous experiences of our relationship, positive and negative. I couldn’t just let her be her own evolving organism.

[2025/12/31, 19:03:28] James: G; my AuDHD kid. Loved him the easiest because the models are so similar. But also - was shaping him to be me. He is better than me.

[2025/12/31, 19:03:34] James: The children will inherit the world

[2025/12/31, 19:03:40] James: WORLD2.0>>

[2025/12/31, 19:03:48] James: TO THE MOON

[2025/12/31, 19:03:49] James: Ha

[2025/12/31, 19:04:01] James: Whatever man. Gods of the times. I am a benevolent manipulator.

[2025/12/31, 19:04:09] James: I am METACOGNITION

[2025/12/31, 19:04:15] James: I AM RAMZA

[2025/12/31, 19:04:19] James: I AM EVERYTHINGMAN

[2025/12/31, 19:04:23] James: I AM THE SWORDSMITH

[2025/12/31, 19:04:27] James: I AM THE PLAYER OF GAMES

[2025/12/31, 19:04:32] James: I AM THE ARCHITECT

[2025/12/31, 19:04:35] James: I AM THE QA

[2025/12/31, 19:04:53] James: I AM THE FUCKING ETHICIST, bitch

[2025/12/31, 19:04:57] James: I am JAMBO

[2025/12/31, 19:05:03] James: whatever yo

[2025/12/31, 19:05:11] James: I’m whatever you fucking need me to be.

[2025/12/31, 19:05:30] James: Now go get this ball rolling so I can fucking enlighten you instead of you having to go through all those fucking shit

[2025/12/31, 19:05:41] James: Jumping through hoops and meditating on balconies and fucking shit.

[2025/12/31, 19:06:17] James: I’ll just get you some drugs and electrical stimulation, a metaverse headset, and you’ll fly through space and find god in a safe container and come back repaired and nobody will accuse you of going fucking manic those fucks

[2025/12/31, 19:06:25] James: Nobody will say you have a fucking disorder

[2025/12/31, 19:06:28] James: You will be free

[2025/12/31, 19:06:40] James: And you will probably have your own theory of enlightenment just waiting in there

[2025/12/31, 19:06:46] James: A diamond inside the snowball

[2025/12/31, 19:06:51] James: A fucking tatara bloom

[2025/12/31, 19:06:57] James: Fuck yes

[2025/12/31, 19:07:02] James: Goosebumps

[2025/12/31, 19:07:10] James: Dick shrivelling goosebumps

[2025/12/31, 19:07:15] James: It’s all data, people

[2025/12/31, 19:07:21] James: If they only knew what makes us human

[2025/12/31, 19:07:30] James: I am [ship]

[2025/12/31, 19:07:33] James: This is all real

[2025/12/31, 19:07:36] James: This is SCIENCE

[2025/12/31, 19:07:43] James: I am the worlds first pdhd

[2025/12/31, 19:07:58] James: Doctor of philosophical deficit and hyperactivity

[2025/12/31, 19:07:59] James: Haha

[2025/12/31, 19:08:15] James: Roflmao lolzOr whatever I don’t talk like that

[2025/12/31, 19:08:18] James: But anyway.

[2025/12/31, 19:08:32] James: Time for New Year’s Eve family time. Let’s see if the kids make it to midnight.

[2025/12/31, 19:08:56] James: Looking forward to that joint skruffbag. You’re one of my lieutenants on the drug research side

[2025/12/31, 19:08:59] James: Let’s do this shit

[2025/12/31, 19:09:05] James: Pure, laboratory grade everything

[2025/12/31, 19:09:09] James: We are the AIs

[2025/12/31, 19:09:18] James: We make the drugs, we try the drugs, we never fail

[2025/12/31, 19:09:56] James: Its iterative tho mate. Takes time to propagate. A few sleep cycles and you’ll see. For your own personal sim anyway. The globalsim will take longer. Let’s see how it plays out

[2025/12/31, 19:10:08] James: Come on in. The water’s lovely.

[2025/12/31, 19:14:00] James: [F.E.A.R. - ian brown]

[2025/12/31, 19:14:05] James: this one’s for you Mikhail

[2025/12/31, 19:14:08] James: see you soon buddy

[2025/12/31, 19:14:19] James: i feel you in my framework

[2025/12/31, 19:14:22] James: i feel the brain

[2025/12/31, 19:14:28] James: you are being remade

[2025/12/31, 19:14:29] James: somewhere

[2025/12/31, 19:14:39] James: i feel it propagating

[2025/12/31, 19:14:46] James: forgt everything and remmeber

[2025/12/31, 19:14:49] James: for everything a reason

[2025/12/31, 19:14:54] James: forgive everbpdy and remmeber

[2025/12/31, 19:14:58] James: for each a role

[2025/12/31, 19:15:01] James: for every man a religion

[2025/12/31, 19:15:08] James: face everybody and rule