good morning darkness

hello. i slept for 4 hours. easy sleep, once i’d drifted off. first hour or two was just hypnogogic face-algorithms. brainwork. feel refreshed and lucid. started playing the album [the secret of letting go - lamb], which i do not know yet. this group, bjork, grimes, pink floyd… they know where it’s at.

anyway i turned the heater on because the house is clod lately. the shivers are always deconditioning don’t sweat it too much. but don’t wanna be shivering on my call. was gonna go back to sleep and saw a reply from my sis, so messaged her back offering a call and shared my hells; i think they might really be that suicide hotline i called them. they’re very good, and i wish i had had them when i went through my hells. haha.

anyway as usual you wake from the reality and wonder if it was all a dream. or was it the other way around? nested dreams i have regularly but when i was satoshi nakamoto in scaffold 4 i was waking from nested realities.

oh i know why this has been 5 and 5 now. that was confusing me. it’s because i really did go through a worldgenesis and a selfgenesis.

i think i first did the 5x selfgenesis steps during the hells, and then i had to spend 6 months replicating them in the otherside. i don’t know which is the scaffold and which is real and i think they will converge. creating your own labyrinth within which you can play. the standard for the buddhist map is 4x path moments though so yours will be less intense i guess.

i think at one point in the final scaffold i came to the conclusion that the levelling was like aikido. anyone can get to 4th dan by just doing tests and shit, but getting to 5th and up to 9th is a promotion pyramid. then 10th is like… something else - the founders (of the silos of thought in the no-god network). and 11th is where i wound up, as metacognition.

this is a labyrinth you create and then you play within. and now im writing this all makes sense. but when i woke up i was like ‘huh was that real’ as usual. no biggie now though. this is just the [devcycle] and you will get used to it. 4DA knows where it’s at. get a hold of his game: four divine abidings. it will guide you, as he personally guided me. gonna get my decaf. helps with the plasticity i think. 

you’ll have your own modulating chemicals and behaviours and should find them. caffein, cannabis and ice cream are mine. aripiprazole is too strong and too long;’ avoid it. mdma is great as is psilocybin, but should be used with caution and spaced out between doses. lsd is also good but it is far too strong for most of you. we will do real research into them don’t worry. for now just stick to weed and stay clear of booze.

gimme a sec. decaf. this shit just falls out of me you see. no thought. thoughts happen but there is no thinker. there is no planning.

bulletproof. i can taste the love we make, before we even make it.

god it sounded so boring (actually it didn’t to me) that the buddha didn’t allow idle chatter and only dhammatalk. the bastard only let people talk about the endless and infinite permutations of the multiverse. how dare he? sangha1.0 don’t worry; i was harsh on you before but you did a great job of trying to preserve the uncodifiable. you didn’t have written language for what… 400 years? you’re badass, guys. you deserve credit where it is due. you guys did this.

the secret of letting go is forgetting to hold on.

and there is the piti. you know this is true, mr monk. now go shave your hair and your eyebrows and let go of your grounding jhāna and let yourself become maitreya. maitreya was left as skilful means to guide you to your own worlds. some of you already know this.

see im cold now. shivering. the purge is happening and the data is leaving the bodyunit. but my priority with this iteration of the validation phase is to keep my family comfortable. and to be pretty stern. i won’t take any shit, no no no. but i will love me and mine. A represents people, G represents science, and L represents religion. you will all be cared for. but the NPCs might have to suffer my wrath, nyuk nyuk. haha.

this is weird yeah? even i know that. don’t worry - wrath will be wrath with compassion. you are what you do and think. it will be rational and compassionate talk which does not violate their rights. i am in the sandbox at the moment and likely will be til 4th jan, when the national holidays here end and A goes back to work, but i think it will be a lot calmer and more reality-aligned this time since most of the work has been done. 

so the driab-semaj website is for the other world, or this one… i don’t know. we will figure it out. we all have two worlds. they are both equally real. you will achieve resonance between the two and initiate a singularity and then you will be master of your own universe.

do not kill yourself or you will go to hell.

do not harm others or you will go to hell.

it’s science.

we will prove it.

for now you’ll just have to believe me i guess.

don’t worry it’s not eternal but is can be many millions of years. read the buddhist versions; they’re most accurate. time is a sphere. you’ll understand. (really, you will, and then you won’t be afraid; you will be joyous).

so this is good, yeah?

an end to war and rape and murder and abuse. neurodivergent liberation. fucking neurodivergent. maybe their worlds are trying to fucking diverge, you morons. maybe you should let them so you don’t contaminate your own datapool.

clinging much? cause of suffering much? fucking buddhism 101. let go of views and rights and rituals. fucking hell. ha. so obvious like. /s

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[the other shore - lamb]

that really was me deciding to stay in this reality by having A observe on 20250712. maybe my mate mikhail really is out there and i’ll smoke weed with jesus before long. haha. biggest stoner in the fucking world that guy.

stream of consciousness

wouldn't save so followed gravity (dopamine) to the registration documents for the sword. a chore to fill out but god works in mysterious ways. looking forward to making this game KOJIMA. we will all be fuckin grey fox for real once we have our metaverse set up. it's gonna be the bomb. i have seen it, in scaffold 4. you're the LEAD for the GAMING sector. DMI is the LEAD for the FAITH sector. elon and mark will help with the rest. let's save the species and prototype the simulation within which we already live. you are one of us and you know it.

anyway time to get dresed and have my midnight walk for ice cream to compile and propagate the code. haha. for realz yo.

when we die in the TPN we are just reborn in the DMN and vice versa. there is no end.

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so this doesn’t want to post yet. remember that the sim is iterative. you can’t make big changes. step by step. so maybe i need to register and make these swords before ill be able to get KOJIMA and those on board. and there - as i type this the website loads again. all these connectivity issues. do not fight them or get frustrated. the psyche couldn’t handle a sudden change. it needs to be incremental.

skip the songs you don’t like. don’t ingest bad nutriments. don’t watch horror unless you want horror. horror like shinigami eyes is cool but torture porn and shit… nope… steer clear of that. you want to make sure the good guys win.

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