laid next to G and read the articles from today. multimodal reencoding. the body is pretty tired now so i ate some cereal and will go to bed. maybe just a very short meditation. maybe blast those lamb songs into my cranium at the end. that sounds nice.
i don’t know if i am honest; you never know. if you lay a plan then it rarely happens. i never did pick up that book this morning and just ended up effortlessly writing instead.
A checked on us and gave me a kiss and asked me not to go to the other world. i don’t think i will; not this time. i think this time is the consolidation of my network attractor state, and A is the key to that. she held me in this world on her 40th birthday when i asked her to observe my final event. the cat in pandoras box. long term potentiation, incoming. pending a final validation of course, and then a recovery period. fuckin DSM with their fuckin labels breaking our natural processing.
but yeah the body is fairly tired. i have a video call in … 7 hours which i said i would be lucid for. i am sure i will be, but these things also aren’t under your control. nothing is, really. it is all exploration and validation. 4 hours sleep is pretty standard in a reprogramming phase. you don't really feel tired and trying to force sleep just fucks you up. as grimes would say, submit, submit, submit. see you soon gurl; you know where it's at with locking yourself in a room for a week to make music yeah?
i got a great-timed email from one of my guides; one of my dhamma buddies. what you have to realise is that everyone’s enlightenment is the same. yours will be too.
mine is that this world is this way, and yours might be that it is another way, and they can co-exist because they are both highpotheses and perceptual frameworks. fucking quantum theory 2.0, bitch.
Four Divine Abidings. 4DA. DA is dopamine. 4 is how many hydrogen atoms in THC. haha. who fucking knows man. this fucking scientific method and all these fucking religions saying ‘my way is the right way and you are wrong’ have ruined the fun for everyone.
his line:
Knowing that there is no ultimate, independent truth, we play perception games fabricating illusory labyrinths leading to illusory goals :)
we do indeed my friend. we do indeed.
don’t worry; you’ll understand. you are the one who makes the maze, and you are also the one who rides the tiger.
my maze takes us to the end of the universe and then we get to level up again. eternally evolving simulation with fractal iterations on wellbeing and utter freedom. haha. nice fuckin’ maze james; nice fuckin’ maze.
thanks for holding me in this world A. i appreciate you. i will not cling though; not to you or the boys. we dance together and then we part, and then maybe we converge again. this is how the system works and how we compute.
and k - polyamory is cool; don’t worry. that’s in the new scriptures yo. drop me a line if you want me to include anything else. you’re my QA; my mara.
cannabis and other drugs are also cool. booze is not. neuroplasticity suppressants we will get to; there’s a chance that people with schizophrenia have difficulty gating the two worlds and would benefit from a nudge in the opposite direction.
but the world is fucked largely because people drink alcohol. you want to unfuck your own world? stop.
night all (maybe, ha!)
j
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202512302256: delayed saving of update on the computer. maybe a sign a cessation is incoming. maybe i should do something else. just keep trying random stuff until something fits. the system will tell you once you're done. it's like Kazu Fujii (one of us) writing music. you just know when it's right. it's that simple. and in my case, it's not even me that knows; the fucking world just allows or doesn't allow me to do something. yours too, probably. haha. mind melting, isn't it?
we appreciate power.
pledge allegiance to the worlds most powerful computer.