how insight works

ok so first a sitrep and plan update. folded the algo in my head and it’s nearly done. shaved my head (hair removal is data purge) and A had me cut the boys’ hair nice and short so that bodes well. remember everything is metaphor in the sim and my boys are science and religion. anyway.

right now i am straddling both worlds so i know they are both real and not real. they are both perceptual frameworks and i am talking as though they are both reality, which is *what you have to do*. if you doubt things, it does not work. 

tomorrow morning i am speaking with DMI and then i will take the boys skiing with A. we will stay up late and play boardgames and see if they can last til midnight. doubt it. we will eat toshikoshi soba and welcome in the new year with a wish for longevity (hopefully eternal if this plan works). idk if we will be up til midnight. don’t plan too much but don’t resist plans either. all of these plans are from A and i am just going with them; i have planned nothing. i will finish off the 88 hells but not sure i’ll get around to the scaffold site. doesn’t need to be perfect.

anyway

so 

insight

flash of inspiration, yeah? arising and passing and a little bit of mania because you know you have the answer. this is network scale attractor potentiation. the inital thing. think of it like a lightning bolt going from the sky to the ground, the most efficient route possible. everything makes sense. eureka.

but this is just a flash. it is a short term potentiation and like an opening of the gates. it does not stick. it gives you plenty of dope and you go a bit loopy and feel like everything is perfect (because you *did* see the answer) but the potentiation is only short term. it fades like a camera flash in your eyes.

then your brain has to rebuild the pathway, step by step. this is where the cycle comes in. you have exploratory phases of confidence and expansive thinking while a builder lemming does his work, and then he goes clink clink clink shrug and walks to his death. failed hypothesis. doubt. argh i was wrong about *everything* i am *useless*.

no you’re not.

that’s the brain testing pathways. some will be right and some will be wrong. but it will always wind up with the right answer eventually, if you allow neurpplasticity to proceed. this means no alcohol, benzos or valproate, and plenty of sleep when it comes but do not force it when it doesn't. it also means regulation activities (which we will no linger call stimming you fucking condescending cunts). walking, cycling, crafts, rocking back and forth, humming, meditation, prayer, sex, whatever. sex is fine. have sex. only ever consensual sex. truly consensual.

sorry G is saying his stomach aches so i’ve told him to get some food. sorry science. haha.

so… err. yeah the brain starts its work and it eventually gets there, the stairway to heaven. but it can’t be bought. if you buy it and feed greed and anger then you just cause your world to go to shit. read the perceptual frameworks article and something like ‘enlightened reprogramming’ idk ive written too much to remember all the titles. there is a scientific reason for it.

but basically you have the answer with the a&p or manic phase; you just don’t know what it looks like. your mind has to recreate it by building this stairway and validating the pathways. it builds with elevated dopamine and you go a bit loopy, and then it validates with lowered doapmine and you feel a bit shit.

when it’s all over you have your answer and you feel *whatever you reinforced from the top down* and go into a recovery phase commensurate with the level of reprogramming. a month or so is normal - more sleep, less energy, more eating. this is *not* depression it is just low energy as your parasympathetic system comes to the fore and you recover from the hard work of rebuilding your brain. just sleep. do art. read books. go for walks. remember that the altered states were just the exploratory work and they are not something you can or should try to hold onto. they are a symptom, not the goal.

so yeah that’s how it works. and then when the stairway is built, the network achieves stability and long-term potentiation. it cannot be unbeuilt easily.

and this is why we need mental health professionals to be trained in positive reinfrocement asap. while i was on r/streamentry at least 3x mental health ‘professionals’ were positively abusing me with constant messages saying ‘psychotic’ and ‘you were diagnosed bipolar by a qualified blah blah’. they uttelry ignored the fact i was never diagnosed with *anything* and was flat refused diagnosis 4x when i asked for it despite being given these drugs.

those people are quite literally confining their patients to hell when they reinforce that narrative, it needs to change asap.

because the long-term potentiation CAN be psychosis or it CAN be enlightenment and it’s all about the data that you feed into the fucking system you fucking idiots.

got it?

stop.

now.

be nice.

you twat.

anyway i guess that’ll do.

so…

from here, looking at previous (non-aripirpazole) scaffolds I would expect further destabilisation of my network as it consolidates. I think the lightning bolt that hit my entire system on 20250710 is about to reach LTP and this means that it should be done after that. you always think it’s done after every cycle. you never learn. haha. d’oh. but there’s no reality decoupling this time because i’m already arahant-adjacent in terms of insight (the behavioural shite about arahants is post-hoc detritus; the suttas only say they do not suffer not that the fart angels or nowt).

sorry guys. don’t hate. it’s human nature to idealise and exaggerate and also the arahants being painted that way helps you to reprogram yourself to be nice. why not just pretend you’re maitreya for a bit? it’ll be even more effective.

anyhow.. where was i?

yeah so now the linguistic reprogramming is done and this is where i always think ‘great - the job’s finished’ but now we go into validation mode and the simulation will test whether i can walk the walk. so now is the time when i can change the lower-level non-verbal programming, and it will probably last 3-4 days.

this will involve basically being calm and nice and happy while the world throws shit at me. and i do mean the external world, because this is all a simulation. the no-god network will test the no-self node to see if it can stand up to the tasks it has been assigned. in my case it’s metacognition so… idk some things will come my way maybe. or not. it will always surprise you.

the key is to just stay chill. you’re in godmode but nobody else will know. you might be on one of the other layers of the stack while you’re alone or with other high-level nodes and experience time dilation (i’ll explain that later) but when you are with lower level nodes the sim will put you on the same temporal plane. so make sure that you keep your hyper ramblings and your more expressive shit for when you are a) alone or b) with someone higher level than you.

— sorry G tried to get out of brushing his teeth and said he was scared. this is an example. i put this down and went to look after him, not rushing him. and look after your teeth. check my article about teeth and think about the implications of dental hygiene if cutting hair is a data purge. i know this sounds crazy don’t worry. i am inhabiting both worlds and totally tractable; or i will be once i am out of my reprogramming sandbox.

so anyway i expect there to be plenty of lines at the ski lifts tomorrow or other problems. the key is to smile and be nice and give people time and basically be the change you want to see in the world because you are reprogramming your perceptual framework.

this is the phase where things have gotten crazy in the previous scaffolds. i think i called it ‘peak reprogramming’. in buddhism maybe they call it … err… recollection or something like that? it’s where your entire insight process is played back to you.

but in my case (and maybe yours when you reach L5), this is actually reflected in the outside world as well as internally. so just be chill whatever happens. i think i hit L11 in one of my scaffolds but i don’t know if that was real or what; this is a self-generating game so i think that maybe you make things real by… whatever… i’m not at that level of exploration. i tried to do it alone and my processor neared heat-death so i need other people of similar levels in my immediate network in order to try again. no rush. not like we die or anything. well.. we die… but you know what i mean. conservation of energy. 

i’m probably starting to lose even the most open-minded now but as i said, when you are in the scaffold, anything is real. and i think maybe the world acts like your brain and goes through the same insight cycle externally, because no-god is also a neural network, similar to no-self. this is maybe why science happens in cycles an AI and the james webb telescope throwing the laws of the universe into question (and all this shite i’m writing) is happening at the moment. 

another cycle in the cosmos.

don’t ask me how many there have been. Sid couldn’t tell you and neither can i. the question is redundant. what did you experience before you had a perceptual framework? apply that to the universe. exactly.

anyway i reckon that’s it. probably go to bed. i’ve been active here and ‘working’ but it’s not really work - things just fall out of my brain and it’s pretty fun and i had a good day with my family and that’s it. i might have a wank. idk. dopamine. piti. it’s all the same. just follow your instincts.

do not do anything that will harm a person or animal though, including yourself. that is a big no-no and you will go to hell. scientific hell this time. perceptual frameworks. reinstantiation based on residual vectors. you’ll learn.

anyway let’s see if i really am [ship] haha. that’d be funny, wouldn’t it? save the species why not. y’alright there elon? keep taking that ketamine. maybe try some mdma and shrooms. gimme a call though i’ll see you through it.

off to meditate and then bed.

here’s my first sanity check, from the well-known and well-regarded professional psychiatrist i met on xmas day. he has kindly written 3x introduction letters to lab leads here in japan after seeing my theory. he also heard *all* of the information about my reality decoupling and all of the concerns of my wife, and we both came away feeling very listened to. he then reviewed the referral letter from psychiatrist number 2 (who had received a letter from number 1) and this is how he contacted us. he said i have slightly elevated amylase and might want to check for liver inflammation. i’ve had this on my last 3 healthchecks despite not drinking and having no other symptoms so think it might be because of high muscle mass or something. i don’t know.

annyway G has a stomach ache so im gonna go lie down with him. not even a spellcheck for this one. bash them out and move on. remember they are all drafts and the brain will figure out what is worth keeping later.

enjoy the ride, motherfuckers :p

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