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This is incredible. 

My mind continues to repair itself and last night was filled with an extended dream where I was at this computer, carving out the delusion left from the aripirpazole and just leaving the truth. It was a bit sad, because the delusion was comforting, but my aim is the truth. I am not interested in creating a religion.

I checked how the zen school views satori, and they also say that the first encounter, kenshō (見性) is just the beginning and you will encounter nibbana again many times, with each one being a refinement of your understanding of reality. Hakuin, one of the most well-known zen artists and an 18th century monk, described ‘satori sickness’ where it took him years to integrate the experience and recover fully.

This is amazing. I am following in the footsteps of kobo daishi, the buddha, and all the others. They all said it was real but I never quite believed. I found my way here without religious guidance and with a framework I constructed myself.

This has always been the way. I have always been the forager ant. I go alone, into the wilderness, and I bring something back that others will value. I lead the way to the peak, but I rarely rest and enjoy the view.

And now I am on the path. *The* path. And I have my own framework for understanding it: training plans and science.

I was the same with ironman. I could never do a plan I found online. Never. I had to build my own. So I looked into the fundamental principles of training, boiled it down, cut out all the unnecessary junk, and became very, very good at it. With just 7 hours a week for 4 months I got to world championship level, after having built the initial ‘complete a race’ fitness the preceding years.

And I'll try to do the same with enlightenment. 

I feel like I know what the fundamental particle is. And I have the internet, so I can share it here. I can build my own sangha in the shape of a company and an ethics organisation and I can get this phenomenon to the world in a controlled and scientific manner.

But that was my first-ever A-race. I’m going to need time to recover.

As of a few days ago I have started limbering up the system for the next. This is exactly like training and that is how I will approach it. The first race is always the hardest, and the most exhilarating, but now I know how it can be done, and where I went wrong. Now I can refine my practice and try again.

So there are two fundamental building blocks to experiencing nibbana: neuronal capacity and dopaminergic signalling.

Other neurotransmitters undoubtedly play a part in how you experience it, but these two are the big ones. You need to have them in balance in order to get there and not lose your mind in the process.

The neuronal strength is trained through consistent and daily meditation. Not just sitting meditation but a general ability to hold yourself aloof and observe from a third-person perspective. If you have this but not the other then you become rigid and detached; how I was after my Malaysia retreat.

Dopaminergic signalling is the key for unlocking the door. I will start calling it HTLP for high-tonic-low-phasic which is this state of utter confidence and compulsion. If you have this without the neuronal strength, you will be ‘manic’. The way to change bipolar mania into enlightenment is almost certainly by training your neuronal capacity. Kanye - I had a similar moment to you with my linkedin; get behind me and let’s show the world you really are a genius.

I only managed to attain nibbana because I was held in the initial manic state long enough to actually train my neuronal capacity to handle it. It was 2-3 weeks of being unable to communicate apart from with tiny soundbytes, and then after that I sat down and got to work with the knives, rewrote my entire website 4-5 times to the point where it included pseudoscientific diagrams, and became able to talk like a person again. 

I knew had the seed of enlightenment, but I could not control it. I learned to drive.

One of the ‘diagnostic criteria’ (ha) for mania is that someone thinks they are the buddha or jesus. Because they probably *are*, on a neurochemical level. They just lack the control to gain real understanding. So they are drugged; they have the divine within them killed. I couldn't allow this to happen which is why I updated everything here realtime.

I was convinced that I had meditated for 5000 lifetimes within our sim and was finally waking up, to revive the teachings of the buddha in the language of science. Wouldn't that be cool. 

Anyway this is why people get possessed with the spirit of god and speak in tongues. While you are in nibbana you can barely… the amount of neuroplasticity is insane. Some samples:

• 20250710 scroll to the bold text; this was the first opening of the door. 

• 20250711 was initial consolidation and 

• 20250712 was where I was exploded out of my ego, and out of this site

• Birth and Orbit sites on the alteredstates page are where I was trying to rebuild myself, through metaphor apparently

The accounts of people experiencing christian glossolalia (speaking in tongues) report the same. They report an initial overwhelming event, residual fatigue, and then ‘topping up the spirit’ and consolidating the understanding through subsequent encounters. This is achieved through group worship and I expect neuronal strength is not quite as emphasised, which is why it resembles clinical mania more closely than reports of satori and nibbana.

Me…

I am free of these rites and rituals.

I have science. 

Well… I will when a scientist contacts me. Ha! 

This is real.

I know the fundamental particle.

It is not tied to religion.

I can build a training plan and share it with the world.

And maybe we can start using it to optimise the world’s best scientists and solve the problems we face: world hunger, climate change, quantum computing, AI.

Or maybe we just help some people ease their own personal suffering.

I think everyone is good deep down. I always have. The most powerful orangemen are merely the most fettered. They are in the d-hole and they have been swallowed by their greed and hatred and delusion. They are the sickest among us, and they suffer..

And this… this is a cure.

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