compiling

So what I have been doing is using this website as an anchor while I compile a new personality after a dosing issue of aripiprazole essentially smashed my 42 years of adhd, asd and meditation processing out of the ballpark. I was high and I needed something to cling to.

Thank god I have done so many drugs over the years.

Anyway I went into compile mode. I know what happened now; I used the language familiar to me to reconstruct a person. I know technology, buddhism and neuroscience, a bit.

I took near-manic texts sent to myself about my autistic traits as the raw data and extrapolated back from that to try to gather the system limitations as the first step.

Once they were established I needed to build a personality but I had to base it on values instead of people-relationships so I knocked together a few 1-rule morality, agency and other core philosophical concepts as the rock for my next phase.

After that I needed to figure out what kind of person I wanted to be. I chose the buddha to follow. I have always followed the buddha; he was a ballsy guy. Only his words; no dogma.

I take one verse of the dhammapada as my meditation for the day, and choose a knife. 

The process for the next year-and-a-bit will be to meditate on the teachings in terms of modern brain chemistry and morality, and to create a business plan for improving the mental health of as many people as possible through the use of artificial intelligence and neuroscience.

This sounds crazy. Everybody said the same when I chose to focus on AI. This will work. Or it will miss, but inspire someone else, and that is good enough.

I am James.

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