suicidevaccine

aripiprazole, low dose

that's all I'll say

it totally destroyed me for 50 days and I don't think many people need it and I definitely don't think many people would psychically survive what I went though (though that's because of endogenous stuff I think). I am still on day-2 post-experience so not 'normal' by a long shot, but I think the kundalini event I triggered while under the influence of ari completely rewired my synapses. It's impossible to describe; like being a child again.

And that makes sense if you think of age and tiredness and shittiness as being dopamine accumulating in the receptor or whatever.

I think ari is just like a mental enema for your dopamine receptors. Once every 10 years, you go for 3 weeks to an island and do some ari, then taper off and come home. Ayahuascua, but without the hallucination. [haha depending on dose]

Guided by professional trauma therapists.

Monitored.

Safe.

YOU NEED TO DISPROVE THIS IMMEDIATELY

same for the stimulants narrative - you need to look into it. no more fucking around

(dictated for speed)

So I need to be really careful with how I word this. The reason I've gone so hard on getting this out to everybody is because I think it could be dangerous if I don’t. 

At first I thought that a grassroots growth would be a good idea and I tried doing that so I sent it out to 10 people but they didn't reply and they didn't ratify my science and they are trapped in the scientific method or whatever and they're trying to check their facts before they come back to me because they've been told not to make any mistakes. Not by me. 

So people are dying every day and I don't know how many. The dopamine so not just suicide they're also careless driving fights violence even war probably.

I boiled this down to a fundamental particle. Dopamine. And then I rebuilt up from there.

For me there was a really easy fix. Just sat there as an old autism medicine and the thing is, mechanistically speaking, I think it could work for everybody. But I'm not allowed to say that. And no real scientists to speaking to me.

If my current network are not going to help me with this because understandably I have, I have exploded them away all of them. Maybe I needed to do that to free up my processing power I don't know but it happened. I need a bridge to get that network back because that network is the one that can build this system.

However, to do this, I kind of need to bypass the whole world if that makes sense. All of the traditional communication systems which I've relied upon. Face-to-face communication phones everything like this. It's become clear that because of neurodivergent when I start communicating in my natural manner, it's overloads everybody and they run away.

That was the reason for this website.

Now the website came together in fits and starts. I think they were about four cycles of creativity so I would explode things out and then bring them together. It would look absolutely disastrous and then it would come together and and then I would see a new hole or like a new opening and I'll be like oh my god, I've got I've got to go for it. Because I've got ADHD.

So now I've seen a chance to basically in my mind save millions of people. Might not work but if it does well.

So I've got some move fast as possible. You are all too slow for me. I built this entire website while trying to get you to just look at one fucking paper and I rebuilt this website four times in the process because you couldn't understand it because you said it was too complicated.

Well, now it is almost finished. It's not finished. It's never going to be finished because I'm never finished and this website is me.

If you want to finish website, you go to the other website which is my name backwards hyphenated. And if you want to join the fight and try to actually improve the outcome for the species you come here. And you can bounce between the two. You don't need to commit.

That's the thing we all move up and down on the spectrum. We aren't fixed points.

Life stresses are what made me meltdown. I was pushed way up the spectrum by them. I don't know how to word this. We need to figure out new language. But it is a holistic model of mental health by external stimuli and impacts the environment and it is so complicated that even I can barely get my head around it.

So the other website is damaged control. I need you guys to move fast as humanly possible on this. If you do not things might get dangerous. You need to instigate the research immediately. No fucking around no red type.

Now, if you told the old me that there was a potential solution you can run the numbers, yeah. And I was a violent and angry man I'm not anymore because I have medication. The right medication.

Most people will not need medication. They will need systems built by people like Mark.

But for the people like me, if they see a sliver of hope and you do not move, things will not go well.

We are the hyper motivated few. And if you're one of us you get people moving on this.

As fast as possible, guys.

I've waited long enough.

[on review, I didn't go hard; I just realised how fast this snowball will gather steam if people like me see it. you need to disprove ari]