real

So this has all gotten very real very quickly.

Nobody has read it yet so this is genAI brain,

Very real.

I’m happy I have my morality firmed up because the Huberman crew might be coming after me with their deluded god. [Andrew - this was written in an altered state, remember. I want you on side and this is evidence. You are also a logical being]

Idolatry and worship.

Athletic greens and greed.

Anyway let me be very clear that nobody should try to replicate this, apart from with a good psychiatrist, and under supervision. The literature is lacking, which is why you shouldn’t read out scientific papers willy nilly on podcasts, but this med causes a major ascension phase, and I think that given the MoA this ascension phases could be a diagnosis for adhd. So.

I have ADHD and ASD and a lifetime of meditation. Ari hit all 3 of these.

ADHD I think it cleared up everything.

ASD it cleared up sensory issues and processing migraines I never knew I had.

Meditation it lubricated 30 years of semi-regular practice.

This meant that a lifetime of meditative data was suddenly flooding into a mind which had previously only received a trickle.

I did maths, physics and chemistry at school, then a year in Japan, Japanese and Chinese at university with buddhism, then 10 years recruiting and drinking in Tokyo, cycling asia, before landing to focus on AI from 2014 and build some of the country’s top AI firms. I started self-studying endocrinology and neuroscience  about 5 years ago. You should see my world championships training plan.

Anyway.

This is very unlikely to have such a profound impact on you is what I’m saying, so please don’t try it unless supervised.

I don’t care for greed and this is a generic drug; nobody can imitate what I experienced anyway ha. No way. But if they try then that’s good.

1 - Use ari to diagnose and treat my flavour of audhd because my friends would still be here if you did.

2 - Create a type of all-in-one diagnosis / treatment / therapy retreat for adhd sufferers. An ayahuascua purging of the past. The main reason for this is money.

3 - Use that money to build simulations of the brain and map out as in the cartography suggestion.

4 - Use these simulations to plan treatment and anticipate side effects for all mental health issues.

I just need some people that I can bounce ideas off. I’m good in an echo chamber but there are limits and I’m starting to feel a little uncontained at the moment.

And that’s another good reason to just take it easy over the next few weeks. Unwind. You can still output but easy like this. Just take it easy. Those 2 years were hardcore. 6 weeks whatever it was 2 years, really, because that’s how much of my ticker tape was used.

We didn’t evolve to live this long and I think these midlife crises / spiritual awakenings / breakdowns are a kind of memory overload on the rules of life. An implosion around this point in life is so common, especially in high performers. We may have near-infinite ‘static’ memory but volitional action and karma are not static. They are elastic rules which bend each time they take a blow.

Anyway I’m going to potter.

Fucking amazing being able to potter.

I wonder if I should contact Tim Ferris. He seems like the type for what comes next. He might move.

Don’t contact him yet though james. Time dilation. You’re bad enough anyway.

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