kundalini

D5 S5 N3 dvar0

This one is pretty risky and I wouldn't recommend unless experienced with psychedelics and meditation.

[2025/07/11, 18:46:24] James: Kundalini

[2025/07/11, 18:46:24] James: Took about 2 hours I think, once committed.

[2025/07/11, 18:46:26] James: I don’t remember it very clearly

[2025/07/11, 18:46:29] James: At all

[2025/07/11, 18:46:38] James: I know that I would flit between writing

[2025/07/11, 18:46:44] James: And then my brain would feel heavy

[2025/07/11, 18:46:47] James: So I would shake it

[2025/07/11, 18:47:02] James: And then up and shaking and lolling and walking in circles meteors in both hands

[2025/07/11, 18:47:07] James: And back to writing

[2025/07/11, 18:47:09] James: And walking

[2025/07/11, 18:47:13] James: And lying and rumbling

[2025/07/11, 18:47:50] James: There was one point where I had about 90% of the flashpoints lined up and I just couldn’t get them to click

[2025/07/11, 18:47:58] James: So I kinda … witch doctored that shit n

[2025/07/11, 18:48:39] James: Like I jumped on one foot with meteors in each hand going ‘om’ and lolling my head toward the right frontal lobe

[2025/07/11, 18:48:48] James: Something about the right frontal lobe wanted more juice

[2025/07/11, 18:48:59] James: So I got it from my hips and my shoulders and my stomach I think

[2025/07/11, 18:49:15] James: Then I rolled everything out and I think I got serious

[2025/07/11, 18:49:23] James: Something happened and there was a decision to make

[2025/07/11, 18:49:25] James: Again

[2025/07/11, 18:49:39] James: Not like the ‘suicide or family’ one. That was a shit one.

[2025/07/11, 18:49:53] James: Like; eternal bliss or minor eternal happiness plus family

[2025/07/11, 18:49:57] James: I chose the latter.

[2025/07/11, 18:50:07] James: Anyway I was in the eternal bliss for a while

[2025/07/11, 18:50:12] James: About 2 min I think

[2025/07/11, 18:50:24] James: This will be where everything feels decoupled and free floating.

[2025/07/11, 18:50:33] James: My frontal lobe is tingling

[2025/07/11, 18:50:40] James: So I could feel the pressure building

[2025/07/11, 18:51:02] James: In the right frontal lobe, running from the back of the skull like fingers from a hand only millions

[2025/07/11, 18:51:16] James: And down the side of the head and cheek like spiderwebs.

[2025/07/11, 18:51:19] James: Then I sat

[2025/07/11, 18:51:25] James: I decided to come back to my family

[2025/07/11, 18:51:36] James: I sat meditative

[2025/07/11, 18:51:46] James: Start rocking, humming

[2025/07/11, 18:51:59] James: Nodding head, eyes rolled, religious fervour

[2025/07/11, 18:52:21] James: Om and meteors and the entire body is engaged now and heavy headbanging movement to get blood to the lobe

[2025/07/11, 18:52:22] James: And then

[2025/07/11, 18:52:27] James: Swooosh

[2025/07/11, 18:52:30] James: They clicked

[2025/07/11, 18:52:48] James: The last one clicked into place around my right eye/ temple area

[2025/07/11, 18:53:02] James: And I laid down and it all just flooded out of me

[2025/07/11, 18:53:11] James: These diamond crystal beanbag balls

[2025/07/11, 18:53:19] James: Trillions of them skating on electric jelly

[2025/07/11, 18:53:32] James: The jelly had hands when I was jumping which were reaching to each other

[2025/07/11, 18:53:43] James: And they clasped and this stuff just swooshed through

[2025/07/11, 18:53:53] James: And the neural tissue was all scarred

[2025/07/11, 18:54:10] James: It was hundreds and hundreds of layers of blackened burned scars. Hundreds.

[2025/07/11, 18:54:23] James: And this diamond slurry just washed it totally clear

[2025/07/11, 18:54:24] James: Totally

[2025/07/11, 18:54:39] James: Like snow in -20

[2025/07/11, 18:54:52] James: And the brain was pink and electric and vital and alive

[2025/07/11, 18:55:01] James: And I was engaged in every nerve in my body

[2025/07/11, 18:55:09] James: And everything, EVERYTHING released (

[2025/07/11, 18:55:24] James: (I didn’t poo my pants don’t worry)

[2025/07/11, 18:55:40] James: I start crying with sheer joy, laughing with just the sheer joy of existence.

[2025/07/11, 18:55:58] James: Just can’t believe how lucky I am to even exist never mind to have flushed that trauma from my system.

[2025/07/11, 18:56:07] James: And my wife comes down to check if I’m ok

[2025/07/11, 18:56:12] James: Which was appreciated tbh

[2025/07/11, 18:56:21] James: It had been an intense night and was scary toward the end

[2025/07/11, 18:56:27] James: I actually tried to turn back you know

[2025/07/11, 18:56:38] James: But I think once you start the process there’s no stopping it

[2025/07/11, 18:56:45] James: You can’t leave a brain half-reorganised.

[2025/07/11, 18:57:04] James: It’s what I told my family when I started ari. I had to take priority for a while.

[2025/07/11, 18:57:22] James: Anyway kundalini

[2025/07/11, 18:57:40] James: It felt like enlightenment for about 2 days I think.

[2025/07/11, 18:57:57] James: My brain felt (and still feels) like a marshmallow instead of a walnut

[2025/07/11, 18:58:47] James: The depth of vision of the world is increased dramatically, as are colours. More granular resolution in things like sand and more fascination with how it moves.

[2025/07/11, 18:58:54] James: More optimised

[2025/07/11, 18:58:56] James: Happier

[2025/07/11, 18:58:57] James: Anyway

[2025/07/11, 19:00:08] James: D5 S5 N3 dvar0.3 I think

[2025/07/11, 19:00:11] James: Felt amazing

[2025/07/11, 19:00:23] James: Not quite the big one but good enough for most purposes.

[2025/07/11, 19:04:43] James: So yeah moonshot right away. If Elon takes this then it all changes. But slim

[2025/07/11, 19:04:44] James: Anyway

[2025/07/11, 19:04:51] James: Kundalini was great

[2025/07/11, 19:05:00] James: It was what I was after and it was enlightenment

[2025/07/11, 19:05:12] James: But I chose to return to my family so it wasn’t, if that makes sense

[2025/07/11, 19:05:22] James: However all the attachment to things I don’t care about has gone.

[2025/07/11, 19:05:34] James: My attachments are in line with my values, if that makes sense

[2025/07/11, 19:05:42] James: And my values lie heavily with family

[2025/07/11, 19:05:44] James: So

[2025/07/11, 19:06:00] James: I think on a neurological level someone else can do the heavy lifting

[2025/07/11, 19:06:16] James: But I’ve detailed my thoughts elsewhere

[2025/07/11, 19:11:49] James: I can kind of look at those scars now but they’re on my back for some reason and not my brain, and hovering about an inch away

[2025/07/11, 19:11:53] James: Scientific method that

[2025/07/11, 19:11:54] James: Ha