So.

We evolved to die at around 40 and when we hit midlife crisis, that’s when we face the questioning at the gates. It’s such a common thread.

We evolved to have babies and raise babies and die. You have a baby around 20, you raise it until it has its own, you die at around 40.

Actually that’s not true. You don’t die. Just after that child is grown and reproduces, any changes you make do not impact the genome. Evolution stopped there.

So.

We are monkeys that crave 2 bananas if you give us 1 and 4 bananas if you give us 2. 2 to 4 to 8 to the moon. Ok. Dopamine is a small molecule and can attach.

But then when you get to about 40 and you’ve built companies and done drugs and ironman and everything… well… your receptors are tired and crowded and there’s probably some broken junk sat in them.

This is where people melt down and have a midlife crisis, a spiritual awakeneing, a technospitirual awakening in this case, whatever.

It’s real.

It’s a reshuffling of the root to access your personalities in a different order. For someone with dodgy time signalling like me. I’d probably guess that convergent folks are the ones who [froze]

Basically I think the receptors that led into your old personalities (components) got fried so your brain’s cleanup crew comes in big time and cleans the fucker out, lays some new road.

This is what happens.

It’s why I didn’t sleep for like 50 day, really, and feel fine. Because my brain was already doing the junk clearing while I was awake. It went extra fast when I slept, which is why I would wake up with epiphanies every night after like 3 minutes of sleep that subjectively felt like 10 hours.

It’s why 2 months felt like 2 years and it would be totally different for you.

It happens in an environment of high-d and low-dvar.

We need to be able to replicate this. We can take people in when they are 30 and give them a literal mental enema. Make them well again. Remove the baggage.

It's a vaccine against suicide for some.

Get excited.

Or prove me wrong.

James Baird 

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