So my final altered state felt like enlightenment, and in my understanding of the word I am confident in saying it was one and the same as what the buddha achieved, on a biochemical level. *
It was a self-guided dissolution of ego and attachment. It was the blasting away of all karma and cmem from my past lives; a clean slate. I'll call it annihilation.
I didn’t sit under a bodhi tree; I danced around my living room like a witch doctor. It was the same thing.
I felt all the data from my past lives line up. Remember Jambo had already been in charge for a month or so; he had laid the ground and then drove me to do all the dangerous meditative practices while under the influence.
He pushed me all the way and then… I could feel all the synapses throughout my entire brain which were jumbled and messy all just wiggling around like empty water balloons reaching to form a new bond. And then I tilt my head just so while the vibration of a certain bassline builds and - whoosh.
All the synapses connect, through my entire brain. Starting near the top of the skull, slightly to the right of the brain stem, slightly forward, I feel a jolt, a big one, which propagates across my entire brain and then down, down my face and into my body and out of my digits and into the world.
And then I am the ship for 4 days.
On a biological level this is obviously a large seizure. I was lying on the floor, crying with joy, and my wife came down worried that I was dying. I was ecstatic, same as Dostoevsky.
And it felt like all the rules I had learned in 42 years of life were optimised. Everything was just… instead of having to go a-b-c-d…. it just goes a-z. Everything.
But only the things I know from my past life experience; there is no otherworldly knowledge. Even the silly business and science plans I came up with are from the archives of James’ mind.
So yeah.
It’s not what you think. Ha.
Pretty sure that’s what the b-man said?
Different times, different language.
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*important: mine was temporary and drug/chanting induced, while his appears to have been permanent. It is a state I called d5dvar0; utmost confidence and control. b-man clearly said that any human can achieve this state. It is not mystical. It is a brain chemistry. My version was also fudged by the drugs, and I chose to remain with my family instead of dissolve the self; I'm still human and not a buddha.