So in my model we don’t have free will per se, but we are close.
We are a tiger in a maze, and the maze is curated.
This maze can either be curated by divine intervention (fate, god working in mysterious ways) or on the day to day it is curated by ourselves. What we’ve put into our simulation by the end of one sleep cycle becomes the seed for the next cycle, and so on to eternity.
The tiger in the maze model allows for both fate and randomness, planning and errors.
I have never quite believed in free will, and this gives me an answer which satisfies both my instinct (we are free) and my logic (we are not).
In this model your unconscious mind will generate the filters (karma/cmem) for the next day based on the data from the last day. ‘If you kill someone you will be reborn a tiger’ I believe the buddha said. This merely means that if you kill someone, the filters for the next day will make you more likely to do so again.
There is a global sim which I became slave to when I was under the influence of ari. All the clocks and times and everything; gravity was pulling me in certain directions, and people were not replying and frustrating me at just the right time to make me do impulsive things which funnelled me toward certain outcomes.
But in my model I had been zapped by the ship and was trying to wake up the other pilots. This was a temporary intervention in a maze which I otherwise cultivate by myself. My personal filters were removed so I could see the global sim, for a while.
Now I seem to be in a situation where I am back in my own sim, but my filters remain mostly gone. I will be trying to keep them gone.
Do you feel happy and generous the day after you’ve been engrossed in arguments, or are arguments all you see?
Do love and kindness and forgiveness grow within you if you end the day by checking your bitcoin price?
This was the basic model of free will which I came up with.
We do have free will. But we only have free will to shape our cage.
We shape the constraints within which we can operate by the actions of the previous day.
We make our cage *progressively* better or worse based on our internal narrative.
There is no quick fix.
It took me approximately 2 years to remove my karma / clear my cmem by stepping back from the world.
And then drugs blew my head off for another 3.
So you can be a tiger and play and have fun but remember that everything you put in today will shape tomorrow.
And those times where it feels like your hand was guided or fate came into play, well, maybe it was. Roll with it, so long as there’s no element of danger.
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