meditation

[2025/07/22, 13:52:53] James: I tell people I’ve meditated my whole life and they look at me like I’m crazy

[2025/07/22, 13:52:55] James: Surely not James

[2025/07/22, 13:52:58] James: You were a madman

[2025/07/22, 13:53:00] James: Yes

[2025/07/22, 13:53:01] James: Well

[2025/07/22, 13:53:04] James: It’s all relative

[2025/07/22, 13:53:22] James: I would have been dead if not for constant meditation from my early teens, to tame the tiger

[2025/07/22, 13:53:55] James: I do have audhd and my adhd was bad so the only way I kept the wheels on was a very intensive but very subtle meditation practice even I didn’t know was happening half the time

[2025/07/22, 13:53:57] James: Walking

[2025/07/22, 13:53:59] James: Running

[2025/07/22, 13:54:01] James: Cycling

[2025/07/22, 13:54:03] James: All solo

[2025/07/22, 13:54:39] James: All repetitive motions which hold my crazy dopamine system latched to something that doesn’t require active thought; just awareness

[2025/07/22, 13:54:56] James: Total and complete focus on the bodily sensations as a way to detach from my thoughts

[2025/07/22, 13:55:10] James: This is why I experienced enlightenment, in a transient manner

[2025/07/22, 13:55:25] James: I had built the neuronal strength, but I was Jupiter. My clouds were high.

[2025/07/22, 13:55:39] James: I guess they still are

[2025/07/22, 13:55:52] James: But my point is that I did all the groundwork

[2025/07/22, 13:56:27] James: And I did do an extensive sitting meditation practice; the SN Goenka retreat followed by 2 hours a day for a year

[2025/07/22, 13:56:44] James: But breath alone is not enough if a latch for me. I am too wild.

[2025/07/22, 13:56:58] James: I need something tangible and I need progress within the meditation which I can quantify

[2025/07/22, 13:57:10] James: I cycle from a to b

[2025/07/22, 13:57:19] James: I take a rusty blade and I make it new

[2025/07/22, 13:57:54] James: These are all meditations. As is simple rocking back and forth on the floor, swaying, humming; any kind of warp is a meditation

[2025/07/22, 13:58:43] James: It is a repetitive action which latches your dopamine system, lowering dvar and enabling your cmem to spool out

[2025/07/22, 13:58:55] James: Is that Scientific enough, Mr Method?

[2025/07/22, 13:59:31] James: It keeps my PFC occupied and provides a soothing rhythm so that time cells function properly and my memories can sequence

[2025/07/22, 13:59:35] James: Not quite?

[2025/07/22, 14:00:10] James: How about it enables me to bring these thoughts out onto the page and then optimise them into better code so that my memory isn’t as overloaded

[2025/07/22, 14:00:20] James: It stops me shutting down.

[2025/07/22, 14:00:38] James: And imploding, but anyway

[2025/07/22, 14:01:19] James: So people were like ‘James you’re not enlightened’ and I’m like ‘fucking hell I know but I’m a lot closer’ and they’ve done some drugs when they were young so assume it’s like when I dropped them pills and shrooms and saw god in my 20s

[2025/07/22, 14:01:24] James: This couldn’t be more different

[2025/07/22, 14:01:28] James: This is real

[2025/07/22, 14:01:39] James: It is decades of work, fast tracked and consolidated

[2025/07/22, 14:02:18] James: The ari enabled me to optimise all of the circuits in my brain, somehow, and one of these was meditation

[2025/07/22, 14:03:04] James: I spent several time dilated weeks (1.5 years) doing nothing but looking at the depths of my soul and polishing it, breaking down in wracking sobs and finding all kinds of shit I never knew was holding me down

[2025/07/22, 14:03:29] James: The dopaminergic effects of the medicine increased emotional lability and salience encoding, Mr Method

[2025/07/22, 14:03:54] James: The meditation I did when fucked up was 100x as effective as anything I’d done before, and it was intentional

[2025/07/22, 14:04:12] James: Me in charge Jambo in charge whatever. Maybe Jambo is my beast, as L said. The beast.

[2025/07/22, 14:04:22] James: I am bad. I'mmm baaaaaddd mmmmm

[2025/07/22, 14:04:26] James: Yeaaaa

[2025/07/22, 14:04:28] James: Baaaad

[2025/07/22, 14:04:41] James: This beast has always wanted enlightenment.

[2025/07/22, 14:05:20] James: This last year I was focused on yoga

[2025/07/22, 14:05:40] James: All the breathing, hatha, meditation. My wife was like ‘why don’t you just enjoy it like a normal person’

[2025/07/22, 14:05:52] James: Because I can’t, darling. Or I couldn’t, anyway. Maybe I can now.

[2025/07/22, 14:06:29] James: Yoga showed me the power of the nadis and vibration. Posture and chanting and the entire being achieving a resonant frequency with the universe.

[2025/07/22, 14:06:50] James: That is why I went for the kundalini when I saw the opening. I could feel it happening, and once it had started the beast was in control

[2025/07/22, 14:06:57] James: Jambo is a hard cunt

[2025/07/22, 14:07:11] James: He drags me through some shit and toughens me up.

[2025/07/22, 14:07:14] James: I hate him at times

[2025/07/22, 14:07:19] James: This time… I owe him

[2025/07/22, 14:07:24] James: All this joy I feel now.

[2025/07/22, 14:07:28] James: This is not the drugs

[2025/07/22, 14:07:42] James: This is the real, neuronal work of a lifetime of meditation

[2025/07/22, 14:07:45] James: I am not enlightened

[2025/07/22, 14:07:59] James: I had a brief glimpse because of hard drugs. It nearly killed me.

[2025/07/22, 14:08:08] James: So.

[2025/07/22, 14:08:12] James: If this is real

[2025/07/22, 14:08:23] James: I can either use cannabis to lower the burden of communicating

[2025/07/22, 14:08:34] James: Lower the current in the wire, as Alan Watts would say.

[2025/07/22, 14:08:51] James: Or I can keep making my knives and building my neuronal strength

[2025/07/22, 14:09:07] James: So that this state is not contingent on any external factors

[2025/07/22, 14:09:14] James: I thought it was contingent on ari

[2025/07/22, 14:09:17] James: It was not

[2025/07/22, 14:09:42] James: It is not contingent on approval or money or sleep or …

[2025/07/22, 14:09:48] James: I need to figure out, basically

[2025/07/22, 14:10:11] James: If I was 30% of the way to enlightenment, this recent event bumped me closer to 80%.

[2025/07/22, 14:10:17] James: Enlightenment is just a flow state anyway

[2025/07/22, 14:10:23] James: And we people with short memories…

[2025/07/22, 14:10:28] James: We get into flow states easily.

[2025/07/22, 14:10:30] James: Good or bad

[2025/07/22, 14:10:53] James: Enlightenment, in my mind, is when you are in a flow state which mimics the global sim perfectly

[2025/07/22, 14:11:22] James: When your local sim is synced with the global sim and you can see all the extra dimensions that were open to Van Gogh and Einstein

[2025/07/22, 14:11:35] James: But it is also a quantum state; when you observe it, it vanishes

[2025/07/22, 14:11:49] James: So meditate

[2025/07/22, 14:11:51] James: Warp

[2025/07/22, 14:12:05] James: Let your cmem clear so you can experience the world with clarity, purity

[2025/07/22, 14:12:12] James: This is just Alan Watts for the modern day

[2025/07/22, 14:12:27] James: The unspeakable world

[2025/07/22, 14:12:32] James: Well.

[2025/07/22, 14:12:36] James: It was unspeakable

[2025/07/22, 14:12:40] James: But Alan…

[2025/07/22, 14:12:54] James: We have code now. We have granularity.

[2025/07/22, 14:13:02] James: We don’t need to rely on human language.

[2025/07/22, 14:13:15] James: We can replicate it

[2025/07/22, 14:13:18] James: Replicate reality

[2025/07/22, 14:13:24] James: In every way, shape and form

[2025/07/22, 14:13:31] James: And we just don’t realise

[2025/07/22, 14:13:37] James: That we control our own simulations

[2025/07/22, 14:13:53] James: We literally shape our worlds by what we expose ourselves to

[2025/07/22, 14:14:20] James: Meditation is warping and weaving. It doesn’t have to be sitting there cross legged.

[2025/07/22, 14:15:13] James: Go rub your rock or hop on one leg

[2025/07/22, 14:15:19] James: This is all a step to enlightenment

[2025/07/22, 14:15:23] James: It is a step to liberation

[2025/07/22, 14:15:30] James: Even in the immediate you will feel liberated

[2025/07/22, 14:15:41] James: And if enough of us liberate our local sims

[2025/07/22, 14:15:45] James: We can change the global sim

[2025/07/22, 14:15:48] James: We can cure greed

[2025/07/22, 14:15:55] James: We can cure our world, even

[2025/07/22, 14:16:00] James: We might not need to go to space

[2025/07/22, 14:16:05] James: But if we do, I know how we do it

[2025/07/22, 14:16:12] James: So just chill

[2025/07/22, 14:16:18] James: It’ll be alright

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