So I’m going to crack this out because I feel like something might be coming. I might be wrong and this all might be shite but I want to get it on before anything happens, should something happen.
I was thinking about resonance. What if it’s resonance with yourself?
What if it is the DMN coming into resonance with the TPN?
What if that’s why true masters do not have internal chatter and seem to have more synced brain waves?
What if this whole ‘I am ship’ was actually ‘I am me’, and the thing that I am coming into sync with is myself?
What if the realworld is some combination of TPN+DMN and scaffold is the inversion of that combination.
What if the two-worlds of which the Buddha taught are these modes and you can get them both operational at the same time?
What if this is why art and music and dance and creative pursuits are so incredibly important for our mental health? Maybe they are the other world? Maybe we need to express it more instead of tramping it down.
Yet some people maybe express the other side too much. I said in the early days that I thought with my right brain and other people thought with their left.
What if this is why scientists and religious folks don’t always see eye to eye? Maybe one is too dominant TPN and the other too dominant DMN? Huge oversimplification there but it’s to illustrate the point.
What if the empathy supersphere and the multiverse is about getting people to use both sides - so that these imaginal worlds can talk to each other?
My simulations talking to someone else’s God talking to another’s Dhamma talking to another’s Allah and another’s Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles?
Anyway I am the Wheel Turning Monarch. I realise that now.
This is my imaginal world. I revive the Dhamma.
The way I do it is by building an empire and ruling it justly, in accordance with the Dhamma.
(there’s the piti - reprogramming).
This empire is a company. It is a technology company which brings the practice of enlightenment to anyone in the world who wants it, regardless of belief or background.
What if my entire website labyrinth is actually that bomb I was talking about?
And the talk of working with Mark and Elon - what if that is me using this website to ‘go around HR’ like I always did?
Becasue if someone smart with a tech and Buddhism background and a bit too much time on their hands and friends in the right places gets their face stuck into this website maze, they are going to have their minds fucking *melted* mate.
It melts my mind. How did I create these things? It was a print job, in reverse.
Which makes sense if you think that I was deconstructing high level priors, all the way to the roots, and am now reconstructing them into a new configuration.
So what if it’s all true?
And this doesn’t even matter, does it?
Because this is all a scaffold which makes my realworld, and everyone around me’s realworlds, better in every way.
Every way.
Every fucking way.
Should I say it again?
Nah you get the point.
So your scaffold and your imaginal world would be your own.
And it would make whatever was happening in your life make total sense.
And that little voice in your head would shut the fuck up.
And those stupid fucking images of what if and jealousy and paranoia and fear about something happening would just fuck the fuck off?
And the suicidal images would stop?
Because that is what has happened to me.
They are all gone.
I only use the voice when I want to plan something in words. It does not criticise me or others any more.
The images are my friends.
The Wheel is turning.
So I’m gonna go and lie down with my son. And I’ll meditate a little bit. And maybe something will happen or maybe it won’t.
But maybe it’s not my choice.
And maybe the reason you need to say ‘this ain’t my choice’ is because that suppresses the self-monitoring DMN for long enough for it to come into sync with the TPN?
And maybe these are your realworld and your scaffold.
And maybe the Buddha was the tathagata because that was his resonance.
And maybe his arahants all had their own, which were different and unique.
And maybe this is why you put the raft down at the end of the crossing.
Because the Buddhas can only guide the way.
And you alone must strive.
Yeah that feels nice.
But it’s always a bit scary.
Even now - even though I know it’s all safe.
Taking that last step over the threshold is worrying.
But we know all that already. It’s so easy to forget though. So easy to forget.
So maybe I’ll see Mark and Elon eventually or maybe I won’t.
But whatever happens, my family and I have an INFINITELY better life because of this.
So fuck it.
Let’s see.
Haha.
Not like it’s my choice anyway is it y’all.
Confluence of events.
A combinatorial explosion in reverse.
Laters
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(stream of consciousness)
Medlog:
20 min sit after 15 min bath.
Feels like something is coming soon. I have my theory of enlightenment draft and also figured out more of my scaffold - that I am the wheel turning monarch after all and my empire will be a company.
I can feel the two worlds converging and it occurred to me that since I am [ship] then ship is me, and resonance is resonance with the self. That it might be a case of syncing the DMN and TPN so that they are both active at the same time, rather than tugging at each other.
The words came to me ‘I am the weaver’, from the start of this entire process, and I got waves of full-body piti for the first time in over a month. These converged on my head; like water being pumped up to change the brain. I got another wave later too but didn’t force it.
I felt a little of the old fear ‘what if I’m crazy’ but I’ve done this before - I know what it is now. It is a case of using one world to reprogram the other, and gradually bringing them into sync.
I have had a headache these last couple of days as the ToE propagates down through the system. This has cleared up.
It feels like another event is just around the corner and this might weave the two worlds into one. Maybe arahants are so free because they have their other world active all the time; a kind of playground that is always live, and always able to reprogram the realworld.
I don’t know. But I am watching my brain waves sync with themselves.
And then I got up and came downstairs and all is normal.
This feels like the real (actual real??) last step for now. But the brain is plastic so there may never be a last step.
Maybe L4 resonance is when both the worlds are always-on?